I am so insecure that it is self destructive, I don't know if im ugly or if im good looking, it's really really fucking bad. I have been bullied my entire childhood and I never learned how to socialize like a normal person, I just learned how to feel like trash. I am so lonely but i make myself lonely because i shouldn't pollute the gene pool. Oh lord why did you make me like this, why, I just wanna be normal, God why cant i be normal, please help me, I feel so awful, sorry for writing all of this but I just need to get it off my chest
>I don't know if im ugly or if im good looking, it's really really fucking bad
This is the worst. I have so many contradictory experiences that it puts me in a constant state of confusion, and gives me false hope.
>>35898504
>I am so lonely but i make myself lonely because i shouldn't pollute the gene pool.
You don't have to fuck everyone you befriend or even get into a relationship with, you know.
>Oh lord why did you make me like this, why
It was probably your shitty parents, or siblings, or peers.
You should really consider going to therapy. It could help you sort out how you view yourself, which is obviously making you pretty miserable.
>>35898618
>one month you are convinced you are 7/10
>next month you feel like a literal 2/10
>no fucking idea what to think
>every time you ask people you get completely contradictory responses
>>35898504
make dating profile on some shit
if girls view your profile you are good if not bad news
at least you will know for sure and stop worrying
>>35898701
>made a profile on okcupid when I was 24
>only messaged maybe 2 girls
>my inbox was drier than the saharan desert
>did get a few profile views and winks or wtfever though
What does this mean?