Loneliness

I used to know that feel until not long ago.

Now I don't want to cry but I can't help it. The pain is overbearing. The huge regret mixed with that voice inside my head saying "I should really fucking kill myself" every five minutes and the permanent drunkenness make it hard to not break down every so often.

>>35861338
It's like im in limbo im so close to death
No friends, no job, never really been intimate with anyone, don't see a future

I feel so trapped, i dont think i can ever get out of this because it's my natural personality that causes this

Used to get sad by thoughts of loneliness but now all I do is school vidya and workout since it's like a natural anti depressant. Leaves me contempt desu.

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You get used to it. Eventually you find ways to justify it. Can't steal from yourself, etc.

I think a lot of my sadness stems from never getting to be with anyone I've liked
and im only getting older, i'll never have my young romance

being rejected by girls is being told you are genetically worthless

>>35861509
You think you get used to it, maybe you are for a year or 2, but it comes back

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>>35861338
>want someone to ask me how I am because I'm too stupid to go to someone for support
>someone finally asks: "Are you okay?"
>"I-I'm f-fine."

Every fucking time

>>35861509
>Can't steal from yourself, etc.

what?

>>35861613
>>35861422
Jek.

This kind of sturdy dry occassionally intolerant guy we are.
Our feelings inside contract with the nature of our own default forms.

How tragic.