Why bother anymore

I often wonder how I'm going to kill myself when I can no longer be the worthless parasite that I am.

I'm not afraid of death, but some of the suicide methods themselves scare me.

>>35854811
I'm not afraid of death, I just don't want to intentionally kill myself. Just do reckless things looking for a way out...

>>35854856
Which would be intentional... wtf is wrong with me

Think about it every day in passing. It's no big deal, though.

i cant even be bothered to think about my suicide method

Nah it's alright mate. Your life can't be that bad.
I mean, i just went to the lake, and some couple suddenly sat next to me and started fooling around and moaning, so i got embarrassed and left and heard them laugh afterwards. Then on the way back home, i accidently swallowed a bug that flew in my mouth, and i threw up on the ground.
Today is really not my day, but you just keep on paddling you know.

>>35855422
This is such a good short story. I saved it.
It's like you swallowed a bit of Anton Chekov with that bug.

>>35856891
I always hear about Russian literature on 4chan but never got to read any of it. At middle/high school we read a lot of German, French, British, Irish and and a bit of North American literature, but never any Russian.
My favorite short story is "Through the tunnel" by Doris Lessing. It's about a kid diving through a tunnel and almost drowning

>>35857258
I am definitely going to read that. And you should write, but do something else to make money. I would love to read a story or a book you wrote in the style of that post or whatever else you can dream up. I seriously read your post over and over. Very funny and well-written.

I picked Chekov because he's supposed to be the master of the short story.