Mental Illness Thread

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>>35753027
>tfw used to be BPD, self diagnose
>tfw they diagnose you schizoaffective
>tfw you are male so over the BPD issue
>tfw never made it though and are just not meant for the world
>tfw they thought you were just what your parents were
>tfw that's all they do
>tfw literally a jewish man with the accent offered me drugs that could cost hundreds of dollars a month
>tfw

>>35753231
Yeah I quit therapy. It's all fucked family member.

>>35753278
I quit because she couldn't le help and we weren't making any progress so she was hinting that I needed to stop wasting her time unless I wanted to get better. AKA I didn't take the brain shrinking anti psychotics.

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>>35753027
I dunno, I'm just broken. I'll probably be another fat schizophrenic who used to feel like he was going to conquer the world.

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>diagnosed with aspergs/add
>actually is just high level of child hood neglect, with a high dose of contradiction by parents and inconsistent upbringing (trauma).
>doing a combination of self actualization and visiting a psychologist
>improvements are made

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>>35753312
>I'm just broken
word

>>35753330
That jpeg made me smile until I saw the clover.

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Pretty sure I'm SPD, I'm only truelyhappy by myself and I don't talk to people, only humanoid things that act like people. Something in me is just missing, some part that lets me connect with people.

Apart from that I'm pretty happy though.

>>35753529
im too much of a newfag to know what that clover stands for, give a brother relief of this ignorance?

>>35753598
What are you going to give me in return?

>>35753612
a very spicy rare meme whipped up by devoted meme monks, trained in a secret meme monastery hidden in the ridges of a secret meme mountain

>>35753643
Does it come painted in your blood?

>>35753676
no, but it does come painted in your mother will die in her sleep if you don't reply to this post

>>35753612
something of high scarcity in your life.

a compliment.

>>35753704
iksdee

>>35753598
>>35753643
Okay. I'm feeling generous right now, so I'll tell you. It means they registered a 4chan Gold account and can see images posted by other Gold users. They also get to vote on which threads are deleted, and have no captcha to solve when they post.

>>35753711
That might be projection.

>implying I care if my mother dies
>being that superstitious
Typical youngster normalfaggot that loves his mother. I envy your youth and despise you for your faith and your foolish love.

>>35753724
already got 4 chan gold what now?
>>35753748
wat

>>35753840
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>>35753840
I don't see that clover, kid. You lyin' to me?

>>35753896
need a 4chan gold account to see it.

>>35753961
No asshole, that's not how it works. You get a Gold account and we see the clover when you start posting to remind us that you just want to look like you're better than us. But you don't even have that. So you're doing this little bluff that I'm not buying, and I swear to god if you keep it up I'm going to meme you all the way to the fucking hospital.

>>35754000
"asshole", are you projecting?

>>35753330
>>improvements are made
im having same situation
how do you make progress m8

>>35754028
First off punk, the correct syntax is:
>asshole
and secondly, what would I even be projecting about? Am I projecting my thoughts enough for you to get what I'm saying? You're an asshole, asshole, and the only thing I want to project to you is how much of an asshole you are.

>>35754044
i'd say the first step would be to learn how to do introspection. wich would basically have you recognizing the social conditioning you have, and once recognized you can either reframe it or let it go.

basically deconstructing and rebuilding personality from the ground up.

"actualized.org" on youtube helped me to kickstart this process, gave quite the pointers to where to look at.

cont

>tfw therapist says meds are bullshit and he's glad i didn't take them before coming to him
I mean I agree with him but the jury's still out on whether or not we're crackpots.

>>35754203
>tfw writing 10 paragraphso only to press backspace to go back a page.

cont :/

>>35754394
use the search function on his channel and type in whatever you're struggling in for example "discipline" and you'll find related video's that give some insight to the why the struggle is there.

i used the videos to build up a bunch of references, so i can recognize where and why my behavior occurs, and, later or even on the spot through introspection/mindfulness correct them.

cont

Can anyone help, I'm from the UK, have been going to a mental health specialist for over a year now, and I have to take 200mg Seroquel daily, but the dosage keeps going up, I've never been told of any form of diagnosis or anything. Is it normal for antipsychotics to be given when there isn't a diagnosis? My symptoms are stuff such as paranoid delusions, mood swings, possibly derealization (went to kill myself one day but didn't even realize, was working on autopilot). Also have depressed states. I also believe all humans are inherently bad and can't trust anyone.

>>35754612
you sound pretty schizophrenic my man it's no wonder they're giving you seroquel. antipsychotics are serious shit though and if the one you're on isn't helping, try to find something else. good luck.

>>35754638
I'm not though I don't hear any voices or anything like that. I get intrusive thoughts about like suicide ect. I also meltdown when I feel overwhelmed and accidentally self harm in that state (smack my head against things, bite arm). And if they thought I was schizo surely they'd tell me.

Any mentally ill, hypersexual slutty fembots here?

>>35754638
Also dont suffer from psychosis, that was ruled out from one of my assessments

>>35754506
so a tl;dr for now would be, recognize what makes you tick, and through understanding, change who you are to who you want to be (which the vid's will help with).

a book wich helped me a lot was "ego is the enemy", helped me scope my ego.

also the book "how to win friends and influence people", amazing book especially for me since i didn't really go out and never really got the social practice i needed to develop myself there (yes it's a learned skill).

it has also been of great help to me to read about on CPTSD and how/why it manifests, check out "spartan life coach". (this and reading the books recommended would honestly be better if done before watching actualized.org's vids, to help build up some mental strength before you get into something that could potentially worsen your mental state, especially if you self-criticize).

sorry for the fragmented posts, haven't really done anything like this before, also sorry if the punctuation suck, muh typed language skills are abysmal.

>>35754612
sounds tough anon, are you visiting a psychiatrist or a psychologist?

if you're not visiting a psychologist, find one that specializes in symptoms you are experiencing.

>>35754745
I do go to a specialist, I haven't really been in the system too long like I said, but I see a psychologist monthly and one someone like a nurse or something every 2 weeks. Im just confused that they're putting me in a treatment course without diagnosis

>>35754661
you know best. i think what's going on is that you don't really neatly fit into any of the dsm boxes and your doctor doesn't know what to do but figures paranoid thoughts, derealization (etc) is basically like schizophrenia so they might as well have you try seroquel.

assuming this goes on with no satisfactory improvements, it might be time for you to try other forms of therapy. and don't forget the basics like diet / sleep / exercise. sometimes people have a really weird genetic anomaly no one knows about and they're lacking some enzyme or whatever and it's messing them up until they stop eating that one food, or until they start repairing the damage a sedentary lifestyle is doing to their bodies, or whatever.

i'm not saying this is you. but you would want to know if it were. and maybe it doesn't come down to weird chemicals either, maybe you're like >>35753330 above and your symptoms are signs that you have stuff to work out.

maybe not. i'm not a doctor. the seroquel might start working. drugs like that behave completely differently at different doses. it's like taking a new drug altogether. whatever you do, don't lose hope, and stay safe.

>>35754745
hopefully, you'll find someone that understands you, medication only treats the symptoms not the root cause of it. it's like sticking a sticker of skin over a gaping bullet hole.

>>35754785
Yeah who knows, I do have an odd range of symptoms, like I'm also a generally obsessive person. 2 family members of mine have bipolar if that means anything. I'm not one to self diagnose so I'm just waiting really, not that a diagnosis will change much, but it feels like closure to me.

>>35754666
>t. demon looking for concubines to recruit