Feels thread

>>35661894
tell us anon

hoki polki

>>35661930
alright thank you, Ill green text it so it may take time for replies

>be me about a half year ago,17 about to graduate
>have had drug problems from 9th-11th grade
>overdose one night and my parents put me in a ward
>Get clean for a while and focus on school
>at the end of my junior year I have to move states
>On the verge of relapsing, but contain myself
>parents are too drunk most of the time to be lucid
>put me into another fucking ward

Continue or too gay?

continue por favor

>>35662055
this yes agrreo

story's great but its a bit gay that you keep asking if its okay

>>35662055
>everyone seems super friendly for a bunch of suicidal teens
>one girl sticks out to me as she is the first person to say hello
>really cute short blonde
>says hello in a super awkward but cute way
>walks by me once while I was waiting for my dad to finish signing me in
>too autistic to respond
>walks by again and says "okay we're gonna try this again, hello!"
>give her a smile and a hello and she goes back to playing uno
>get assigned my room and go and sleep for the rest of the day as I had been up the whole night before getting processed
>wake up to nurse asking me if I want a snack
>go and sit by everyone like the awkward autistic fuck I am
>the girl from earlier automatically comes and sits down next me
>asks me my age and how old I am

Waiting here anon. Don't dissapoint me!

>tell her my name is anon and Im 17
>She says her name is Raven
>when I was a kid my favorite show was teen titans
>Thought it was amazing that her name was raven
>she says that her boyfriend is also 17
>get demoralized, but she is still coming off as super flirty
>we start talking while all of us are playing uno
>Likes all of the same music, books, video games
>Says she also wants to be an english teacher like me
>talk about the awkward shit, what brought us here and what not
>Says that her parents are super abusive and her whole family hates her
>Pretty similar situation to me
now at this place we couldnt leave the ward to get get lunch and dinner until you were cleared your doctor, stupid bitch didnt come until the next day, so they bring your food up to you
>Raven asks if she can stay and eat with me
>nurses say sure
>we eat our shitty hospital food together and keep
>the more and more she talks the more and more I like her
>when we finish our food and everyone comes back to the ward we watch a movie
>still talking the whole time
>other kids have to tell us to be quiet because we were laughing or talking too loud

>go to sleep thinking about her
>the next morning I could finally leave the ward
>go to breakfast and eat lunch with her and her weird ass friend
>dont care because I get to be with her
>go back to ward
>we had to do this shitty group stuff every day
>in the group it was about "self acceptance" and having confidence
>the lady gets to me and asks me what I like about myself
>cant really think of anything too autistic to speak
>she says "what if I told you that you're a very handsome young man"
>still too autistic, just say thanks and wait for the awkward silence to go away and she moves to the next person
>raven touches my hand and whispers to me and asks me if im okay
>tell her Im fine
>we get out of group and before we go to lunch she tells me that the lady was right
>ask her about what
>says that she thinks Im handsome
>autism kicks in even more
>smile and say thanks
>tell her that I think shes really beautiful
>as soon as I say it I automatically regret it as I remember she has a boyfriend

>>35662207
Im here, Im waiting.

Interesting so far.

>>35662308
You should type it out before you post anon.

>she smiles while I apologize
>says its okay
>kind of clams up whenever I ask her about her boyfriend
>dont want to pry and be annoying so I leave it alone
>Go to lunch and just enjoy being with her
>we get back to the ward
>says that she wants to tell me something
>says that shes in a pretty abusive relationship
>hes raped her and beats her
>tell her that she deserves so much more (I didnt mean me)
>tell her that she has to promise me that when she gets out she will tell someone
>after a while of playful arguing she agrees
>tells me that she really likes me
>try to not be autistic and say that I really like her too
>last girlfriend I had, we were together for two years
>the whole time she was cheating on me
>people tell me that she was cheating on me
>dont want to believe them
>thought I was in love, thought she loved me
>broke up with me by sending me a video of her fucking some dude
>tell her all of this
>have never opened up like this before
>feels really good, especially because its her

>read thread
>complete feels trip
I salute you anon

>tells me that she would never do anything like that
>would never do anything to hurt me
>makes a joke about punching my ex in the puss
>laugh and pay uno with her
>tells me she might be going home soon
>excited for her but sad she might leave soon
>we leave to go to bed
>tells me goodnight and to sleep well
>I tell her the same
>can barely sleep because Im thinking about her
>want nothing more than to be with her
>next day she says that shes gonna call her boyfriend and dump him when we have phonecalls at night
>so happy that she can finnaly try to let go of everything from before
>just want her to be happy
>she tells me that when she leaves shes gonn have to see her cousin
>apparently her cousin beats her up
>make a joke about punching her cousin in the nose
>she tells me that she likes to sing
>ask her to sing something
>has the most beautiful fucking voice in the world
I hear her voice almost every night I try to sleep
>tell her that it was amazing and she has an incredible voice
>denies it but smiles and looks at me
>we just stare at each other for a while
>want to kiss her so badly
>its against the rules to even touch in this place

>>35662470
You've got me on the edge of my seat Anon.

>we play another game of clue with some of the other kids that were in there
>normal day, eat lunch and dinner, watch another movie
>while we are watching a movie decide to give her my number and ask for hers in case she loses mine
>keeps my number clenched in her hand
>we go to sleep
>next day see that she has her fist clenched all day ask if shes angry
>opens her hand and shows me the paper I gave her
>she held onto the paper the whole rest of the time she was in there
>that night she says that she is either going to go home or another hospital as she lives like an hour away from this one
>says that she'll text me as soon as she gets her phone
>excited I still get one more day with her
>go to sleep a little sad but still filled with happiness

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>>35662470
>Jesus my dood

spend the whole day talking about what shes gonna do when she gets out
>on the top of that list is text me even though I wont be able to respond
>Still have no idea when Im gonna get out
>want to get out sooner so start participating in the groups and shit more
>at the end of the day she doesnt know when she is going to leave
>doesnt end up leaving until like 11 at night
>before we have to go to bed she asks the nurses if she can hug people good bye
>nurse says yes
>try to contain autism as she hugs me
>hug for a while nurse has to say "alright thats enough"
>smiles and says goodbye, she'll talk to me when she gets out
>tell her I hope she tells her mom what happened and everything goes okay with her cousin
>go to bed thinking up gay scenarios of just being with her
>very sad that shes gone, but it motivates me evenn more to get out

>be me
>17
>pretty socially normal guy
> have a hard time connecting with anyone on an intimate level,still have lots of friends.
> try hitting in some QT gal with short hair
> her friend takes a liking to me instead
>hit it off instantly, the chemistry is insane.
>slowly grow closer over time accepts and is willing to work with all of my issues
> we finally fuck
> I go crazy for some reason
> literally cannot stop imaging that I impregnated her.
> the sex was completely safe, wore a condom didn't finish inside etc.
>doesn't matter, anxiety going mad.
>in a constant wreck for a whole month, she takes a pregnancy test.
>not pregnant, didn't help.
> over time my autistic anxiety destroys our relationship
> we drift apart as soon as she goes to college
> see her on snapchat with chad
> it's ok I have new QT gf
> terrified of sex because of what it did to my last relationship
> think I may need therapy.
>haven't had a real talk with her in like nine months
> still afraid she's pregnant.

>her weird friend is still there, and Ive made freinds with almost everyone else in there
>nothing can compare to taking to her though
>her weird friend tells me more about her, she used to be a cheerleader
>litteraly am creepy as fuck and only talk about her
>one night the girls at the end of the table say that me and this one girl should date
>say no that there is onlyone person Im looking forward to talking to when I get out
>all of the girls do the cringey "AWWWEEE" shit
>finally on my last day in there
>so excited to leave
>pack up all my shit in this shitty brown paper bag
>end up leaving at like 2:30
>Missed like two weeks of school, but I feel as if it were worth it, as I met raven

>my dad picks me up and we drive the 30 minutes back home
>can barely sit still
>make it home say hello to mom
>bring my shit up to my room and ask if I can have my phone back
>says sure give me a min
>waiting on my bed with an autistic smile on my face
>gives me my phone I power it up
you may have guessed it
>no texts but thats okay because I still have her number right?
>wrong, look where I put her number in my book that I was using for a bookmark so I didnt lose it
>no where to be found
>start freaking out dont know what to do
>decide that maybe she doesnt have her phone back
>decide to wait a few days

>wait a week, then a month goes by
>start being crazy, lookig for her on face book, twitter
>at a certain point start to think that she doesnt exsist
>feel crazy and think that I made her up
>look through obituaries
>read all of the news for my area and where she said she lived
>no where, its like she never exsisted

Thats about the end, I kept looking for a few months, just waiting every day, start to think maybe her boyfriend did something or she killed her self, but I could find nothing
everyday I still blame myself if something happened to her, I graduated and started college a few months ago, but every day Im still just waiting for that text, I dont even care if she liked me or not
I just want to know shes okay

I was hoping for a happy ending...

>>35662826
Lol this is a feels thread though

>>35662834
Still though, that was a fucking feels trip and a half.

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Couldn't you go back to the ward and ask somebody if they know her or something?

>>35662872
No they cant give out that information

>>35662782
Probaly killed herself because she thinks that you hate her.

>>35662972
yea I feel that way sometimes, thinking like that is what keeps me awake at night, but I gave her my number so I dont know why she would feel that way

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>>35662782
Sorry to hear bro.

>>35661894
I missed a potential partner when I didn't make a move couple of months ago, and now she's taken. She even said to me that I'm a very sweet person and she hugged me passionately. I want to kill myself.

>>35663018
Yea it fucking sucks, but what can you do I guess

>>35663023
That sucks man I'm sorry, are you guys at least friends still?

>>35662989
Life sucks. But you never know, someone will come along sooner or later.

>>35663083
Hopefully, for now Ive taken a break in the whole "love" department

>>35663128
Me too, currently I'm in love with a girl that lives one the other side of the world and she has no idea that I like her in that way, she knows I have a crush on her and all but the distance is just too much for both of us. One day.

>>35662891
What about contacting Raven through her weird friend? Did you try to find her friend on normiebook, etc?

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>>35663078
Yeah, it's hard though. We don't meet that often and I had literally no idea she got a boyfriend and so when I last met her about a week ago in a party where I planned to make my move on her there, she hit me with the "yeah, this is [name] we met a couple of weeks ago." before I could do anything.

I felt a lump in my throat when she told that to me and I wanted to fucking storm out of the party. I swallowed my sadness and stayed anyway but goddamn if it didn't hurt. I haven't talked to her that much after that whole event. I hate myself, I really do. Nobody to blame but my own stupidity.

>>35663214
Yup, I tried that too couldnt find her either

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>>35662782
Nobody deserves this feel

>>35663231
Yea I can only imagine that shit, but theres hope I think it seems like she hasnt known the dude for too long, stay on her radar I bet theyll break up

>>35662989
>Gave her my number

Reminds me of my case where i was to shy to message a girl and almost fucked her up and me.

I'm not a good greentext writer but here we go

>Be me
>19
>Still viring kissless and 5/10
>Failed school and needed to repeat a class
>Decided to change myself 100%
>Learned about the first impression effect and shit
>Try really hard to be funny and charming in the first weeks an do stupid shit like randomly jumping over a desk...
>Everyone thinks that i'm really that crazy and funny
>Talk with every girl in my class
>There this one girl that just seems like that she cares for me
>Talk often with her
>Time passes by
>Casually sitting in class when suddenly our teacher says there is a big announcment
>The girl that i like stand up and says that she will be in therapy and can't attend class because she suffers from heavy depressions since 2 years and anorexia and that shit
>Even cuts herself

I was literally obliterated by that message
I instantly said to her that she can always message me and talk to me.

>Time passes and she is back again
>Feel fucking happy to see her again
>Talk to her in class everytime make jokes and shit
>One day see her whatsapp status that she is fucking sad
>Want to message her but i'm not sure if she likes me and decided to not message her
>Mistake
>Didn't saw her for weeks

She came back again but changed a bit start to be more annoyed.

Cont.

>>35663288
Possibly. Or it could be one of those relationships that last for years.

>>35663331
Cont.

She came back again but changed a bit start to be more annoyed.

>Time passes by
>See her status again
NotThisTime.jpg
>Decided to message her
>She is fucking happy that i messaged we chat for really long
>Time passes again
>Randomly she decides to message me
>Anon can i tell you something?
>You are my best friend
>I really like you
>Thought i fucked up and landed in a friendzone but was still hapyy to make her happy
>Say her that i like her the most out of my class
>She :What about stacey?
>Me : Fuck stacey i like you more than her
>She asked me out to do something with her
>Instantly yes answer from me
>We meet and 5 hours passed by like 1 hour
>She says it was very nice with me and invited me to her and to the party of her best friend

This story isn't finished yet...
The party will be on 1.April

I want to tell my feelings to her and want to see how she responds any thoughts?

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>>35663353
You got this bro. Got get em

>>35663353
Just be honest and tell her how you feel about her and it should be fine

>>35663441
Will report back.

>>35663482
WAIT, why the fuck is there a party on april 1st, that seems sketchy to me

Well ladies and gents, I bid you all farewell. Thanks for the feels trip.

>>35661894
>tfw lazy eyelid
>tfw even parents make fun of it

>>35663500
Her best friend is in my class too and her birthday is the first april.

At first i thought this was a joke but she showed me her ID.

>>35663481
I'm not quite sure if it is the best timing to say that to her while she is a bit drunk and when other people are around us.

>>35663565
I guess, maybe take her aside, girls dont like when guys play games, they want you to be straight with them