Feels thread

>be me, 17, f, bimbo
>have seizure
>drs find growth in my brain, needs to be removed
>have it removed but have my facial nerve is cut in the process suffer partial facial paralysis as a result
>fall into deep depression and too ashamed by my ugliness to leave the house
>do nothing but eat, sleep, shit, and watch kino for 5 years
>gain over 150lbs
>ugly, stupid, and now fat
>want to die, too weak minded to do it myself
>its illegal for someone to kill me

my 32 year old brother im 22 sneaked some bitch into the house to fuck her
told mom about it and next time this happens ill ruin their fun

I feel like my life is falling apart.

I'm studying for an A+ Certification because I anticipated my family moving to a new state in the south but they just told me we can't afford any house because our budget is 250-300k and no home in "an area where everything is happening" is that price. They're like 400k+ if not more.

So now, I'm stuck in this shithole of a state. All the jobs are 2 hours away and it costs me nearly 500 a month just to get to work every single day due to bus/subway fares.

I hate my industry so much and I suck so bad at it. I hate marketing. I'm not creative. I can't work in an all-female environment anymore. It drives me mad.

I have no friends either. Nobody ever responds to me anymore.

>ywn know what it feels to be someone's important to someone else

Just fuck my shit up senpai

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>really smart in high school
>studied all through lunch
>went home each day and kept studying
>Just really loved maths and science
>was taking university classes at 15
>super impressive to my family and friends
>a few months before I turn 17
>mental state basically snaps
>go to "asylum"
>get put on medication that causes rapid weight growth
>hate everyone, hate everything
>finally get out
>spend the rest of my school life being an edge lord fucked up on meds
>drop out
>go to school for retards
>graduate
>desperately want to go to University but my history makes me a black sheep
>disappointment to everyone I know