Why aren't you the nice, gentle kid that you were at 15?

I was a cunt at 15.

Now I'm a broken, bitter cunt.

i was a dumb little faggot when i was 15

then again 15 was probably the happiest age of my life

>>35611362
How old are you now? Your writing style reminds me of a 29 year old I know.

I was h y p n o t i z e d

>>35611344
I was also a cunt at 15 lol
My gentle days extended until I was maybe 12 or so

I was already wishing I was dead at 15.

I mean I was seriously trying to figure out how to build a guillotine in shop class so that I could decapitate myself at school type of wishing I was dead.

>>35611370
22 on the verge of 23

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>>35611337
I'm a lot nicer and more sensitive now than i ever was at 15. I was trying too hard to be an edgy, "jaded" asshole back then

I was a little pushover when I was 15 due to years of mental and physical abuse. Now I'm old and really fucking angry all the time.

My 15 year old self?
Have fun being a schizoid idiot losing all your friends, then wonder how to get any connections with people 11 years later.

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>>35611337
I'm nicer now. It's why I have a bf.

>>35611383
You ever gonna do it bro?

>>35611383
I bet you could make a living building guillotines if they look nice.

>>35611464
I'm not sure if you're trying to imply that I'm underage or not desu

But nah, I wont ever be able to commit suicide at a school assembly under the guise of a magic trick like I had dreamed of during my edgy phase. 6 years have passed since then and now that I'm 22 the edginess has disappeared and I'm just left with disappointment and even more depression.

>>35611486
Depends on how I build them desu. If I could build them as non-functioning art pieces then the emo crowd would eat that shit like a retard and glue.

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>>35611508
Lul. I wasn't implying that, just asking.

Glad your sucide thinking was a phase homie. It ain't edginess for everone.

>>35611613
ah alright, I'm really drunk right now so it's good that my assumption was wrong, but at the same time my delusion was truth

>Glad your sucide thinking was a phase homie. It ain't edginess for everone.
Hmm yeah, I guess it's good it was just a phase and I didn't die at 16, but at the same time, it's almost as equally viable in comparison to my 15 year old self becasue I've realize I wont fit in no matter what.

15 was my edgy atheist/satanist phase though

>>35611337
I'm less of an asshole now than I was as a kid actually.
Now I'm just more bitter.

I was an angsty, self-absorbed cunt when I was 15.
I'm probably a better person now, even if I've been corrupted by memes and 4chan.

>>35611706
>I've realize I won't fit in

Don't worry about that man. I'm 32 and I feel like I can barely relate to most humans(especially where I live).

Fuck it, time and people are malleable. Some days are dogshit others are less, I never feel great, but this is our only time here, let's at least make it awkward for as many normies as possible right?

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I took the red pill and realized the reality of life and this world. Plus I'm a virgin still.

I'm a bit emotionally reserved because my group of friends sort of exploded in a bad way. In hindsight I can see where I fucked up, but also where they did. I like to imagine I'm still just as nice, but I'm a lot more reserved and learned a bit of tact.

Still have a bad habit of kicking my feet in the ground and being a pompous asshole at times though.

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I learnt about antinatalism, and that free will was a myth.

>>35611835
>I'm 32
>at least make it awkward for as many normies as possible right?

I'm not sure how it is for you, but for me I can't cause that awkward situation no matter how little I say I care. It's a curse. I'm aware of the situation from a normie perspective but can't act from anywhere but a robots perspective. Really hard to explain, but I hope you get what I'm implying. I can't make anything worse than what it's meant to be in my subconscious.

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Because I was far more mentally disturbed at 15 and wasn't nice at all.

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>>35611337
I was 14 when I first encountered 4chan

I was a ketamine addict when I was 15.

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>>35611994
I get you dude.

Just do you.

The problem is I still am, after learning that that doesn't work for anything. So I don't bother with anything.

I was quiet as hell as a 15 year old to the point where people thought I was going to shoot up the school. I heard that more than a few times.

I probably talked to like 5 people during my entire Freshman year

I've been coming here since 8th grade in 2008, so I'm well fucked in the head by now

I had a qt bf then

>>35611344
This. I've become more reasonable as I've aged but I'm still as hateful as ever.

>>35612164
After some research i found out the reason I was bullied was because if my kind gentle nature. I started to behave differently at 15 and the bullying stopped. This world is not made for the soft hearted

>>35611337
i was a piece of shit at 15 what the fuck are you on about. i wasn't harming anyone but i a harm to myself

i was a nice gentle kid at 5-8, but I grew up to be a fuck up

>>35611337
15 year old me was a lazy faggot who didnt give a shit about anything and was basically brain dead

Now I give too much of a shit about everything, im far too self aware for my own good, and im in a constant state of paranoia in social situations

At least im almost productive now though

I was never a sweet kid.
15 year old is exactly the same as me rigth now.

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If 15 year old me could see me now, he'd probably cry and then go far out of his way to try and help me better myself.

But I would tell him to fuck off and that I don't need his help and he'd be better off focusing on himself than everyone else in his life because people don't care for SHIT and neither should he.

Because being a nice gentle kid never got me anything except being used as a doormat

>>35611337
Nice, gentle kids don't fare well in a world of angry, jaded old men.

>>35612951
yup, same here. Normies really have this complex where everyone they deem inferior, by God's decree, should be their servant/entertainer.

I didn't have it that bad but the guys who really went through shit and decided to blow a gasget don't surprise me. Fuck with a dog for long enough and he will rip out your throat, is that such a surprise?
Plus, the way normies talk about school shooters, it always seem the real problem they have with it is something like Laise Majeste.
>HAHAHAHA lets fuck with this kid until he kills himself
>WHAT.THE.FUCK THE COCKROACH DARED KILL ONE OF OURS? This, this is UNFAIR!
Always gives me a hearty kek.