bad feels thread

I have a mental conflict going on that's so bad, I can't figure out who I want to be. indecisiv ass whitey.

>>35599296
I'm quitting therapy and i'm feeling sad and angry because i'm not getting any answers for my issue (low-confidence, cowardice and depression in general).

>>35599329
what different ways do you see yourself?

>>35599354
i wanted to think of something nice to say, but all i can think of is good luck, your situation sounds pretty tough

>>35599296
I feel like I sold my soul for money. I've given up on my dreams to propagate an immoral system I don't believe in, all so I can live a comfortable life.

im "addicted" to pot, i smoke everyday for almost a year now, feel like shit when i don't smoke and really lonely. Smoking doesn't even feel that nice anymore, and i keep asking me why i keep smoking.. its not fun anymore, i should stop but its hard.. im also graduating uni this summer in a useless career where i wont get a job. I'll go back being a neet? I've no motivation for anything. my life is my computer. im sick of it. everyday is the same as the last one. i can go on forever with this wall of text..

I know that I'm supposed to clean up my life and take responsibility, but I'm too much of a coward to do it. Sometimes I think it might be easier to just waste my life on sitting drunk in my room on my computer.