How hard did it hit you when you realized your childhood was

I'm living that moment right now and it feels like crap. I realized that I fucked up all my future because when i was in school i just played video games and didn't really learn a shit. Therefore i won't be able to go to university and i'll have to live in my parent's basement and keep masturbating to drawings

I decided i will never let go and do whatevwr i want for the rest of my life.

16. When my brother died. So almost 9 years ago.

>>35553436
I feel better now than when I was a kid. I always had to please people before, otherwise I wouldn't get food or anything. Which pretty much meant I showed 0 emotions, I shared 0 opinions, and I always did what I was told. Now I can do whatever I want, just hard to get out of the robot state of mind. I would never want to go back to being a kid.

>>35553436
I still feel like a child, but not in a fun, innocent way. More of a confused, lost child. I feel like a kid lost in a mall without his mommy.

>>35554035
>>35553839

Wow, that's deep anons. Good luck

>relatively carefree days of being a kid

Never experienced that.

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Hit me a few months ago tbqh. It freaked me out at first, but I got over it when I realized I can just kill myself when the job pressure comes

my childhood wasn't very good so it was kind of a relief, honestly

life is much better now

>>35554441
you wont do it
and you'll go to hell

>>35553436
There are no trials or rights of passage in the UK. So I didn't notice. It's not like there was a stark change.

>>35553436
4th grade i had a literal quater life crisis