What keeps you guys going?

>>35520969
Nothing really I just exist and I don't own a gun to kill myself with.

i adopted a dog. this bought me 10 years and then after that, idk

>>35520978
You don't need a gun to do that.

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Cute anime girls desu

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>>35520969
My family still loves me.
They're all I have.

my love of video games

>>35521057
>My family still loves me.
wish i had that feel.

>>35520969
If I do blow my brains out, it'll be after a good run at that damn gooks high score
But honestly I want a wife to reproduce and be a loving husband/parent with and that sounds more comforting and satisfying than spending all my savings on guns and ammo and an ipod with pumped up kicks on repeat to shoot up the local community college my ex and the traitor she cheated on me with go to, along with any other perfectly innocent citizens who happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time
But if all of womankind seems bent on making sure I don't mate, I may start writing that manifesto soon
Not even sure what it'd be about, maybe I'd just let my thoughts pour out like I did in this post (kinda)

I need a gf

not getting banned and shit

>>35521118
you don't deserve the high score you filthy incel

>>35520969
>muh dik

Obviously

>>35520969
Narcissism. My ego. The gun I want to buy is no longer on sale. Which is really fucking ridiculous considering I'm going to use it to kill myself. What's $35 to a dead person?

>>35521152
I've had sex before, not an incel m8
I could be hooking up with sluts rn but I just don't want that kind of relationship

Also if I deserve something I'll fucking take it

Alcohol and antidepressants

Anyone here in school? I'm skipping today, i cant stand going to school it's soul crushing. I should have just worked instead of going after highschool, but i felt pressured because i thought thats what you're suppose to do. Now im literally there for no reason. Anyone have the same feel?

>>35521252
High school is a game society makes you play
You need to beat it anon, giving up on it makes all the other games you'll want to play with society that much harder
You don't have to take the game seriously, but you should at least play it enough to beat it

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>>35520969
Knowing that some day I won't be single and lonely anymore. I don't know when it will be, but it'll be eventually. Just someone to snuggle with after sex and give a little playful kiss while they say they love me. Hookups are just a quick fuck and they get up to leave

>>35521294
I graduated Highschool for me it was okay. But know college is just pissing me off. I honestly dont see myself as a student.

>>35521194
Bull shit. You will spend your days contemplating it but never doing it. Fuck off normalfag

>>35521332
Do you want to play the college game? And/or all the other sequels that game unlocks for you?
If you don't know you should figure it out, one way or the other

>>35521355
How old was that gook? The one with the high score I want to beat?

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>>35520969
Vengeance. Nothing like killing everyone who made your life a living hell to keep you going.

>>35520969
I'm 30 years old and have only just started watching anime. I've got years left to run baby.

>>35520969
Posting memes in discord and csgo

>What keeps you guys going?
I don't think I could keep it together long enough when purchasing a handgun.
They'd know something was up.

>>35521388
Revenge as a motive for success, nat bad anonolan not bad.

>>35520969
Video gaemz, lifting and animu

DotA 2, anime, and the occasional good games that appear once in a while (Bloodborne, Breath of the Wild, NieR etc.)

>>35520969
Sensations. Just the everyday shit, like the feeling of being warm before I to bed, or the wind in my hair, or seeing a pretty lady walk down the street.

I like that shit. Can't feel tings when you ded mang

The desire to fight and die in WW3

>>35521307
Someday doesn't just happen. You've got to make it happen. Otherwise you'll be 30 with a deathwish still waiting for Someday and having wasted any potential and reason to keep going you might have had.

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Movies my guy

>>35521397
Protip: no one cares. Unless you say it out loud, they just want to sell you a gun. Gun dealers get weirdos and autists all the time. What do you think /k/ is full of?

many multiple layers of irony.

Sometimes I really want to kill myself but most of the time I don't care.

In those times, drugs.

>>35521536
>Otherwise you'll be 30 with a deathwish

I'm 31. Thanks anon, that really brightened my day.

I'm not suffering enough to die I guess. Halloween is probably what really keeps me going

>>35521591
The alarm's been going off long enough. Either quit hitting snooze or pull the plug out of the wall.

I just got my Pinochet Commie Killer license. Soon mi General, soon.

>>35521604
>Halloween is probably what really keeps me going
Desire to know more intensifies

>>35521653
Normie who likes dressing up and getting attention and Tim Burton and people coming to their home and parties and candy and other insufferble normie shit, is my guess.

>>35520969
Good food, water and sleeping.

>>35520969
>What keeps you guys going?
waiting for the drinking part of the day.

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Learning drums and piano

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>>35521031
Is clannad good

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>>35520969
The fact that life is temporary

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afraid of suicide desu

>>35521469
Born too early for that m8

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>>35520969
Fear of death not much more than that

>>35521076
this
I have literally never had a conversation with my piece of shit dad

Because I get good grades as stem major and will be 21 soon so I can get alcohol and drink everyday before class.

>>35520969
I feel like I have great potential within me and I just need to figure out how to unlock it. I believe it's possible so I have hope.

>>35520995
You buy another dog

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I'm procrastinating, not really in a rush to die or anything. Life a shit but I can always kill myself later. No rush here, I'll stick around a bit longer.

>>35521897
Same, but instead Dad its my Mother.

>>35521928
same, waiting till I hit literal rock bottom which will come since I'm a NEET and doing nothing to change that, just cbf

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>>35520969
Basically all that sustains me is the thought that things might get better. For some reason last month my depression almost completely lifted, it came back, but it gave me a taste of what having a more healthy state of mind can be like. I keep going so I can feel like that again.

>>35521192
I'd help fund you, but you have to promise to take me with you.

Boxing, street fights, and, until a few months ago, MLP

I left the fandom and show though, because my mental health was pretty fucked and I was near shizo about that shit, believing the ponies are real and all that

Now I just kind of exist, and start trouble with rapefugees when I see them

>>35522213
Greentext a time you started trouble with a refugee, you caught my interest.

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>>35520969
I have a daughter. That's literally it.

>>35521793
I hear it's really good, I actually haven't watched it because I hear it's sad, I mostly like feelgood stuff, but I definitely owe it a watch

I have a brother.
I have a grandmother, with no grandpa (he died).
I can't leave them.

>>35520969
Well at least im alive. Better to be alive that to be dead. Something is better than nothing.

>>35520969
Hope. Hope that with every day leaves me more loathsome and bitter but also gives me will to survive another day.

>>35522262
There is actually a surprising amount of decent ones out there, but the others make up for it.

>14yo sister is in with a lot of them
>somalian fucker named raffat grabs her arse on karneval
>get over there at 10pm, wasted gad money on that fuck
>simply pick him up, throw him to the ground and stomp till the stops screaming goatfuckerish
>take sister home, explain what happened to dad
>sister is now grounded because she went out with them

I dont deliver autistic one liners or something, I simply like fighting and have always been a bit agressive

>>35522288
Can I fug her?

>>35522384
*gas money. I don't think I'm a bad person in general, I just dont really enjoy life anymore

>>35522400
Are you white? Please do. Anything better than shitskins

>>35520969
I know that i am more inteligent than the fags that stay on facebook and tumbler all time,and even the most useless person can change the world.I know that if you manage to be more inteligent than 90% of the population of earth,you deserve to live.

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afraid of killing myself, also family

>>35522454
>I know that i am more inteligent than the fags that stay on facebook and tumbler all time
you sound like a delusional narcissist my dude

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>>35522454
>more intelligent than the people who "waste time" on facebook or tumblr
>is shitposting on /r9k/

>>35520969
I'm NEET. I'm not "going". Also every time I feel a holy drive to fix my diet exercise more etc I fucking forget about it soon after.

>>35522526
Former NEET here. If it makes you feel any better, I constantly daydream about returning to the NEETlyf.

>>35521561
>What do you think /k/ is full of?
Weirdos and Autists in camo who know about guns.

Being able to improve my body with exercise (currently skinny fat) and the idea that I will one day experience romance and rough sex.

>>35522577
Well I have a strong feeling if I ever stop being NEET I will still be an awful joke, so eh.

Bragging on /r9k/ that my problems are more profound than other people's problems.

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>>35522737
Yeah that's kind of what I'm trying to say I guess. I still have a lot of the same problems I did when I was a NEET. There's merits and demerits to both, but don't beat yourself up over it!

>>35520969
I don't know. I used to think I can fix something in my life. Make it better somehow.
But now I broke down again. I'm crying and can't do anything about it. All I can do is just sit there and get older, which is not a good way to live.

>>35520969
I know my Mother couldn't handle my suicide, that's about it

>>35521897
Same, we even live in the same small city, I have grandparents here that I have never seen, because they didn't want to be a part of my life, feels pretty bad desu

I must purge the west of feminists and liberals. I will end the system that promotes solitude and depression in men. I must go to war and purge the shitskins who aggress us constantly.

I cannot leave this world with those fucking people still on it. Unfortunately this will take more than my lifetime so i wont get to lill myself.

I've known nothing but failure and my chances of success of any kind on any front is essentially nonexistent. I just fucked up on a college assesement a few hours ago, got rejected from two other colleges last week. For the greater good. For tte truth And for the race i guess i have to keep trying and failing until it fucking kills me. Preferably soon.

>>35522824
>sentenced to 6 months in prison

I know I don't want to know but I can't help my curiosity. What did you do?

>>35522824
What did you do?
oofcorse not original

>>35523045
You're still being vague. Was it a criminal or civil?

>>35523045
Was it pizza of the cheesy variety???

>>35523045
Enjoy rape
Blodoxockc

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I know things are gonna get better

I want to have a decent afterlife.

>>35520969
not much I'd end it now if I had the balls to do it

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i tried to kill myself with medications but survived

>>35520969

My mom might be sad for awhile if I put a shotgun in my mouth.

>>35523278
Ah well see you on the other side friendo

I would tell you if I knew, I just can't build up the effort to kill myself.

Yuri on Ice. It's very inspirational.

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Afraid I'll miss the only happy moment in my life.
Afraid that a suicide attempt might go wrong and I'll survive only to live with brain damage.

>>35521057
this
We don't even live on the same continent but I know they wish me to succeed so I'm gonna suck it up and make it so their hopes were right. I know I wouldn't have done it just for myself

>>35521118
I swear to God if you forget to put on 1 or 2 GoPros to record everything Im going to take a huge shit on your grave. Don't be selfish, think about us who are in need of entertainment (and catharsis)

>>35522839
Be the grandfather you wanted to have

Wait, actually scratch that. Be even better.

>>35523421
How was It anon?
Tell us

>>35520969
the prospect of buying things, mainly.

I live to see the people who fucking left me alone when I got my depression flounder whenever they have to deal with the shit I do with no one to help em.

Totally not salty at all.

>>35523278
This is interesting, so you prefer death over spending 6 months in prison ? So if you were sentenced to death, then it would've been preferable to you ?
Many people say that the death sentence isn't humane, what do you think about that ?

>>35521118
Hopefully you die before you hurt anyone. Just being honest desu

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>>35524226
it was boring, just lied in the bed with the feeling to puke

>>35521307
I've always found the ampersand difficult to draw, I assume that guy was looking at the & on his phone when he did that

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Nothing really, I just hope for the moment everything gets better, a voice inside me tells me 'that's never gonna happen, i should kill myself'
But I guess waiting for that moment is how life passes.

No options. I used to think I could escape with suicide but even at my worst times I could never bring myself to jump off the ledge or kick the chair out from under me. So there's nothing to do but look for those little moments of happiness until my life sentence on this fucked-up prison planet finally finishes.

>>35522384
Do you happen to be German.

I'm sticking around out of spite, I want to see my 'friends' fail, they abandoned me when I became depressed those fucking cunts, I'm more miserable than ever but at least I'm motivated to succeed now.

>>35524371
The fuck did you take
Can't be oregeno

>>35520969
My cat. I fucking love my cat.

My weekly fap

It feels pretty good to bust after a week of holding so throughout the week I tease myself by searching through porn sites trying to find the hottest material and every Saturday I compile my best finds for an hours long session of edging.

>>35520969
I don't get why people want to die to be honest unless they're literally paralyzed or fatally ill to the point where they shouldn't even naturally speaking be alive

I just want a good life, I don't have it and I have no idea how I could get one but at least there's things to do

I hate nothingness. Waiting is probably the worst thing in life because it's completely meaningless and a wasteful bunch of nothing. Ironically I've been waiting for my life to take some kind of dramatic turn even though I know it's not going to happen if I don't do it myself.

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>>35524767
pipamperon, didnt take enough tho

>>35524523
I do, how did you guess? Okay, I couldve been dutch too now that I think about it

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I just had a mental breakdown /pol/

My family hates me..they don't know what i know, what i feel about the normies going to work and don't giving a shit about the world, about our future.

I cry every evening, i think i have depression..

I am lanklet, 6'2, and everyone things i am a cold psychopath because i am too afraid to express my true emotions...

I can't let myself cry in front of my family..i transform it into anger.

Im such a cunt..

I just.. i dk anymore i want to feel happy again, this suffering never stops

I was drunk last week and killed a mouse with a brick, i was such full of hate, i was scared of myself, i need help but i'm too scared to get some

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>>35520969
I disaccociate from myself as much as possible. Pretend things aren't really how they are, pretend people see me as a cool guy etc.

I often listen to music and pretend it's stuff that I've written and perform to masses of people. It's the only thing that stops me from wanting to kill mysef.

>>35520969
I spend most of my disposable income on figs.

Plastic butts and boobs give me solace.

>>35520969
lack of gun and fear of death

>>35521413
Patrician tee bee haitch

Long distance running. There's soething about running ultras thst make it meditative and blissful despite feeling like you cannot run any longer before your calves and quads explode.

>>35526181
yep i also disaccociate from myself, due the realization it won't get better only worse

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Watch some yuri anime if you feel depressed. It's all about comfort and gentleness.

>>35525005
Couldn't Google the ld50?

>>35521118
kill some shitskins or normies and livestream it with a go pro.

>>35520969
Two people I've never met, they're across the sea.

I just want to keep them happy.

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>>35526142
start with not killing innocent animals for the love of god

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>>35520969
>What keeps you guys going?
trap/gay threads on /r9k/

>>35520969
My family, they're the only thing I got

>>35526465
That shit works total opposite for me.If i watch something nice when im depressesed i just feel like a pussy.I prefer watching edgy and sad boi shit when im depressed since i have a way better time than the characters who are going through some fucked up shit .

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>>35526142
STOP NOW
WHAT IN THE SHIT ARE YOU DOING

>>35520969
My student's debt, I don't want to become a burden to my family.
Now I have to live the wagecuck life for at least some years.

Otherwise I would have probably abandoned everything and just walk through Africa until I am killed or I found a place where I can stay.

>>35526142
You need to talk and unscrew the cork. Try to find a good psychologist that will let you open up to them. Don't let things bottle up any more.

If I get enough money I will be able to return to NEET freedom forever. It is the only hope left to me.

>>35521057
My family all 'loves' me but I hate nearly all of them.

>>35528476
Your family doesn't inherit your debt unless they're retards that let debt collectors tell them what to dp

>>35526142
join the military and kill some sand people. That's if you even get deployed over there

>>35521454
This. I believe that any and every sensation is better than nothingness, but desu I'd probably off myself if things ever got really bad, making me a hypocrite, too

>>35527337
>>35524141
That would be legendary, but I'd go down as the go-pro shooter
That name sounds kinda lame desu

>>35528587
Big problem with that. They screen for psychological problems. Anon needs to manage his psychological state before he can get anywhere. Also no mind-altering drugs, even if prescribed, for a year.

>>35528641
Want me to shill a better name for you ? but what matters is what you did in your life, not how you're called. If your actions were good then even with a silly name people will have a positive opinion and look up to you, maybe even regret you

>>35521118
Honestly mentally ill peoplelike you shouldn't reproduce, it's the last thing you should do, seek help

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>>35526142
>/pol/
fucking what?

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>tfw someone from high school and someone you knew in college killed themselves by now

>>35521307
Why the fuck do you losers even want to have sex or even worse reproduce?

You have a shit life, no passions, no skills, what are you even going to teach yoru children?

Lol just be a manchild loser like me, just exist like a worm bruh

>>35521118
>wanting to reproduce
>wanting a gf
Let go of your selfishness and realize that you want to force a life into this miserable world. There are better things you could be doing. Join a club and do something positive that makes the world a better place. Do it to spite your ex for falling for the same carnal instincts you need to let go of. Relationships only hurt and create pain in this world. It was a relationship that brought you into it.

Someone has to care about me, so I have to.

>>35521793
Clannad is a very good Celtic fusion band, yes
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4G5PaS74xE4

Food is my life

>>35529232
The thing that scares me most is these fat edgy manchildren who write "lol kill yourself" 20 times a day here might even end up having children wtih some ugly dumb nerdy desperate chick, I don't even wanna imagine what kind of "kids" they'll raise

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My pets, music and movies.

>>35520969
The desire to stay alive, little more

I just passed one of the hardest, most painful, most arduous courses in the Army. I should feel elated. But instead I am more depressed than ever. Still the butt of jokes, lost the only person I ever really talk to (had to leave the unit), not fitting in with the culture of the unit at all. It's quite lonely and I am definitely unhappy.

But then I think, what the fuck would I do if I weren't in the Army. Some fucking shit office drone job, 9-5 or worse, in and out every day dealing with banal office politics and shite.

There is no escape from this.

>>35529331
>implying I'm fat, or tell people to kill themselves, or a manchild
You make a lot of assumptions about someone you don't even know, and it makes you sound stupid

>>35529331
The next generation of robots, obviously. That being said, don't put others down. It only justifies their anger.

>>35529232
now your turn
>implying it's a bad thing to bring a life into this world
I'm sorry you're too depressed to realize what an opportunity life is and can be, but don't you think if unborn children could talk, at least some of them would want a chance to live?
You assume that everyone thinks the same way you do, that they all wish they were never born, which is some mad projecting, not to mention outright wrong
I'm glad to be alive, I'd gladly take the suffering that is life and death over the nothingness of never having been born, and I'm sure my future children will say the same thing
And if they don't they can kill themselves if they hate it that much

>>35529730
I assume nothing of the sort. All I know is that pain is an inherent evil that nothing should experience. I'm glad you feel positive about your life but you forget the countless others who have had to live lives of misery until death, be it a few years as a starving African child or a century as a person who could never pursue their dreams. Assuming all is right with the world just because you feel good is selfishness and intentional ignorance.

My family. My mum was single with me until I was ten and even afterwards, she went through so much shit that I don't want to do this to her.
I'll off myself the week she dies, I already made that plan some time ago.

I hate some people and I love how my very existence pisses them off.

>>35529730

>if unconscious people could talk, wouldn't some of them want you to have sex with them?