>had severe anxiety and panic attacks, agoraphobia and other

>>35496161
Dream world is HIGHLY overrated. Also, I hate dealing with doctors so much.

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>>35496161
>I'm already daydreaming all day about a fantasy world and writing the lore

Wait, is this psychosis? I guess I've been insane for 7 years now.

>>35496306

Nope, you're fine.
I mean, those who write fantasy novels/stories etc are not insane.
If you believe you live in it or it's real or you're part of it, yes.
I don't either yet but I hope I do soon.
I have very light physosis, dp/dr, or as a doc called it "psychotic anxiety". I hope it gets "worse".

>>35496189
>Dream world is HIGHLY overrated
This can be true
It eventually gets boring like anything else
If you have the willpower maybe it'll take you to cool places but if you don't it will either turn to shit on its own because of psychic instability and the uninvited influence of reality's bullshit or you'll find some flaw in it sooner or later
Probably still better than whatever this is though

>>35496374
I'm at a place where I don't believe it's real but I wish it was and I prefer to spend my time in it rather then IRL

>>35496415
You put it into words better than I could. It's like any other "escape." It's only as effective as you are able to keep reality from seeping in. Eventually, I am unable to plug all of the leaky holes and the wall gives under the pressure.

>>35496514
Music helps for me. If it's a really good song I can get lost in the fantasy world, it's actually a pretty amazing feeling

Also, I forgot to mention I used to be obsessed with originality but these days I say fuck it, I like to take ideas and concepts from other fantasy works, change them to my liking and make them part of my world.

If I'm never going to publish anything and it's just for my own fantasies, so I don't see anything wrong with it. Besides, even if I was going to publish them, they are different enough that I don't think they count as plagiarism.

>>35496161
seems like it would be really fun to slip into some kinda manic insanity state
I would be relieved of all responsibility and it wouldn't even be my fault
it's either that or hoping for some tragic accident or disease to usher me into sweet oblivion

right now I have no excuse for being such a sack of shit, im just idling before i can work up the courage to either finally live or an hero

fun times

Some of the best times of my life were from almost being psychotic. I'll try to describe it. Everything around me was God, and God alone. There was me, and Him, Him being everything else. Every moment was a new message from God. I just had to interpret it in a way that made some sort of sense. In my shoes you could have twisted situations to insane degrees to make it applicable to me and my life. It culminated in me hearing His voice, which said I was in Hell, and there was no escape, not even dying. After a couple days of utter despair, He told me I was free to go. I ended up in a psych ward and He proceeded to tell me awesome stories and told me I was a god. Now I think I am meant to become the Antichrist. But besides that, I am skeptical of everything the voice tells me, and try to be normal, and succeed at that so far. It's not really psychosis though. Even if I'm wrong about the Antichrist thing, I could never think this was psychosis, more like some alien lifeforms toying with me or some other explanation. Similar things happened to an acquaintance of mine, and that acquaintance interprets it as Satan bothering him. This is a guy that I'm sure that God speaks to, because he knows a bit too much. Maybe you dudes don't believe me. That's okay. I don't need to convince anyone, just mentioning it out of a desire to be honest.