WTF Do I Do? - Dead on the Inside Edition

Will continue to post, just getting this off my chest helps a little bit

>>35484725

>I take care of her because fuck it, i dont mind
>Try walking home from bar to hotel
>Get halfway and she breaks down
>Says she still loves her ex
>He used her for money, sex, and then left her out of nowhere
>Reassure her that hes a cunt, didn't deserve her, whatever
>Then she says he left her because she has cancer..

>>35484856

Literally wtf, it took me a minute to process that

>Diagnosed months earlier
>Coincides with sudden change in behavior
>She also says she might be pregnant
>Reason for why she might be eating shitty when she used to be fit and work out
>Has a small belly, blames it on food but idk anymore
>Shes been drinking alot
>Says she'll abort it when we get home
>Basically has a break down and tells me all of this

>>35484903

>She says she hasn't told anyone about any of this
>Ask about treatment
>Wtf are we gonna do
>Says the cancer is treatable
>Says she has no money for treatment
>Doesn't wanna be a burden on family
>Rather spend money on living it up while she has time

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>>35484945

>Get her back to hotel
>Get her in bed and make sure she's passed out
>Head back to bar to drink my newly acquired sorrow away
>Get shitfaced myself
>Only remember parts of the night after that
>Remember heading back to hotel and getting in bed with her
>Didn't wanna leave her alone in case of vomit
>Sleep.jpg

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Not sure if what happens next was drunk ass dreaming or reality

>Im awake barely
>Im finger banging her
>Shes jerkin me
>About to fuck but we don't
>Fall asleep again
>Next morning, she says she doesn't remember anything
>Not sure if she's being honest
>I remember everything except for maybe the sex stuff
>Tbh im pretty sure we were about to fuck

Sorry >>35485154 follows
>>35485030

>>35485154

>Anyways we finish our holiday and head home
>I haven't told her anything about that night
>Didn't wanna bring it up and ruin vacation
>Now im in bed at home writing this

Honestly guys, I think i love her. i cant really describe the way it feels but she is maybe the only person that makes me smile. And now im depressed as shit. I fucking love her and she's dying. Not only that but she friend zoned me. I friend zoned her a while back and only blame myself for that. Not only did i cuck myself, now i don't know how to bring this up to her. Should i even bring this up at all? I dont wanna lose her. I really don't want to lose her. Any advice?

I fucking love her. Goddammit why do i love her. If this was someone else i wouldn't care as much. If you read this, thank you. Please learn something from this. Appreciate your life and appreciate the people around you.

Im gonna go drink myself to sleep.

You're sure she's not just lookin for a sugar daddy type thing?

>>35485414
Honestly idk, she has been maybe for the cancer or something else

>>35485501
Obviously i have no idea of how much you should trust her, but id refuse to give her any money but stay with her. Then go with her to her abortion/cancer related things to confirm. Unless if you think youll be happy and can handle the possible desertion.