Hey /r9k/ I know this won't really get any attention and I probably shouldn't even be writing it - I've got work I need to do.
I've been feeling a bit shit to be honest and have been for quite a while.
I'm a people-person. You could say I'm a wannabe normie because I love talking to people and socialising. However, I don't do any of that.
I'm still in education (18) and every weekend the folks at my college go out and do all their normie shit while I stay at home and see it all on instagram, which just makes me feel like shit all the time - I'm not popular or liked enough to go out with them, the normies. I have friends for sure, but they're the kind you have an intellectual discussion with. I fucking hate CSGO and D&D but I play it with them because it's the closest thing to a social event I'm able to do with them. I will never be invited to a party.
I've got way more to say so I might vent more later, don't have the energy right now - see ya
You should try to take up some new hobbies. Try new things. Broaden your horizons.
Maybe learn a new language or something.
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I used to love trying to learn languages but now I just don't have the motivation. Any time I can muster even an ounce of energy I force myself to attempt work, which 100% of the time derails into 4chan, porn or mindless video games I don't even like. I try to be creative, I love writing and drawing but it never culminates to anything and I always end up destroying what I've done because it's shit or I no longer like it
Can I vent here too?
I want someone to care about. And I want someone to care about me. It might not necessarily be love, honestly. I just want to know that there's a person who can, for example, give me some milk with honey when I get cold. And I will always return this favor and do other nice things to them. That's what I miss in life.