identify my 'fetish'

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I'm a girl and for a long time I've had a sort of 'fetish' for being beautified. I put fetish in quotes because I've never had sex so I can't say if I need this thing to orgasm/enjoy sex. I hear that something is only fetish if you NEED it to enjoy sex.

Anyway, my fantasy is sort of a rape/domination/ humiliation/bondage/pampering (maybe?) fetish. I like the idea of being forced to fit a man's ideals, of being done up like a high class whore of his use, be it for him alone or many partners, just for sex or as a household slave, once or over a long period of time.

Sometimes in my fantasy it's a forced boyfriend situation where i'm mostly free but still have to answer to him all the time and can't tell anyone. But that one's not as common for me.

I used to keep a stick of bright pink lipstick by my bedside as part of a fantasy in which a man would come into my room at night and put it on me - not make me put it on myself - before making me blow him - not forcing himself into my mouth. The thought of being gently but firmly grabbed under the chin is a very specific thing in many of my fantasies.

Here's a good example of the kind of thing I'm talking about; it starts at about 1:45
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1oHbWL5Z9T4

Also, I find that 'real' porn, like videos and photos doesn't do it for me. I can only enjoy art/drawings.

If anyone can help shed some light on this, show me some related stuff or just give me some search terms, I'd really appreciate it.