Character-defining moments

>Sitting on a bus going home from school
>My friend is sitting behind me (she's a qt girl)
>I turn around to talk to her
>We talk a little bit, but the conversation soon stops
>I stay turned around facing her, as if we're going to talk
>But we don't talk
>After 30+ seconds she forces conversation
>I just agree, or fake laugh and say 'yeah,' hoping she will continue talking
>We're both visibly uncomfortable
>We sit in a mixture of silence and awkward very forced conversation for 20 minutes
>We arrive at our stop
>We step out of the bus
>I thank her for carrying me through the conversation
Until that moment, I did not realise that I couldn't hold a conversation. I have been very aware of my inability to converse ever since this moment.

>Be skinny and weak weird kid
>Get physically bullied every day for 5 years by a boy called Varian
>One day decide to fight back
>Gave him a nose bleed and made him cry
>I change schools and forget about him

>3 years later at high school
>We're play fighting at break
>Varian is scared of me because I made him cry 3 years ago
>Be chasing him
>This boy in my class shouts out
>"Why are you running from anon? It's only anon.. what could he do if he caught you?"
>Varian immediately stops running and stands still looking at me
>I stop running too and look at him

Realise how powerless and weak I am, and that everyone can tell this just by looking at me

>>35432074
>Be me
>Be 16
>Be depressed as fuck
>Get really fucking angry all the god damn time
>Be really hostile and aggressive to practically everyone I know
>Eventually try to off myself
>Fast-forward about 2 years
>Feeling better
>Realise that given all my "friends", not a single one of them asked if I was okay.
>Literally not a single one
>Realised that you'll always be alone, for whatever reason.

A decade later, and it's still the one lesson I've carried with me.

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>>35432074
>be 13 yo me
>get invited to watch a movie in some grill's house
>a lot of people from class were there
>no one was watching The Lion King
>people are just hooking up
>i'm the only one alone, of course
>three "friends" from my class approach me afer the "party" to make fun of me for ending up alone
>leaves the place in tears

I remember saying to myself that "I don't need this" while I was leaving.