I am fucking broken. I have allowed myself to become attached

>>35388020

you fell in love breh. you paid but you were her pseudo bf.

but it wasn't meant to last.

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>>35388020
love is a beautiful yet harsh thing
thanks for the trip to memory lane ;_;
>tfw you can't get her out of your head

>>35388020

you are a beta cuck

she probably laughs about you when her big nigger pimps come in to slap her around and give her his monkey cum (right before you come to visit her (paid))

>>35388020

pt 2

Fuck, I didn't mean for this to get so long. Sorry for slow typing.

Then one night, something was on her mind and she had a hard time coming up with the words, which was very uncharacteristic of her. She said, "If my life were different I would have an easier time telling you this, but, I have feelings for you." I told her I had feelings too. She went on to tell me about she regrets telling clients her real name and where she works and things like that. She had one client who would come to her job and harass her and just generally be a stalker. She wanted to get rid of him and leave the escort life behind her before she was ready to pursue her feelings.

After that, I noticed she became more and more distant. She would blow me off when I asked to hang out, or just not answer texts. We've hung out once or twice since then, but things havent been the same.

I havent heard from her since and it's fucked me up. She won't return texts for calls and I've been clingy as fuck.

>>35388182

let her go dude.

sorry man, at least you had it good for a while.

come here bro

>>35388182
not like we have friends to hang out with or anything better to do.

>>35388182
send her "I'm sorry it's none of my business but I'm worried about you"
post results

>>35388082
You're right and I know this. There's so many more reasons why It wouldn't work, but I left them out.

>>35388208
It was great. Those moments where we opened up to each other were the most alive I've felt in a long time. Fucking emotions I'm not used to feeling.

>>35388217
Not really making excuses but most of my time is spent at work or school and most of my friends are at work, VAST majority of whom are female. They were never really interested in what I had to say until it was relationship related.

>>35388182
She might be keeping her distance because she's scared of what happens next. Even if her life could be better by leaving the escort life behind, that kind of life change is really scary. A change for the better is still a change and not everybody handles change well.

Your mutual feelings are a catalyst that could be making her feel forced to make a choice she is afraid to make.

You need to decide what you want to do if this is the case. Be there for her while she finds courage and makes up her mind? Or forget about it?

>>35388353

yeah. happens.

that shit is expensive anyway, save your money.

>>35388250

I did text that her silence bothered me and that it wasn't normal to not talk about stuff. She replied with very few words that she was in the hospital, sick.

>>35388369

not op but if she goes radio silent then there isn't shit he can do.

>>35388393

sad. your story making me sad.

feel

>>35388393
>>35388393
Which again is uncharacteristic of her since she would type out fucking paragraphs to me and shit. She was a record you didn't have to flip.

>>35388369
I sort of picked up that she was the type to run away from "serious" topics.

>>35388403
Forreal man. I want to at least talk to her about it so bad. I am able to move on. Getting this shit off my chest is helping. It's the lack of closure that's killing me.

>>35388478

she'll be fine dude, she did it for the money. just pray she recovers from the hospital and she finds happiness.

its never ever ever meant to last.

Pseudo part 3?

I was stuck in my head when a thought came across my mind that really fucked me up.

She told me about a client that would never go away and would come to her job and shit.

Was she talking about me? I saw her at least once a week, but I never came to her job. I only sent flowers to her job and they werent even addressed from me. I only told her they were from me when she was worried they were from her ex bf.

Fuck man I feel like a fucking idiot for feeling this way

>>35388020
Stop, loser.

she's a whore, it's too late

people can't come back from that

just leave that damaged goods behind, she's prolly ill in hospital with the AIDS too

>>35388554
Sounds like you gotta moveon anon. It sounds like it hurts, but those are all feels. I broke up with this girl last year who I dated last year, still think about her. You weren't even dating this girl. You'll be okay.

>>35388554

yeh don't do that.

time to stop.

you got what you paid for, and now you're trying to get more that's a big no no.

>>35388020
Bro it's normal to develope feelings after a while.Find any male dignity you have left inside you and walk away.You'll hurt inside, but i can guarantee you, it won't end well if you continue.

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She's a whore. In the end, Tywin Lannister was right.

>>35388537
>she'll be fine

That's what kills me. She was getting close too, or so she said. Did anything we had mean anything to her? She doesn't seem broken up about this at all. Hell I don't even know whats going on with her.

>>35388765

yes of course it meant something but it wasn't ever ever ever ever meant to be anything more than short term.

ya gotta respect her wishes bro. be thankful you got to see her when you did.

>>35388594
You're right. It's time

I fucking deleted my porn collection for chrissakes. I think I've felt enough for a while.

>>35388765
Think about it in terms of biology. You don't get a lot of physical intimacy, so therefore your body floods your brain with chemicals promoting attachment and pair-bonding.

A prostitute, on the other hand, has to actively suppress those feelings.. or at least has been so disgusted by physical intimacy with hairy old men, and done it so many times that she is literally incapable of forming any meaningful pair-bond.

This is the reason why average non-prostitute high cock count sluts will have problems with attachment later in life. For a prostitute I assume this would be worse, especially since many sex workers have had a history of childhood sexual abuse.

There is a whole field of neuroscience regarding pair-bonding in humans and animals. Read up on it.

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Get over it. She played you for your money. It's what whores do. She's prolly sucking her pimp Jamals huge nigger dick right now while he counts your money.

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Thanks for the chat guys. I know what I need to do. Tomorrow is a new day, every end is a new beginning. That type of shit. I'll come back in a bit if the discussions still going. <33

>>35388878

Really good point there. I will read up.

PS, pic aint her.

>>35388988
I haven't bothered reading what the other people have said. But what i would do is just leave her, stop calling her or whatever, FORGET aobut her. Continue your life, if she ever genuinely cared for you she will come back to you and if she doesn't you can move on or call her yourself. But what has been said is true that you could had jsut been getting played for money or they she was having a soft moment

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>>35388594
>tfw gf broke up with me 3 years ago in october
>still think about her every day

>>35389278
Will we ever get over these feels? It's been three years for me as well.