I don't want to live anymore r9k

>>35364822
The feeling will pass.

Neither do I. But I don't wanna kill myself.
I'm waiting patiently till death.

>>35364822
you and me both

Joined a r9k discord thinking there'd be similar people to talk to. Turns out it's just normie tier stuff going on while "we're so degenerate xD" is the go to meme.

>>35364864
I feel this way to. I don't even want to die, I just want to stop existing.

>>35364870
Forgot to mention that it's only made me feel even worse and worse because now I realize there's nowhere to go.

>>35364870
Maybe they are all just pretending. And are all actually dead inside. If not for this pretence, they would have already committed mass suicide.

>>35364856
but this feeling has arrived from nowhere

>>35364886
I know, brother. Existence is a bad joke.

>>35364883
I get you. I wish I could undo my life.

>>35364971
Have you done something horribly wrong?

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I want my youth back i want back to the happy days

>>35364994
No, but I don't enjoy living and I'm not making the world a better place. My death will bring more sorrow than the joy my life has caused, so dying is unfair to those who care about me but living is unfair to me.

>>35364870
I'm up for talking if you want. But I only have skype

same OP. unfortunately i'm too much of a coward to kill myself.

>>35365149
Are you afraid of pain? Or is it the fear of oblivion?

>>35365187
fear of unknown. maybe catholics are right and i would go to hell. plus i lack the courage to physically carry it out.

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>>35364856
Hasn't for me

Haha Checkmate

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>>35364864
Pretty much this now. Tried twice to kill myself both unsuccessful. So now I really don't want to try again until I have a gun.

I don't even know why I'm posting. I'm schizoaffective and nothing in life brings me joy only pain. I can't take care of myself properly and barely function. Getting out of bed everyday takes me several hours in order to overcome the pain of having to face another day of existence. This whole world is a game I don't want to play anymore. I have to feed myself soon and even that makes me want to die.

The worst part is my parents still have hope that I'll get better. There is no better. This is the best I can do by not killing myself, and without disability I'd be homeless.

>>35365246
Did they put you in mental hospital because of suicidal tendencies?

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>>35365291
No since I told therapist I have no desire too anymore since I know it's a hassle. So just stuck in therapy as it is.

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>>35365146
Different anon but gib skype

>>35365331
AngellicaStar33

>>35365331
My name in skype is lostmyskypeaccount

Read the Bhagavad Gita.

>>35365146
Thanks but I think I'm done.

>>35365280
How long have you been dealing with schizoaffective disorder?

>>35365387
Alright. I've had some bad experiences with stuff like that so I can understand

>>35365360
Looked it up nothing came up.

>>35365438
I'm>>35365365 btw. I don't know about that other guy

>>35365458
Sent the request!

>>35364864
This will continue to be me until


Which I will be patiently waiting for

>>35365280
I hate reading these.
It hits so close to home that I enter a pocket dimension where you and I live together, but I haven't said anything to you because I awkwardly walked in on you taking a shit or something.
And you didn't flush, so we're equally kind of upset.

>>35364822
Tough shit. Most suicide attempts are failures and you are stuck here.

>>35365391
Three or four years now. I used to go to uni, had a part time job and was actually going places. Then life just kind of collapsed all at once where I couldn't do those things anymore.

>>35366006
Thanks for the metaphor, I understood it well enough. I truly believe some of us are just cursed and can't be fixed.

>>35364947
Easy come easy go. It will disappear as mysteriously as it arrive.

>>35364822
>anymore

three more weeks

>>35364822
I'm getting my STD panel test back this week.

If I have HIV I'm gonna kill myself I decided. And I might since I had a lot of unprotected sex with random guys on Grindr

>>35366785
There are differences in our circumstances however.

I abandoned my family. Also I'm homeless.
Its an abstract feel with pros and cons.
But more cons.
But constant cons so prevalent you forget about them in sink into ennui.