I never felt happy.
If you would ask me what it would take to make me happy, i could not even answer you. There is nothing that makes me happy that i know of. I do not enjoy anything. Im sitting at my computer all day. Dont get me wrong, i dont like gaming either, but its not as bad as everything else. That why im doing it all day and still dislike it.
I only once had a moment where i felt peace inside me. It was 1 am and i was leaning back in my seat while listening to music and closing my eyes while everything else was quiet. I was thinking about nothing and only enjoyed the moment.
Never had such a moment since.
Have you had such a moment of peace?
Yes, only one moment. It was sexual though, so I feel like it would be disrespectful to talk about it here
>Have you had such a moment of peace?
It's basically how I feel all the time now. Even if there's nothing to do I can just sit listening to music and staring at a wall and I'm content.