eating disorder thread

>restricted my way down to 118 pounds
>I'm 6 feet tall
>now cycling between binging 2-5000 calories and restricting at 1200 for a few
>Know I need to gain at least a little weight but the thought of gaining weight stresses me out, and once I go over my daily maintenance it's like there's no stopping
I want to lock myself at 120 and not worry about this shit anymore. My wrists and hands are disgustingly skeletal, but my stomach is bloated as fuck. I've barely gone to the bathroom in three or four days except to pee.

>>35322004
Tell a loved one or see a doctor ASAP, anon. Besides, what's your height and weight?

>>35322004
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=98ZzhmRFL4I

Please eat, OP.

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>>35322086

You are very underweight. The reason your stomach is bloated is because of a lack of protein. Just eat lots of healthy food, and you won't have to purge. Your stomach will shrink as your body gets the proper nutrients it needs. That's why you see pictures of skeletal african children with huge stomachs. Also for the love of god tell your family or see a doctor. If you keep doing this you will die.

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I've had eating disorder behaviors for as long as I can remember. I used to skip eating for days, or purge whatever I ate. I fucked my system up so bad I couldn't lean over or down without throwing up. I would randomly throw up blood or other stuff.

I would have been hospitalized, but our insurance doesn't cover it.

I stopped for a while, but recovery is a lie. I still hate my body and feel like shit. I want to go back to how I was before. At least I had control of something.

I will waste away~~~

>>35322204
He did mention not going to the bathroom except to pee, that'll do it as well.

>>35322204
Yeah my stomach was fine before I binged 3 times in a week without having a lot of bowel movement.

I've been bulimic since I was 13, 20 currently. Just try to stop the good thing about bulimia is that most of the negatives will fix themselves over time if you give your body a break. Also protip, rinse your mouth with listerine after every puke so you don't shred your enamel.

Just curious what method do you use? The finger shit gets annoying you can actually learn to bend over and burp and you'll puke on command. Much easier

>>35322004
I was anorexic from ages 13-16, then after my 3rd pass at treatment I "got better" only to move onto binge eating. I did this regularly for a couple of years. I never gained much weight, but I became a skinny-fat lazy fucker. I started to restrict again last quarter (I'm in college) and lost about 15 pounds; when I went home for Christmas break I binged every day and gained it all back. This quarter I've lost a few pounds (I've been exercising/lifting weights regularly) but I still binge occasionally; a few weeks ago I purged for the first time. It's happend a handful of times since then, but only after a binge. If I stay within my calorie limit I have no desire to puke it up.