To this day, I still enter into a major depressive state when I think of anything related to an ex-boyfriend I met here on /r9k/ in 2014 and who dumped me in 2015. He was perfect for me, and I want to cry because I want to talk to him and tell him how much I've needed him all this time.
But he hates me: the last couple of occasions in which we exchanged correspondence were terrible. He broke up with me and I cried all night; then I told him that I didn't think we could be "just friends", and we ceased contact. Then I tried contacting him everywhere for a couple of months, and he eventually got back to me telling me that he'd file a restraining order against me if I messaged him one more time - he mocked me, and then told me me and him were never going to be together.
What is wrong with me? Why am I obsessed with him? Everyone I meet just seems so shitty compared to him. The only people I find attractive are those that resemble him, and I end up losing interest in them because they don't look "enough" like him, or because I realize I'm settling.
I think I need help. I need him so bad. It's not true that "time makes it go away". I've been waiting two years, and I still cry when thinking about him and I still want him to come back. I still can't find any real flaws in him.
i dont know and most importantly i dont care
You've been even alpha widowed.
Hope you enjoy it, thank your precious femism and rampant hypergamy.
I'm sorry anon, that's terrible. I don't know how to make it better, but I'm sorry for what you're going through.
>>35315164
>"i dont know and most importantly i dont care"
>still posts on the thread
Way to waste both of our times
>>35315108
How did you know him? Some thread here or how?
>>35315207
I'm not female, you dumb fuck.
>>35315108
was it an online relationship?
if so, you need to grow the fuck up.
>>35315108
I'm going through some vaguely similar shit OP, would you reccomend messaging them until they respond, or to just wait. If so, how long am I supposed to wait?
>>35315244
I made a thread on here back when I was in Uni. I was posting about how much I hated my life and how I was going through some issues, and he told me that if I wanted to talk, he would leave me his e-mail.
So I took him up on the offer, and we hit it off pretty well. Eventually, I found out how he looked like, and he was gorgeous - literally my type. And luckily for me, he thought I was really attractive. Not only that, but he was gay too.
It went from there. We never actually met in person, though.
>>35315251
So a trap or gay guy?
Either way the message, the mantra that needs to be repeated as gospel on this board goes as follows:
TRUE ROBOTS WILL NEVER LEAVE THEIR SO
You've been dormant normied GG
>>35315251
Faggots still think and act like women. Clearly they're about as smart as them too.
>>35315344
Just a gay guy.
Why did you broke up?
how is this not oregano
>>35315492
Honestly, I can't remember that well.
I know the immediate excuse was that I'd made some comments that morning that he got mad about. But I'm pretty sure he was using that as a convenient excuse.
Maybe it's the fact that I was too cowardly to stand up to my parents and ended up completely canceling our planned meet-up. I remember he said some stuff about us being too "different", and that I could never understand him because of our different backgrounds. I don't know. It's been a long while, and I was crying while he was telling me this and not paying too much attention.
I wonder if he still posts here, or on any other board. There's been times where I thought I was talking to him, but I doubt it - probably wishful thinking. Maybe he stopped posting here completely - maybe the reason is that he kept seeing me make threads about him. I never mentioned him by name, but he probably would have recognized it. I mean, I have been making threads about him for two years now.
>>35315108
What did you do to make him hate you and break up with you?
>>35316940
I don't know.
See: (>>35315713)
>>35316964
He's long gone. I've hooked up with girls from internet boards before and the rule I dump the board when I dump them. Don't bother posting on this board about him again.