>that kid who never talked Was he autistic before it became a meme

that was me in highschool. now i talk when i have to when i'm at work

>>35251692
Yes, people try to say they have meme autism but fact is if you cant function as a normal social human you probably have fucking autism, wake up

>>35251692
That was me.desu. I wanted to talk i was just too afraid to start conversation with any of you. And you people never attempted to do chat with me so i just stopped trying but i low key hated everyone

>>35251742
if youve used exposure therapy and still struggle socially its autism

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>that kid who only talked about a single kids cartoon that no one else in school watched and is now forgotten

Now that was autism

Whenever I trick myself into thinking I'm normal I always get a memory from my childhood and it reminds me I've always been like this. When I first started secondary school all I'd ever do was quote internet memes. Bare in mind this was in 2005 so this was before "memes" were really a thing.

Worst thing I remember doing was singing that banana phone song for the entire year before the bullying started. At first people were amused by it, I was like a circus attraction. I didn't have the awareness back then to realise the people I thought were my friends were actually just using me as a prop. A running joke. Of course this eventually ended when the novelty of me got old and people just started straight up hurting me. After that I stopped quoting memes and stopped talking completely.

Four years of silence during the prime developmental years of my life. Eventually I developed learnt awareness and could come across as somewhat normal. After school, around 2010, for a while I started to believe that I was normal but was just stunted socially by my self imposed isolation. The years went by, I forgot my failings, people were nicer after school (not genuinely but at least to my face) and I started to believe I had changed. My social interactions though shallow, were passable. People assumed I was just shy, suffering from the usual initial awkward stage before a relationship deepens emotionally, but that initial stage turned out to be permanent and I could see people changing around me as their opinion changed. They stopped bothering. The shift in opinion was great. I'm guessing the word spread through the place that I was weird, and since then people treat me as less than human.

I tried to enter a conversation one time and a coworker said "go, turn around, face that way, ssshh" as if she was talking to a dog.

I've given up. I quit my job, withdrew from social interaction, became severely depressed. I know social immersion doesn't work. I had 5 years of it.

>>35252377

This feeling is worse than anything I've felt before. My abilities have been tested and failed repeatedly. I know my limitations now and I really don't know what there is for me in life anymore.

A man who has never tried to walk before may live happily in the knowledge that he could if he tried, worked at it. A man who has tried, a thousand times, and failed each and every time will eventually stop trying, settle down into the ground and die (or get a wheelchair)

Sorry for the long post. You see... I am autistic.

>>35251875
do you think it was the vaccines , i dont think anyone in my recent family line was this fucked

>>35252397
i was very obviously autistic and other mental illnesses but never diagnosed now im a fucking miserable avoidant personality disorder

>>35252397
>(or get a wheelchair)
kek'd at this bit