Accepting You're 'The Bad Guy'

>>35241599
>very mentally ill
>sexual sadist
>literally overjoyed to see people or cause people to be in pain
>necrophiliac
>obsessed with being with the dead
>my entire life has revolved around me satisfying those two things

>yet I've done everything I can to be in therapy and take my meds
>a productive member of society by all other standards
>kind to my coworkers and roommates
>understand the consequences of my actions

Who /anti-hero/ here?

I know I'm scum. I'm torn between hating myself for it or letting go and not giving a fuck.

>>35242146
So, you have engaged in sexual activities with a corpse, fellow robot?

t. Not FBI

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>>35242940
iktf

f1eb09

>>35241599
>Be against the ideals of the enlightenment
>Literally worse than Hitler to most people
Yes and yes.
It's pretty easy once you realize that everyone else has been seduced by Satan and is working towards the destruction of all that is good in humanity.

Also, what this >>35242146
guy said, before the corpse-fucking at least.

I can't accept it really. Internally I criticize others' faults almost instantly. I try to be kind to counteract that because I don't want to be a plain asshole.

I haven't accepted it. I've done things that people would consider diabolical, but I think the good out-weighs them. As my therapist tells me, we're all composed of parts. No one is just good or just bad.

>>35243113
That's a lie they tell you.

EDGY PEOPLE: The thread

>>35243286
Sometimes I do wonder whether my therapist does think of me as a bad person, but plays it off well enough that I don't have more than a suspicion.

>>35241599
Anon, I'm not a good guy. I'm not a bad guy. I'm THE guy.

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>>35241599
checked
Yes I have felt that way for a while.
at what point to cross the the line and become a sociopath?

>>35243472
You're not the guy.
You will never be the guy.
I had a guy, now I don't.
But you. Are not. The guy.

>>35243325
what are the diabolical things you have done anon?

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Who /gray jedi/ here?

>>35244150
You see the thing is Stacey, there is NO ONE better at this business than I am.

>>35244240
that is some gay cringe faggot, i hope your mother dies hahaha i don't mean it.

>>35244240
>Passion, yet emotion
>Serenity, yet peace

You can't make this shit up.

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>>35241599
I always knew I was a super villain. The hard part for us superior intelligent beings is to know where you can be a super villain and not go to jail.

>>35244387

It's a shame you attached such a beautiful picture to such a cringe-worthy message.

>>35244437
>beautiful picture

It's a shame you are such a worthless, tasteless, degenerate manchild

not that guy but had to call you out.

I accept my role as "The Bad Guy", but I do not believe that somebody is entirely evil nor that someone is entirely good. Everyone will have traits from "both sides" - if we are so literal.

My moral ethics are not the same as the norms and I don't hide behind something else, but this also means that I get to be "that person". I am at peace with it; sometimes it does annoy me though, because there are things that people get very upset about, but I can't change it.

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>>35244437
It was 50% ironic shit posting and 50% serious. I hide my real feelings behind 50 layers of irony. Most people here probably feel like the villains.

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wait a minute

we're the baddies?

>>35241599
>Anyone come to the realisation yet that you are the opposite of what society deems good and outside of the moral guidelines of most people, like Jesse comes to realise after he causes the plane crash?

Yes.

>Are you at peace with it?

Yes, society is wrong.

>>35244474

I love how you're arguing about whether it's beautiful or not as if taste isn't entirely subjective, you half-digested horse turd.

I don't even really care much for anime but I think the mix of neon purple and white looks really good in that pic.

Considering I am a, I accepted it a long time ago.

>>35244637
>as if taste isn't entirely subjective

oy vey! isn't it lovely! you should look at some modern art too goy!

>>35241599
>society defines morality and not God
Good one, degenerate.

This is gonna sound edgy, but then again, so is this entire fucking thread.

I don't consider myself the "bad guy" or whatever else, but I think every story needs a villain and I'm ok with that being me sometimes.

Basically speaking I find I'm more willing to do what needs to be done in order to accomplish a goal, than most other people I've met. Especially when what needs to be done is considered morally reprehensible, wrong, shady, evil, etc etc etc.

As a brief example, I had a coworker who was being severely harassed by a superior. Due to his tenure at the company and connections, complaining to HR would only get him a slap on the wrist and retaliation against my friend.

So I doctored images and emails to make it seem like he'd been using company email to solicit gay sex on Craigslist. Forwarded those to his superiors, HR, and his spouse.

He was fired and I don't know what happened to his marriage.

>>35241599
Yeah, first time I smoked weed I came to the conclusion I'm evil. Just the way it is

I'm not the bad guy. Even as an edgy 15 years old I never had delusions of being the "bad guy". I'm the neutral guy. My existence doesn't influence my surroundings enough for me to be considered righteous or evil, just like everyone else in here and most people in the world.

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>>35244666

You're either trolling or very, very stupid so I'm gonna stop responding to you now.

Also

>I see you, Satan.

>>35241599
>most people
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Argumentum_ad_populum

Not. An. Argument.

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>>35241599
I'm not cool enough to be the 'bad guy' desu.

More like one of the extras.

>>35241599
I bullied a kid so much for manipulating girls for pics that he ended up self-harming.

I had such terrible arguments with my mother that she started fasting.

I've cried about those many times

>>35241599
I'm not the good guy or the bad guy. I'm just the guy.

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I've tried to be a good person all my life however I've been told I'm a bad person and made to feel like a bad person so much that I just want to say fuck it and do bad things because that's what everyone thinks of me so why not live up to their expectations?

I hate myself for the way I am.

>Had a friend in school
>He got me to steal sweets and stuff for him
>Do it because I was an autist and thought I was being a good friend
>One day tell him I'm not doing it anymore
>Few days go by and go around his house at the weekend to see if he wanted to play
>His mum answers and tells me to fuck off because she doesn't want her children to associate with thieves.
>Was forever known around the neighbourhood and school as a thief

>>35244766
I'm sure gang rape isn't an argument either, but that doesn't mean there isn't strength in numbers.

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The more of a loser you are in real life, the more you try to look special and edgy. This is why we have basement-dwellers thinking they can shitpost the world into suicide while the actual elite doesn't even know epic trolling exist except by an article written by a tumblr girl in the NYT.

>>35244220
I drove a couple apart, manipulating them so that I could move on him.
I kicked an animal to death.
I lie and manipulate compulsively.
I'm incredibly sexually unfaithful.
I kept two parallel relationships going on, in secret, for five years.
I have been abusive in my relationships.
I made someone move to my city Vancouver just to see if I could, isolating them from their family, and when they arrived they found the address they have been given belonged to a stranger

>>35245043
kek you are a lightweight tbqh and that last one was just plain funny. thanks anon

>>35245195
You too. Kind of a relief desu

>>35245005
Is it really special or edgy if you're telling the truth?

>>35241599
I'd say I'm closer to neutral, at one point I was almost a pathologically nice guy, but an attitude like that only lasts as long as your fortune.
Obviously my attitude changed over time and I grew more and more cynical, but I still have an ingrained streak of what I used to be even if it's generally not in my best interests to act on it.

you ugys are all sociopaths seek help you. me i'm morally righteous, catholic, strong heritage i would give the shirt off my back to help anyone. i don't judge people, i'm not perverted, i'm very understand and ultimately i just want everyone to succeed be happy.

you guys need help you're evil pray to god is the only way as a devout catholic my family has been catholics for 1000s of years the best thing to do is pray, do lint, and also do confessional.

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>>35246218

You gotta try harder. Its so obvious.

>>35246277
no i can tell after reading this thread all of you are on the wrong path you'll soul is all dark.

youve been led astray by satan and your hearts/souls are evil with that comes evil intrusive thoughts. get on the right path, follow the rod of steel that leads to the tree/water, drink from the holy eat with the holy only then will you be saved. you're on a dark raods that will only get darker.

also notice your picture is completely black much like that let the light of christ guide you.

>>35246218
too bad you will never be rad

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>ITT: Edgy people acting like they are actually tough and cool

But i'm the good guy.

Being the good guys doesnt mean im a beta pushover. Im just VASTLY outnumbered.

I am good and more righteous than most. I hope God is real, so all the evil and vapid are judged accordingly.

If hell is the absence of god then his lack of existence doesn't bode well for ourselves.

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>>35243053
>unironically being anti-enlightenment

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>>35246400
>unironically being against the divine right of kings
That's literally you right now

>>35246423
>unironically believing that kings have divine right

>>35246372
I posted >>35242146

>you honestly think I believe that crippling mental illness is tough and cool
>you think I believe that being a law abiding citizen is tough and cool

>>35246454
Next you're going to tell me you don't actually believe in God, right?

>He looks at Europeans and looks at apes and actually thinks they're related

>>35245005
but aren't the losers of society the ones who cannot thrive in it and therefore the antithesis?

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>>35246491
>not believing in Ahura Mazda

>not understanding the concept of evolution

>not understanding that divine right was just a way for kings to justify their rule

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>>35246485
>originally implying originally

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>>35246543
>Not believing in the Supreme Mind

>Not understanding the concept of Man and Nature

>Not understanding that the divine right of kings was a way of making the below as the above

>>35241599
Morality is subjective and inconsistent. Most people only talk about things like the bible and doing good to virtue signal. There are even studies where most people admit they only give money to the homeless and go to church because others will accept them more

>>35246607
>not realizing that divine right legitimized shitty-ass kings

>not believing in Zoroaster's revelation

>not a practitioner of chaos magick

I'm not the bad guy. I'm the good guy, in a bad way.

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>>35241599
>Anyone come to the realisation yet that you are the opposite of what society deems good and outside of the moral guidelines of most people
Yes
>like Jesse comes to realise after he causes the plane crash? Are you at peace with it?
I am at peace with it because I know that me being what I am does not negatively affect the people around me, unlike Jesse who produces and sells drugs for profit.
For this reason, nobody cares about my/(our?) existence and us vegetating our meaningless lives.

>>35241599

Bad guy is just a concept. If you look at the past, societies improved after "bad guys" were done fucking it hard. Take Hitler for example: if there wasn't for his rise to power we would never push the space research thing and land on the moon. Humanity spikes in 1960s and since Hitler we haven't had any major bad guys to change the whole picture, thus humanity is devolving until someone fucks it up severely again. Being the ultimate 'bad guy' is great for humanity.

Morality is just opinions with mass approval.

>>35241599
>it's better to be a bad someone than no one
or something?

>>35246671
>Not believing that a shitty king is still a king

>Actually practicing rituals concocted by drug-addled aging hippies instead of rituals conceived by the finest minds of antiquity

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>People here actually thinking they're "bad people"
You edgelord retards may have done a few mean things but you're just social outcasts, not "le evil villain"

>>35246928
I've driven a person a suicide and convinced the other to take hard drugs and fuck their entire life up for the bantz but that doesn't make me a bad person right?

I think being the "bad guy" is a very complex state of being. Their are far to many layers to take into account. You could be the kindest homeless guy, but you are still a loser in society. There is an unmovable base line of right and wrong, but at the end of the day you will be dealing with a persons subjective morals. Just be redpilled bros!

>>35241599
Nah, I'm more of a pragmatic, "true neutral" type. If it works, it works. I'm not edgy enough to consider myself a bad guy.

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>>35246218
>i'm very understand
lmao

>>35241599
No I'm a good person I just have some bad habits ie alcohol and drugs.

>>35241599
I don't think I've done anything particularly 'bad' so no.

A girl would rather fuck a dog than a beta. Society has only worked against me. Being a short shy blonde man is the worst fate in the modern world and I'll be damned if I'd ever pity something, least society.

>>35241599
Who else here is trying to work past this?
>tfw reprogrammed my brain to be attracted to adults through large amounts of porn
Feels liberating

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I'm a bad guy?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hLmuF-0P4tk

>>35247682
great film desu

>>35244288
Slack i

No because im a woman and men cater to my every need.

>>35241599
>bad guy
No. Even when I get in very edgy moods I'm still somewhat of a moralfag.
I prefer to just refer to myself as an apathetic hermit.

>>35247682
He's not the bad guy. He's /ourguy/.

Sometimes I think about it. I wouldn't say I were necessarily a BAD guy intentionally, but I realized a while ago that, for starters, I was hardly the ideal person that people actually, y'know, liked, never mind what women wanted in a romantic, sexual partner. I'm a quiet, soft-spoken geek with a lot of social anxiety and a lot of stuttering, who finds it incredibly difficult to talk to people sometimes. I also have a lot of mental illnesses that genuinely affect my behavior and how I interact with others. Instead of being the friendly, outgoing, and sociable person that people actually like, without even really trying to, I tend to be more withdrawn and self-isolating.

I've also done a lot of creepy shit, like stalking or hitting on a woman when she clearly wasn't interested, but during those moments, I genuinely couldn't see the wrong I was doing. So I guess in that sense, I realized that I was kinda the 'bad' guy but I'm also pretty sympathetic towards myself. I just genuinely didn't know much about social norms and what was acceptable or not, in addition to my depression, which impairs the way that I think.

I sometimes want to be the bad guy, where I cause someone pain or I witness someone in pain, where they get a serious injury, but every time anyone gets in an accident around me, I always find myself actually worrying about them and trying to help them as best as I can.

>>35243304
>ITT: Newfag should lurk more.

i'm a hebe, so yes.

i even feel like an outsider here on r9k because i can't and don't identify with most robots and don't agree with all the women hatred, i'm just here because i can't ever have what i truly want anyway.

>>35242146
I am quite similar to you, friend. We can't help being this way, but we still fight it because society forces us to.

but im always the bad guy.
Im like a mix between Rorschach and Shadow the hedgehog.Handsome on the outside but with a rotten core of hate.