WHY THE FUCK CANT I JUST BE HAPPY?! WHY THE FUCK EVERY FUCKING TIME EVERYTHING GOES WELL ALL SMILES ALL RUNNING SMOOTH ANS BAMP! SHIT STARTS GOING DOWNHILL WHERE I HAVE NO CONTROL OF MY FUCKING LIFE
A girl starts showing interest, sudendly life for some reason makes her go away, so close to kissing a fucking girl in my 26 years old fucking life suddenly I never see her again, if it's a coworker or a classmate, she just fucking disappears
GOT A FUCKING RISE AT WAGEKEK JOB FOR THE FIRST TIME IN THE 5 YEARS IVE BEEN WORKING HERE AND BAMP! A BIGGER GREEDY CORPORATION BUYS OUR FRANCHISE AND TAKE AWAY MY FUCKING RISE
IT SEEMS LIKE MY DESTINY MAKES ANYTHING POSSIBLE TO MAKE MY LIFE MISERABLE
Feeling really down, drunk as fuck, high as fuck, feeling like playing in traffic or jumping off a clif, SUDDENLY EVERYTHING GOES WELL AGAIN THEN 5 MORE THINGS GO BAD
FUCK YOU FATE
FUCK YOU DESTINY
FUCK YOU GOD IF THERES ONE
JUST END MY FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT LIFE IM TO COWARD TO KILL MY STUPID SELF
FUCKING REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE IM A WORTLESS PIECE OF SHIT
>>35226104
Fate and destiny doesn't exsist. I feel bad for you tho, I feel the same way. It's like your drowning in a sea of shit and you can't swin.
>>35226104
I can relate
I started MMA in january 2015. Was doing great despite being younger than most other guys and DYEL.
Months after got invaded by depression and psychosomatic health problems. (to be more specific, I thought I had chrons disease or some suicide-tier bowel problem but it turned out it was just lactose intolerance thanks to studies when I finally fucking decided to take my ass to the hospital)
So I had to stop MMA and all my dreams to become a pro, at least temporary.
Now on last december I started gym thanks to /fit/ where I learnt everything I needed to know about diet and routine. Progressed really good but now a few weeks ago started suffering a very serious insomnia which made me quit job and I go to the gym feeling tired because I get up late as fuck every day.
Why wasn't I born a Chad or a Stacy to live life on easy mode?
>>35226394
>Fate doesn't exist
Hard determinism is a bitch, and yes it does.
I AM SO CONSTIPATED AND IT KILLS MY SEX DRIVE