considering suicide

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I think it's over for me, robots. I'm fucked up too much this time.

>be me
>freshman in college
>very small campus, very small community (like 1000 kids in a grade)
>try to be a new person, be slightly cooler
>kind of works, actually make some chill friends
>still a khv, but things are going ok, have a solid circle of friends and can hang out on weekends and stuff
>finalymadeit.jpg
>enter second semester
>still khv
>getting desperate
>remember reading online about just lowering your standards
>ugliest girl in the Universe hits on me at a party
>literally a 1.5/10
>probably a fembot, total reject, literally autistic, has no friends
>decide fuck it, go for her the next day
>she blows me, I don't cum, we don't have sex
>unironically worse than masturbating, feel disgusted with myself afterwards
>atleastimnotarobotanymore.jpg
>autistic robot dude who was trying to sleep with her finds out, is super jealous
>tells everyone
>everyone knows I hooked up with the ugliest girl in the school
>everyone laughs at me
>all my friends won't shut up about it
>no longer get invited to shit
>people literally laugh at me when they see me
>they know

This is literally driving me to suicide. Don't fall for the "lower your standards" meme.