What started your journey?

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Self-bump only because I took my time writing this shit

>Raised by rich parents, couldn't ask for better parents desu.
>Got into a good business school
>Was a good kid back in high school, never smoked, drank, any of that shit
>Started smoking weed, drinking heavily, doing coke and MDMA in college
>Family moves across the country, so I cant get my Vyvanse anymore
>Flunk out of business school and start doing even more drugs
>Start my reinstatement process this year to try and get back in.
>Sent in my papers and they loved them
>They sent an email to my college email account asking for an interview
>mfw I miss the email cause I thought my college email account was unactived
>I specifically told them to contact me at my personal email which I provided with my papers
>Still miss the email, interview, and my chance to get back into college

Fuck this, I need a drink.

>>35204466
Bro, there's other avenues to success besides school especially if you have a business back ground. Entrepreneurship might be a really good option.

>>35204593
Well I was only a freshman in college, so I don't really have that much of a business background.

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>>35204164
>attempt suicide
>go psych ward
>working as an art teacher at a local high school
Really gets the noggin jogging.

Either you are full of shit or you live in some third world mugabe country where they let people with a history of serious mental illness become teachers.
kek

>>35204164
>Born into wealthy family
>Dad has issues and worked all the time and if he wasn't he was out doing shit for the local community
>Everyone thinks he's a very good guy/dad
>They dont know all he did was yell at us, degrade us and often beat us
>Mom was kind and loving but not strong enough to go against him
>When I was 8 a local 15 yo girl manipulated me into doing sexual shit
>She was forced by her dad who filmed this
>Develop eating disorder
>Dad hates me for getting fatter and molested. He literally told me it was my fault. he requested perfection or he'd get mad
>Brother becones heroin addict at the age of 15, I was 12
>I become the barrier between everyone
>Protect brother and mother from dad, supportibg them
>He goes in and out of rehab all the time, I get fatter
>Still get yelled az degraded every day but the beatings lessened
>19 decide to turn life around and leave abusive household
>Was 320 lbs at this point, lost it all, 168 now (for 2 years)
>was stable
>2 years ago brother reached out me for help, he was a homeless junkie for a few years now
>Could not decline and let him ib my house
>My life started revolving around him and his use, mind you I had ALOT of issues myself
>Eventually break in and try heroin
>Become addicted
>Ffw a year and I'm living in a crackhouse
>Decide to quit 13 months ago
>Turn life around again
>tfw hot gf, /fit/, good job, in university, nice car, financially independant
>Still no contact with dad or brother, they fuck me up big time.
>Mom left dad 7 months ago and I'm in contact with her thou, see her often

No matter what shit you've been through and what you did you can always change your life back around if you really want to. I still frequent this board because of past traumas but if you'd meet me irl you'd think I'm a Chad. Except that it's all an act and I have an inner struggle every day even thou nobody knows.

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>>35204164
>Be me born into not wealthy but sure as hell not poor
>move to new town and school
>start becoming robot because i cant make friends
>start going into a spiral of mental illness
>parents find out im into gore
>kicked out
>live on streets for 1.5 years
>get a decent job out of pitty
>live in a really tiny apartment
>get promotions talk to sister
>she tells parents
>they ask for money
>mfw i am a mental piece of shit because of them and the have the balls to ask for money

>>35204639
Well there's something there atleast. If I were you I'd take count of what my skills actually are and see what I can do. Also your ex drug hook ups might know some legit folk. I know you druggies are pretty social.

>>35204874
Give 'em the cash robo. In the form of 9mm rounds.

>>35204164
Shit anon i genuinely feel sorry for your situation and im glad that you have your life and everything in order
If nobody has said it yet today; you did a good job

>>35204903
You're a fucking idiot aren't you? At least you're on the right board.

>>35204903
That's actually not a bad idea at all, bro. They certainly know most of the town, no doubt they can hook me up with a job or something.

>>35204645
I was born and raised in European side of Turkey, been in US since 18. The records didn't transfer.

>>35204953
thank you anon, you are going to make it too. My heart is with you

>>35204164
>born into upper middle class family
>parents get divorced when im 10
>mom teaches me to hate my dad
>in hindsight he's a narcissist but my mom hated that he's a transvestite and probably harbors tranny thoughts
>after divorce live with mom
>go from living wealthy to living poor
>hate where i grew up, only thing that drives me is a desire to get out
>spend middle and high school studying, feeling aloof
>no gf ever, but feel like thats okay because obv they'll like me so much in college
>go to a top uni in the US
>learn that social problems follow you everywhere
>"it'll be better in LAW SCHOOL!"
>bust ass to get into good law school
>do so
>same problems follow me
>"just wait'll I HAVE A CAREER!"
>here i am
>paycheck is good but i'm lonely

> born to middle-class family
> excelled at school
> good parents
> i became known as smart, competent, reliable, trustworthy
> got to high school
> realized that girls just weren't into me
> no problem, i'll wait until college
> in college -- realized that girls just weren't into me
> oh boy, this sucks -- well I'll just focus on education
> get master's degree
> get a position on the faculty of a university
> later, become an engineer
> career is on the fast track, making good money
> at age 27, i'm professionally successful ...
> ... but i have never been with a girl in any way
> the sadness become continuous and intolerable
> nothing in life feels worthwhile as a single person
> tried introduction services (they cater to rich professionals)
> tried online ads
> nothing worked
> finally went into semi-retirement ...
> ... in part to dedicate full time to try to find someone
> about a year of searching online -- very, very depressing
> now officially a wizard
> suddenly, i found someone
> now happy for the first time in my life
> got married a year later
> went back to work, career success continues
> start putting money in stock market
> stock market goes up like crazy
> next thing I know we're millionaires
> finally retire for good at a young age
> financially secure, plus a loving wife, life is really, really good
> still constantly remember what the loneliness was like
> the years of sadness can never be forgotten
> read /r9k/ to bring back feels of those old, sad days
> realize that my past sadness is a fundamental part of who i am

>>35205105
thats some hardcore system slaving, anon. I admire your determination tho

>>35204164
>grew up poor
>never really complained because I knew others had it worse
>screw up but parents stuck by me
>high school drop out that started abusing alcohol and marijuana at 16
>pretty good artist but never used it to my full potential
I'm sorry mom and dad but I promise one day I'll make you happy.

If some event "made" you a robot, you're not a real robot.

>>35205198
Oh fuck off
originade

>>35204164
>>born into a really wealthy family
stopped reading.

>>35205198
bollocks mate. nice story tho 5/7

>>35205198
Sorry Brobot but she's into you for the success and betabucks.U still alone and its perfectly normal cuz today's women are an asset not a partner.What you need is some bros to travel around the world and have lulz (its what I would do if a had big monies)

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>>35204164
"cyborg" this is the sighn of a sure normie right here get the fuck off now. you are wealthly. you will never have to work a wage job in ur life. go away fuck off

>>35204164
>born to rich parents
>socially awkward entire life
>go to college
>start smoking weed erryday
>join frat
>fail every class
>start drinking in morning for new semester
>fail every class
>go to rehab
>stay in rehab/sober living 2 years
>finish my degree in sober living
>work at fast food restaurant and tutor dumb kids in math till I find engineering job
>4 months later find job
>get duped into shit tier engineering job with shit pay
>3 months into it leave for a way better job with way better pay
>completely financially independent but kinda depressed but at least I make good money
>still a Virgin but at least I'm not kissless
>drinking 1-2 kombucha every day :(
>the journey has begun

>>35205738
Fuck off asshole, just let him enjoy what he has.

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>born into loving family, or so I thought
>dad molests me at 13
>mum runs off at 14
>booted out of year 8 and placed into a behavioral school for 2 years (was a bad kid)
>no HSC
>develop schizophrenia at 18
>went to rehab for 2 years
>went to jail for 3 months (drunk stint)
>booted out of rehab
>went homeless for a while
>now live in a tiny 1 bedroom flat
>don't know what to do with my life

>born into poor family
>constantly bullied in school
>ffw highschool get gf
>gf turns pyscho bc i dont want sex yet
>decides to rape me in my sleep
>then goes off and days i raped her
>get my ass kicked daily for about a month
>attempt suicide after deciding i had no purpose
>fail, send 1 month in hospital
>drop out of highschool
>neet from 16 to 19
>get ged at 19 and pursue community college
>drop out after 2 months
>get hospitalized again
>ffw 2 years to 21 and 7 hospitalizations later
>now heavily medicated social outcast taking online courses and working overnight at grocery store

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I'll just go with milestones or we'd be here all night
>molested by sister and her friends
>molested by my own friends
>random crying spells at school all the time
>bullied on and off

and that was just elementary

>highschool
>bullying intensifies
>beaten by angry dad and sisters boyfriend at home, no escape
>hang out with a lot of different groups but fit in with none
>lots of missed opportunities with girls because no self esteem and anxiety
>pretty much end up playing MMOs with what few other outcasts I do know
>continues till about 17
>become agoraphobic, barely able to talk to cashiers and skip a lot of class at this point
>people start reaching out because they're worried
>attempt suicide, get stopped
>get sick of my lifestyle, get a job to get over agoraphobia, mental breakdown in 2 months working retail
>First GF ghosts me and comes back dating a chad 2 weeks later.
>Finally start getting my shit together at 20 years old, start lifting and planning for college
>2nd mental breakdown from working two jobs in order to pay tuition. diagnosed with severe depression

Fastforwarding past a bunch of negative college experiences, I graduate to present day

>Work all the time, no more time for exercise. I'm at the mercy of restaurants for meals.
>Work, go home, wait for death

I was bred for this.

Being bullied since like first grade
unironically have memepergers diagnosed
4th grade teacher singling me out and insulting me everyday
possibly molested at babysitters house when I was 6
on medication since 5th grade

bullied/beat up in middleschool
kicked out and sent to emotionally disturbed school till 10th grade
the type of school you do macaroni pictures at
caught with belt around my neck, sent to psych hospital for 2 months
more beatings till 10th grade
started doing every drug under the sun
got shit tier fast good job and get fired
work at Solar company now. on the roof everyday making bank. no more drugs, suicide attempts and I could fuck someone up with my bare hands if they tried something.

>>35206325
sounds like me. we could've been friends in 08-11

what broke me?

finally manage to get laid
>but I feel nothing
finally manage to get a blowjob
>but I feel nothing
>repeat a couple of times with different girls for same result.

Having a hot girl sucking my dick or being in a warm vagina feels nothing. It's as if I was rubbing my elbow.

When I realized I could never enjoy sex like most people do, that's when I began to avoid women and I went through an existential crisis.
I can't find anything to fill the void.
I can't feel pleasure.
I can't satisfy the most basic and important of my urges.

>reasonably wealthy parents
>went to shit middle school
>bullied for almost everything I did
>literally 1 friend
>parents get divorced at 14
>fall in love (deeply in love) with this incredible girl 1st quarter freshman year of highschool
>no confidence at all
>eventually become friends, but later she finds out I like her and it ruins everything
>depressed for months
>make a friend that I think I will have forever, only for her to stab me in the back a month ago from today (approx)
>everyone treats me like social cancer
>get suicidal
>eventually snap and get violent
>get suspended
>now im not only cancer but "that school shooter"

I have nothing to live for right now. Fuck.

>>35205738
>she's into you for the success and betabucks

She didn't know I had money until after we got married. Also, all the big stock-market money came entirely after we got married.

She was a virgin at 28 (until the day we got married), so she was definitely not a normie girl.