I've had it since teenhood. It's like no matter how hard I try to rewire my mind, to be able to work towards improving myself so that I can have purpose, I inevitably can't help but feel that I don't *want* to have purpose at all.
All I want is for people to see me as a failure, to feel sorry for me. It's all that I could ever want.
>>35161694
get your shit together, no one wants to take care of a manchild
>>35161724
>, no one wants to take care of a manchild
I don't want to be taken care of. I want to be pitied even if I made perfect decisions and they all ended up in miserable failure
>>35161798
dgggggggggfgggggggdf
>>35161694
You weren't loved by your parents, so you never learned to love yourself; that's why you experience pity as a substitute for love.
Pity and contempt are two sides of the same coin.
You'll get some attention at first but people will start to hate you after loaning you money or listening to you whine about your life while arguing with any advice you receive for the umpteenth time.