I'm going to come here, just because this is where I've always come, I get a sense of belonging here. I'm not fucking attention-whoring, I don't even know if this is going to go anywhere or anyone has a fucking clue, but I sure don't.
My uncle died of a heroin overdose. He was 41, I'm currently 19, and I've never had to confront the concept of death before.
I hear he was a good man from my grandparents, how he was always such a loving, caring boy in his youth, through his teens and as an adult. He got married fairly young, he had two kids, both boys. Neither him or his wife were very bright, admittedly, so he was working really long hours to take care of the four of them. His wife wanted him to spend more time with the kids, but he had barely any time to. I would have been too young to know the details, but they would always argue and couldn't compromise, so eventually she left him and took the two kids, and he lost his job as a chef soon after. He was in grief over the whole thing, from what I hear anyway, I would have been 6. One of his mates offered him heroin, to help deal with it.
He spent 13 years in and out of jail trying to get off of the shit. He would always tell my grandparents how much he loved them in his letters, how he was going to get off of it for good this time, but he couldn't seem to ever find the strength. Without his kids I could imagine why. I got to see him occasionally, when I was a little older, he was a riot. We got to play chess a lot, it's what he did to fill the time. I'm only hearing now that he would always ask about me, when I'd be next over, if I was still playing chess. Maybe it's because I was the only boy he got with his two gone, I would guess, but I never got the chance to ask him.
And then one day, out of the blue, I get a text that he OD'ed, and my grandparents were off to the polis station to identify the body. No warning, just gone.
How do you deal with someone dying?
>>35117155
Give me some life-experience, some advice or anything, robots. I'd appreciate it.
I drank an inhuman amount of coffee, punched a hole in my wall and bled across my keys as I typed that. This is stupid, and exactly how you're not supposed to deal with grief.
>>35117155
>your parents let you hang out with a heroin addict because "family"
Perhaps take up heroin to deal with your grief.
>>35117189
Sometimes he would be feeling much better, he could manage a couple of months off of the shit. There were better and worse times to visit him.
Don't be a dick, Anon.