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I hate that all my friends are couples now.
And "are couples" is pretty literal, it's impossible to hang out with just my bros anymore, they always have to bring their boring gfs.
We can't play games because they suck at them and won't sit out.
We can't eat any food because they're all have a million dietary restrictions.
We can't go anywhere cause they're weak and/or lazy.

I know interesting women (that I'm not fucking), but none of them are these girlfriends. Can't wait for them to start having children and be effectively dead to me.

>>35110906
I made a fembot thread trying to give robots confidence and the replies were so sad. So much sadder than I thought. And it made me sad.

I hate that no matter how outgoing I try to be, even if I get fit and knowledgeable and funny and charismatic, I will always be short. No matter what I'll be pathetic, and even if I somehow get a gf it'll be one who doesn't find me physically attractive.

I try to not think about the past. Been wasting too much time feeling miserable about things that didn't happen and will never have happened.

But god dammit I miss her I can't avoid thinking about her. I can't help but wonder what she's been doing or if she's having fun. It hurts me so much that she's not part of my life anymore.

Gotta move on and all. Whatever, I'll live. I just want the pain to end.

>>35111341
What did you expect? Not even being hostile, this place sucks, get out.

I need to rant over a recent story

>be 18
>On some shitty church retreat
>Other people there seem nice
>They keep talking about group chat every 5 seconds like autists
>Group chat? Group chat? Group chat?! Ahahaha did you see that funny thing on group chat?
>No one sits next to me on bus
>Start blasting loud nigra and the meat spin song
>Later we are at the dorm
>We are all talking
>Random jackass tells me to shut up
>Adult tells us all its lights out
>Lights turn off
>Blast loud nigra one last time for fun
>They all laugh
>Adult gets mad
>They all say they are moving to group chat via texting
>Ask for the number
>Here anon it's xxx-xxx-xxxx
>Sorry but this number is a land line
(I think they heard me muttering to myself about a beta uprising and me wanting them to die)
>Air vent goes on
>Want to break the ice
>Are we being gassed?
>Awkward silence
>BABY YOU SPIN ME RIGHT ROUND LIKE A RECORD BABY
Then the next day the faggot starts going p- please don't mess with that number it's my h-houses land line
That kid was Lucky I didn't keep the number in my text history

>>35111417
Only way to move on is to have more/better experiences.
Even if you die alone, it's still better to have tried

>>35111457
Yeah its just that I feel so miserable that going out and doing things feels dull and pointless. Not only because of her but in general.

I'm trying, though.

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>>35111513
Everything is dull and pointless to begin with

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>>35111452
>Blasted loud nigra because no one sat next to you

because you asked for it:

I rage at the Creator because clearly I was designed in some way but then sometimes it feels I'm deluded in thinking there's anything more behind this experience of "life" than the random settling of possibility yet I always return to how much I don't care yet I was born to care... made to care... and most of what is deemed success is not fulfilling to me and I just want to do great things and/or explore this mystical biosphere but both these things have been taken over by some of the strangest, petty, romanticizing, and un-virtuous freak-animals... and they're supposed to be my family but they are my dominant predator.

meanwhile, I've got gender dysphoria, voice-hearing, paranoia, dissociation/de-personalization, some un-specified identity disorder, physical depression, suicidal ideation, and some stupid ridiculous anxiety.

I don't want anything else but to live my life but I guess that means in-and-out of mental health facilities and carrying damaged goods.

>>35111376
stop thinking like an animal and start living like a soul... you'll filter out all the animals and find a soul but if not then you have your time to die for

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I fucking hate being alone. For all the friends I've made and all the people I've met, no woman has ever presented herself as interested in me in any way shape or form that was recognizable to me. Granted, when it comes to girls I am basically brain dead retarded, but the irony is that without one of them showing me what a signal is I'll never pick up on it. I'm almost 20 with no love or intimacy in sight.

The saddest part is, all my friends from club are all in the same boat. Half of them are virgin losers like myself. We're all really nice guys, we've never once turned girls away from our club, we've always been as nice as possible and encouraged them to stay, but we're hopeless cases it seems. The guys who do have girlfriends all seem to have issues, one guy basically has a psycho on his hands. It's so sad that all of us nice guys who are really just looking for some friends to play Super Smash Bros with are stricken with eternal loneliness. No female has crossed our paths and made us feel wanted.

I've taken the black pill and given up pretty much. I can't attract women or be more than a cute little puppy to play with in the store before it's placed in the cage again. No girl will ever come into the store and take me home. I'm doomed to a life of jerking off to 2D and 3D lewds and porn while self inserting as harem protagonists while nurturing a subtle hatred for myself and my own failures as a guy.

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I want to kill myself.

It's not as if I've fallen under some depression, and the pain made me want to die. Even if I felt good, even when I feel good, I'm consumed with the desire to slit my wrists or shoot myself.

Why the fuck was I born, pham

>>35112419
chained to experience....
i know dat phil

>>35112353
unfortunately, in this world, liking a "cute" boy (his personality... his demeanor) is an exception.

it's not very talked about (in culture), but girls/women of our advanced societies want to open their legs for cock more than their hand for a hand. and they also want to be comfortable.

>>35110906
>we have to encourage a return to simply "letting things off your chest".

What are you, new? Oldfags don't do this. 4chan is not a confessional booth. You believing this bullshit is the problem. You let things off your chest with your friends, and troll the trolls on here. Le fin.

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Got hired on to be a security guard last week. I've been training for two days, and still have two more days of training left. When I was hired, the regional manager told me I would be taking over full shifts from another security guard, because said guard wanted to move to part time to spend more time with his family.

As it turns out, I'm actually taking this guys job. I didn't find this out until the end of today's training. I guess the guy I'm replacing found at as well, and he will be the one training me on my last two days. I have to spend two 12-hour shifts with the guy I'm replacing, and I have no idea how he's going to handle it. I feel like a dick, but hey, I need the money

I hate how my brain makes a way bigger deal over things than they are, and it's completely involuntary. Interacting with anyone under any circumstance feels way more personal than it should, driving anywhere feels like some adventure even though it's to the grocery store, my own brain is patronizing me.

I know I have to meet a lot of people to be successful, and even just for friendship reasons, but I'm too depressed, jaded, and unfeeling to converse. If I try I'll be monotone and static. I just want to die.

I've never been good at something. Average, maybe. Not good. I blended in with the crowd my whole life. Directionless. Aimless. No real drive, no desire for anything. Did the same thing every single day for years.
I don't change. Nothing changes. Every day is the same endless loop of mediocrity. I wasted every opportunity I was given. I don't even know why I'm still alive.

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>>35110906
I just lost my fiancee. We had been together for 7 years and gotten engaged recently. I'll green text the happenings.
>We met in high school
>We were both in love with each other as soon as we talked for the first time
>For the last 7 years we rarely ever fought over anything other than useless politics or where to eat and I never treated her like shit
>Never hit her. Never yelled at her. Never cheated on her.
>We had great chemistry when we talked and the love making was great
>We get engaged on Valentine's day
>Everything keeps going the way it has been: amazing
>Fast forward to a few days ago
>We have an argument through text over something pointless
>All good a normal debate
>After this debate she does something unexpected. Asks for "some space"
>Don't message her for 3 days
>She went to see her friends
>They were helping her make the decision to leave me
>While there she calls me
>Says she loved me in HS but stopped loving me after a couple of years
>She says she only said yes to the engagement to make me happy
>Says I don't make her happy anymore
>She doesn't want to see me for a long time, says we can possibly be friends in the future
>Ask if she even wanted a relationship at all and why she lied to me
>She said she wanted to make me happy, but she wasn't happy
>Only stayed because she was worried about me doing something stupid if we broke up
>Says she never wanted to get married and doesn't see herself wanting a relationship with anyone for the rest of her life
>Has deleted me off all IM apps such as Discord so now I don't know when it's okay to talk to her again
She was my first girlfriend, we stayed together for 7 years. Should I just give up or play it cool and wait to see if she will change her mind? I'm not the type of guy who will probably ever get a girl like that again. And the scariest part was it didn't even seem like it was that hard for her to drop me, while I could barely speak from crying so hard. Kill me.

A lil back story...Stopped talking to a girl I was madly in love with a few weeks ago. We were really close and hooked up before. I was into her a lot more than she was and I kinda got obsessed with her so I needed to get away from her. She didn't take it well when I told her to fuck off. She blocked me on all social media.

But tonight she took a video of herself making out with some chick using my best friends snapchat. I feel like she definitely did that so I would see it, makes me feel weird. I've been doing my best to move on from her

>grow up ugly
>boys ask me out as a joke
>at 19-20, suddenly drop a bunch of weight and grow into my features
>still no bf
>see guys pine over and ask out and date girls who are objectively uglier, stupider, and worse people than I am
>don't even get catcalled
>can't ever be in a relationship now out of pure spite
>all my friends have boyfriends or go on dates with guys or get asked out regularly

I hate everyone

>>35114715
Exactly 2 possibilities:
1.
>She never loved you to begin with
>Everything she told you is true
2.
>Her friends hate you
>They convinced her to leave you

As much as women are able to change their mind in a heartbeat, they are even more concerned with how other women think about them. If her freinds tell her that she actually didn't love you after all, she will rationalize it to herself so she can accept their advice.

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>>35114715
>only stayed because she was worried about me doing something stupid if we broke up
I think it's time for you to do something stupid, if you know what I mean.

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>>35110906
I hate that I can't stop thinking about her.

I just want to go to sleep, it's unhealthy for me to be up like this. Yet I keep thinking about her. Not even in a romantic way anymore, that ship sailed a long time ago if it ever docked at all. I just can't stop analyzing her posts, her movements, speech patterns and shit. It's a reflex. I'm addicted to her.

I'm glad she turned me into a relative normie (despite my overwhelming virginity), but I just want to stop caring about her shit. I don't care about my other friends' shit all the fucking day, yet every time I see her I'm looking at her wih fucking retard eyes trying to see what she's doing.

This is the power of oneitis.

>>35115021
>nose ring
>negro lips
yuck

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Should I burn my building down?

Went down south for work, figuring I could try out traveling. No friends or anybody where I live, so screw it, let's go on the road where I know nobody down in Georgia as well. Maybe have some fun.

12-hour/7days a week was expected, but it's been a constant downpour of stupid tedious shit inbetween robbing me of any freetime.

Shitty hotel service selling off my reserved room, another guy getting busted for drugs forcing me out of another/risking my job, tire rim-getting bent first day, wallet ran over scattering shit everywhere (my fault, was pumping gas and preoccupied with making 40+ phone calls trying to see who could transfer my training certs from the past site I worked at (they couldn't)), getting screwed out of multiple timeslots/positions because I know no one, and gaining effectively zero on-the-job experience I most wanted out of this doing pencil pushing shit.

Was at least looking forward to the weekish break at the end of this shit show, hoping to visit some parks, lakes, and maybe mountains for some photography and decompression. Lo' and behold, on the day scheduled to leave, I find my $1800 in camera equipment missing from my car.

Then found out that the back-rear door lock broke at some point that week, in that it goes down but doesn't latch for whatever fucking reason.

Cue hotel guys telling me in broken english that their cameras don't actually work, and police reports and numerous pawn shops telling me I'm shit out of luck.

Fuckers didn't even have the decency to take out the sd card full of my little bros pics I was planning on touching up in photoshop to impress him while I was away.

Don't even want to go out or do anything. Just want to end it. It's all so tiresome.

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>>35114715
Fuck me women are so cruel...

>>35115319
Hard times make hard men anon you are living your own odyssey

>>35110906
I don't think I can keep going on.

I signed up for multiple college courses, I tried to be social and talk to people and fill my days up with positive things and think happy thoughts, but every time I end up back here, lonely and full of sadness.

I can't hold onto more than a couple friends and I don't know how to act around the friends I do have. I just wait for them to talk to me otherwise it feels like I'm being annoying to them. Maybe twice a month my female friend will hit me up and we'll go smoke weed somewhere and I'll feel like like is good again but then a couple days later it's back to normal again.

I have a female lab partner too and she always seems really interested in me but we never text outside of class so as much as we talk during college it's never going anywhere.

My ex is basically asexual now and I still talk to her for some reason, so I get to hear about her day all of the time and pretend like I care about it. I kind of feel like I owe her because I was an asshole after we broke up and she really wanted to stay friends because she was genuinely uncomfortable with relationship things.

I end up on the computer all day unless I'm at college, and college is less and less appealing to me, and I'm starting to want to just drop out and do nothing like I did with highschool.

Why can't I care about anything? And why am I so bad at being friends with people?

>>35114715
>Says she never wanted to get married and doesn't see herself wanting a relationship with anyone for the rest of her life

It may not make you feel better now, but this is going to bite her in the ass far harder than it will you. When you are married, or just having casual arrangements for free or at cost, no one will want to go near her. Hell, in less then twenty-five years she will start oozing that menopause smell.

You were born a man. Rejoice, and go forth.