What is the biggest feel you have? Inb4 tfw no gf, I'm talking

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>>35052712
what does a 20 yr old know about real feels

get the frick out of here you butthead

>>35052712
If I told you it just lead to more pain
But I'll never forget the day
July 11,2015
Never forgive
Never forget

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>>35052712
I'm a 25 year old college drop-out, a USMC veteran, have a violent criminal history, and in addition to an abundance of other mental illnesses I'm an exclusive necrophile.

I can live with getting kicked out of the military for being too mentally ill to serve.

I can understand dropping out of school and ruining perfect grades because I was so sick that I couldn't even handle community college for more than a year.

I can tolerate never working at a job for more than a year because of my paranoia, difficulty with others and the constant mental anguish that's only worsened by being in public.

I can handle spending 9 fucking years trying to get competent mental health support from countless psychologists, psychiatrists, social workers, therapists, forensic specialists, etc. I can stomach all of the medication I've tried and suffered through to get to where I'm at now.

I'm actually, really, honest to God in the best place I've ever been in my entire life. I finally got a good job that I can tolerate, I've had therapy and meds for my OCD and bipolar disorder, I've busted my ass to be independent all these years and not stop working for a second on improving myself.

I need two posts for the feel, the main feel:

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>>35052891


No matter what I fucking do, I will never be able to get rid of my sexuality. No matter where I go, I will never be able to escape from the constant, intense physical and emotional craving for something that is considered taboo at best and unforgivable and revolting at worst. Even though I have people in my life who support me, if I were to approach them and ask them to help me act on these feelings, they would be HORRIFIED and want nothing to do with me. Even roleplaying disgusts and turns off anyone I've ever tried it with. I can't go to funerals. I couldn't even go to my little brother's funeral when he passed away because I was so scared of how I would react to his body. I can't even visit him. I can't go to cemeteries period with good intentions. I can't watch violent movies with friends or turn on the news or listen to my coworkers talk about their relationships and sex lives without wanting to fucking shoot myself because I feel so disgusting. Every time I have a spare moment, I'm fantasizing about burying my hands up to my wrists in the cavity of a decaying corpse and making love to it. I am fucking obsessed, I am medicated up to my eyeballs, I have tried chemical castration and nofap and every other fetish under the sun with absolutely no results other than my attraction worsening over time.

I'm not a danger to anyone. I have had ample opportunity to act on these feelings, and if I really wanted to I could go out any time and get myself laid. If I really, really wanted to throw away my entire life and everything I've dealt with just to get off.

Obviously I can't do that. I can't satisfy it. I can't be satisfied. I just have to fucking suffer through it, and every time I talk to someone it's always there at the forefront of my mind: "if this person knew what I really want to live for, how would they actually feel about me?"

I could fucking go on and on but I think you get the fucking point.

>>35052712

Work hard on your life now anon because the man child feeling gets much worse.

-27 year old oldbot

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>>35052976
here you go you may have seen this.

>>35053304
I own it on bluray but thank you

>>35053350
hahaha just thought i would help a brother out.
I appreciate the reply.

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>>35052712

Chads giving advice like
>Just be yourself
Yeah, cause bitches are going to love a fucking 20 year old manchild whose only hobby is playing with legos.

>tfw no gf is not a real feel
Parents divorced when I was 2. Had dysfunctional families ever since. I've lived for years with people who don't even talk to me out of spite. Never had any real friends so I've resorted to alcoholism and drugs, which dry out what little money I have. I can spend weeks in which I only go outside of my bedroom to shit and eat.
But none of that shit even matters. It doesn't even hurt. It doesn't even feel. All I dream about is falling in love. Tfw no gf is the only feel that hurts.

That I'm in my mid 20s and I am honestly not good at anything and I don't even know why I bother living anymore. I will never have a good job, life, and I will never get married.
I haven't had a friends since like the 4th grade and my only companions are animals. I don't even know how to talk to people anymore and no one likes me because I'm boring and uninteresting.

The love of my life currently lives 2000 km away and is dating a guy that literally looks like the nostalgia critic
Not that does not fall under the tfw no gf category

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>>35052712
>inb4 tfw no gf
2/6 posts in the thread are tfw no gf before it dies

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>>35052712
I am actually very close to know this feel.

Hope you get to figure yourself out soon, OP.