question for robot brothers.

I've never been really happy.
I've always been edgy and full of rage and sadness. It's not that I never had reasons to be happy, but when I did I still chose to be depressed.

I look back sometimes and think about what life was like when i was a kid. So innocent, never had to worry about money, had friends, played sports on weekends, not a care in the world.

Now, i just take life as it comes, and so far, it hasn't improved or gotten any worse. I have a feeling this year may be the year i make my comeback and achieve my goals, but I know that may not happen, my brain won't allow it. My brain is all scrambled, hard to think straight. Have to be calm and collected all day to make myself appear to be a normie, be among them, camouflage myself

I just want things to work out and not have to worry as much

>>35043371
>when you were happy
I was like this even as a kid. I never had a chance.

i've been miserable for too long to care about happy times in my past.

the past does not matter TEEHEEEHEEE

>>35043567
>>35043418
When I was younger, my parents and I would go on crazy long vacations all over the world.
I've been in nearly every European country.

>Then, a lot of conflicts happened,don't need to explain, we immigrated to North America when I was 14ish.
Dad used to be pretty damn well-paid.
He got stiffed by some Jew faggot and since then we were getting by, until I moved out and now live on welfare solely.
>at school bullied for rusfag accent
>would constantly get beaten up to the point where I actually learned to fight.
fast forward a decade-ish
>no money, nothing.
>now i just fap and browse 4chan 24/7
>mfw how can life get so bad from being so good.

>>35043673
I also went on long trips with my dad. Ended up never wanting to travel again.

Probably because my parents were divorced and his wife is a pain in the ass, cause I can see why travelling with both parents could be fun.

>>35043707
>Parents always happy, never had any conflicts.
>probably because we never encouraged divorces n 'shiiieeet.

>now whenever i visit parents are depressed, dad drinks and smokes to the point where i'm scared he's going to get lung-cancer/liver-failure.
>cry to sleep regularly

Ever since school finished everything just seems pointless i do nothing and i hate thinking about what i used to be like im a mere shadow of what i was