Anybody else got the problem where you're so afraid of people

Yup. I'm a terrible person, as in I give no sympathy to poor people and beggars (I'm poor too) because we all have free will to better ourselves through education at the very least. Also, I am into using and mixing drugs as a hobby but wtf everyone will think I'm a freak if I randomly start speaking about drugs. I watch the same shows over and over, listen to the same music everyday, and I'm into my schoolwork so I just stick with that to talk with my classmates in college. Only my close friends I am more open and joke around with and act freely because they are similar to me.

>>34999556
I do the same, i once tried to share a little bit of myself with some guy but he was too normal to understand me...it was fun because one day he told me that we were friends, but then i told him that i didn't consider him a friend, i laughed internally while he tried to dealt with the confusion and sorrow caused by my simple words.

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>>34999556
>tfw I don't know who I am
>tfw I have no hobbies or interests
>tfw I don't feel human so there's nothing to hide

A vast majority of the time that I do "try" a feeling of anger comes over me as I associate random persons ambiguity as contempt.

I build a whole world of war in my head.

>>34999556
I go through phases of this.

I drink heavily to counter it.

I do this and it's why I can't make any real friends, but the real me is a depressing and miserable piece of shit so it's not like anything otherwise would happen.

Yes but I purposely keep my shell to a thin veil so I can repel

>>34999556
>I never get into deeper conversation with people because I'm afraid my autistic interests may scare them off.

You're slitting your own throat, anon. Those people you're talking to probably have interesting things to say if you would just get beyond the banal with them.

>>35000144
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To think I used to feel vibrant and thoughtful. It's not just a delusional memory, it actually happened- I actually felt like someone at some point. I think I would be okay with being who I am right now if it wasn't accompanied with a vague sense of loss