i'm not sure if i am a sociopathic fraud who does everything create a personality or i am just really self aware of the social mechanisms everyone has. either way, does anyone else on r9k feel completely fake at their core? even my so called depression is mostly an act i feel like.
I know that feel all too well, have you looked into schizoid personality disorder?
>>34964923
I recognize the feeling. I eventually figured out that personality isn't something you're born with, it's something you choose yourself. If you want to be a bad-ass you can wake up tomorrow and just be one. Play pretend in real life, it's what everyone else does.
Personality is a lie.
>>34964923
Beginning to think its the 2nd one people are so quick to go off faulty information.. its amazing. I could be feeding you complete bullshit just to see how you react and you can't even tell. I also have to wonder if someone was wiling to release as much info as lets say, some social retard, what kind of fun things I could spin.
Its massively pathetic.
bump? this is really haunting me the past while. i know that's probably a sign of my not being sociopathic, but i'm afraid
>>34964923
Thiscan lead to the path of Hijak.
another thing, when i am receptive or nice to people, i may actually like them, but my responses are not intuitive. i register that i like someone's presence so i fake a friendly persona towards them. i am not manipulating people while i feel nothing inside it just seems so much of what i do is orchestrated and inoraganic when i expect it is automatic with other peole. maybe this is just how the mind adapts to poor social skills?
>>34965331
Those are actually excellent social skills, only they're fake. You just don't care, but don't picture that as a bad thing. It offers you a more objective approach to people, maybe a bit cold, but far from sociopathic. I can guarantee you that you worry more about your "unnatural" behavior than everyone else. As Chad would say, just be yourself brah.