How to cope with feeling worthless?

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I have become used to people hating me in school; it has been this way for a very long time. People not wanting to be with me, excluding me from their events, spending time alone between classes.

It never really bothered me, because I knew that at least I had my family to rely on.

Anyway, I made this thread because a couple hours ago, over some stupid, trivial shit, I had an argument with my dad. Things got a bit out of control, until he snapped and told me he hates me. That he hates people like me, because I am a piece of shit person, and hates the way I am. Then he told me to get the fuck out (we were in his business).

I went to my car and drove home. It wasn't until I got here that it hit me that my father has always hated having me as a son.
Anytime he's been mad at me, and as it always happens whenever people are influenced by anger, he tells me the same thing over and over again: that I am a piece of shit and he hates me. We get, or got, along so well, but now I think that he's always resented me being the way I am. My mother tells me the same thing when she snaps.

I feel awful right now. I feel like I've lost the only thing that made me had something. Even if we make up, I know that in my parent's eyes I am a burden.

Sorry for the blog post, but it helped me vent a bit.