>reading your old conversations with her

Used to do the same thing, it's shitty. Just delete the chat, you'll feel 100x better

>>34835480
It hurts like hell. I don't know what I said or did for her to go cold on my ass. She was the only one that cared for me and told me nice things.

I just want to forget her...

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It's incredible seeing the changes that subtly took place over the last 6 years since falling in love with her. I still love her deeply and I wish to fuck that she'd come back, but deep down I realize that she's no longer the sweet, innocent nerdy girl I met in anime club in high school.

Still fucking painful to see all the "I LOOOOOOVE YOU ^_^"s that we'd send each other. I'm going to delete it all soon, as soon as I grow the balls to.

I think the reason I don't is that a small sliver of me thinks she'll come back (though I know she won't) and those chats would be so meaningful to have.

I keep her letter in the back of a safe. I still think about her everyday.

>>34835693
I deleted the chat (not OP)
DIdn't feel better at all
Nothing will make you feel better

>>34835875
>>34835693

In regards to letters, she wrote me a lot. She had really nice handwriting. So pretty, like her. I regret this NOW, but I think it's helping a lot with healing; about 4 months ago I boxed up every letter she ever sent me, along with this pink heart stone (a Valentines Day gift from 2 years ago, supposed to represent her heart) and sent them all back to her. Not sure why I did it, really.

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I didn't need this thread at all.

>>34836082

Why not, anon? Does it hurt? We all hurt. So at least we have each other.

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>>34835480
I can't do that, thankfully

I don't even think yahoo IM is a thing anymore

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>>34835480
What's your favorite one anon? What was her name?

>she sent me a blogpost she wrote a month or two after we broke up, telling me "you might be interested to read this"
>ignore it just like every other text she sent me during that time
>four years pass
>remember that message
>search back through text history, find the link
>click it
>it's still live
>it starts off right away about how much she misses me
>can't even get through the first paragraph
>she's living in new york now with the guy she left me for
>we were supposed to move there together
It's been four years. I've had other long term relationships and been in love with other people, but for whatever reason I just can't fucking forget her. We still talk once in awhile. I have this really bad feeling that I'll always have a piece of her that I can just never get rid of. I've kind of come to terms with it.

One day I'll go back and read the rest of that post. It just hurts.

>>34836373
Care to link it? I could use some feels right now.

>>34836408
I would, but I honestly don't think I could even go back to the page.

Why can't I let go bros?

>>34835480
>reading the old funny texts with my only best friend who ghosted me

>>34836373
How do you meet people anon? It's taken me nearly 20 years and I've only found one person I genuinely cared about, and for logistical reasons that didn't even last a month..

>>34836227
Any moar of that girl?

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>>34835480
>not deleting every single conversation you had with her when cutting contact
I always get rid of ALL possible mentions of the girl in my life in order to forget about her and cut her off completely from my life like the cancer she is.

>>34836479
I met her during my senior year of college. It's been much harder to meet new people since then - moved to a new city, got a big boy job, started getting massive hangovers, etc. The one major relationship I've had since then was with a girl I met on a dating app. I loved her, but just not the same way I guess. Idk. I've been on a bunch of dates with other girls who I met through mutual friends, get togethers, or Tinder, but I haven't really clicked with any of them. I'm terrified I'm never going to find something like what I had with her again.

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I was going to visit her. I was going to tell her my feelings for her.

>>34836568
Damn dude. That sucks. I'm sorry.

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>>34836560
You wont. Best to just start jerking it to the thought of her getting plowed by her NY Chad. Hey at least you'll get good cummies.

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>>34836560
Do you have your tinder geared towards hookups and it just turns out you find someone you like out of that or is there some genuine personality on the profile?
Recommended dating sites / apps ? ;'(

>>34836612
The fucking lame part is the dude isn't even a chad. He was her beta roommate who had been in love with her for awhile (he'd actually cry about it to her before we broke up) and acted as "her rock" when she and I were going through a rough time after graduation. We had broken up and gotten back together once already, and then we were talking about possibly breaking up again when she depression fucked up to try to forget about me. She's a very attachment based person so the fact that she had gone to him to talk before AND slept with him at that point was enough for her to develop feelings for him, and when she told me that I basically told her to fuck off. And she's terrified of being alone so she's stayed with him ever since. It's a stupid fucking situation.

>>34836661
Not particularly. I'm not a hookup type of guy, I definitely prefer and enjoy getting to know people and developing relationships. I try to have some personality in there but I'm definitely no chad so I'm not like rolling in the matches or anything.

The app I used to meet my last long term ex was called Hinge, but that one has since crashed and burned and is fucking horrible now. I used Bumble for a bit but honest didn't have much luck with it. Tinder sucks, but it's really the best one to get results from, at least for me. Even that hasn't been all that great for me lately, though.

>>34835480

>has spoken to a girl

Get out normie

>>34835480
I deleted them. No regrets.

I'm glad I changed phones so often, I still get panic attacks from the histrionic concentrated autism I used to spew at girls I barely knew

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>>34836744
Cheers anon, I'm with you on the getting to know people etc.. It just feels awkward using tinder and swiping girls that are only on there for hookups, bleh

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>>34835480
I post my conversations with exes here relatively often.

Decided to go for a deep cut here. I actually really liked this girl but we never were able to talk thanks to distance/time.

This makes me really fucking sad honestly.

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>>34836854
AAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

god my feels, being sought after, that's a feel I miss ;''''9((((

>>34835480
That's why I delete them because there's no point in keeping them if I am the only one who still cares. But I'd be damn if that shit still doesn't hurt.

>>34836898
It fucking burns right?

>>34836604
I've been meaning to post that for a while along with my response. I'll probably do it either tomorrow on the weekend. It's late and I have tests and shit this week.

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>this thread

please make it stop

>>34837160
You should take the trip anyway. Just do it for yourself.

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I deleted it all and cut off all contact. It hurts for about a year, but then you'll get over it. Trust me anons.

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>>34836373
>>34836408
Welp, couldn't resist the curiosity. I'm going back through our conversations now and I'll post the moments that make my heart hurt the most. This one's from the period about a year after we broke up where we reconnected and seriously considered getting back together for a bit.

Obviously it didn't happen.

>>34837180
If I ever go there, I'll message her again and see if she still wants to see me. I think she'll at least want to meet up for a little bit. I just don't want to go for no reason. I'll post again and talk about it more later.

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>Chased them for a year while they were taken
>Was a complete beta but still came close to a chance
>Dropped contact for a couple years
>Met them again last week, socially chad now so ask them out to coffee
>Hit it off, I feel chemistry
>They mentiob they're taken
FUUUUUCK
MY FEELINGS ARE UNEARTHED JUST FOR THIS

>>34837287
this was a really fucking bad idea

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>>34837383
god damn it

forgot the pic

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>>34837390
>had sex

GET THE FUCK OUT YOU FUCKING NORMIE

>>34837400
You're probably in the wrong thread tbqhf but all robots are welcome..

>>34837400
that was a long time ago anon

we're all brothers here, in the feels

>>34837414
>all robots
>had sex

this isn't /soc/

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>>34837390
>i will never ever have this again
holy fuck...

just fucking kill me guys

>>34837427
I lost my V card on holiday, but I've still got no friends and no prospects of meeting any girls and I dont consider myself to be especially outgoing - I feel like I belong here, there's no middle ground between wizards of 4chan and the emotionless cunts over on /b/, this is the closest you can get.
>>34837456
STOPPPPPPPPPPPPP

I don't see why you retards to this to yourselves. It's like continuing to eat that shitty fish that went bad a month ago.

>>34835480
I want to delete my ex's texts but what's the point when I still have memories of fucking her? I wake up and go to sleep thinking about her

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>>34837456
You'll never have that again. Do you play with your wee wee thinking of all the guys she's fucked on the beach since meeting you? I know I am already.

>>34837504

Nostalgia was considered a mental illness up until about 100 years ago. Not saying it is, but people really like to torture themselves with memories for some weird reason.

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>>34837456
i am fucking dead inside

>>34837532
It's not torture, we/they enjoy doing it - remembering happier times.
The torture comes when you compare it to your current state, assuming it's worse..

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>>34837614
i don't think i can do this much longer

>>34837781
stop reading them, man. it's just going to get worse

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>>34837390
I legit cannot relate to.you at all but my last vestiges of humanity are happy for.you, even if you only got to experience these things just for a moment. I do.hope there is somebody else out there you can find and share these experiences again. If you do find such a person, please come back here and post about it. I'll be waiting deligentily for your returned happiness my friend.

>>34837781
Keep reading em my dude. It makes me feelike a human again. Got my bottle of shit wine at the ready.

>>34837781
>that was me flirting kill me
Golly, suicide looks more and more like an option every second

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>>34837919
Thank you anon. I think I'm too fargone at this point but I hope I'm wrong. I look back on these messages and it feels like they were sent by a completely different person... I just feel so fucking dead now.

>>34837932
I can't stop now. I'm in too fucking deep.

>>34837781
fuck this is really hitting home for me. how long ago was this?

>>34837989
these look like messages from anons youth, I'd guess 2-4 years ago

>>34837989
These messages are all from january 2015. It was right after I visited new york for NYE 2014 to see some friends and we ended up spending the whole night together. This was about two years after we broke up. I'll never fucking forget that night...

>tfw reading nothing
feels pretty good desu
sage

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>>34838028
This was the morning after that night...

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>you realize it wasn't that great

>this entire thread
I didn't want to feel tonight

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I used to have a voicemail she left me. Being able to hear her voice was both sad and pleasant. Other than that I have some fun roleplaying chats and some pictures.

I wish she would have explained why she was going to stop talking to me. I wonder if she's OK, I wonder if losing contact was just an accident; one day her phone disconnected and she disappeared.

I wish I could have said goodbye

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>>34838046
Fuck man. I'm getting closer to the period where we didn't talk at all now. Soon i'll be back in the height of our relationship. I don't know if I can handle this.

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>>34838120
Back when i thought we were actually going to get back together

>tfw deleted her chat.
>tfw deleted her number.
>tfw stop talking to her all together.
>tfw forced to see her every day.

The ride never ends boiz.

>>34838197
Thread seems kinda dead so if no one's left to feel with me I don't think I'm going to dig into our actual relationship. The stuff I've already read has been traumatizing enough

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>>34835480
> mfw looking back on old convo when i suddenly look at the date of messages
>tfw it was 2 years ago
>2 FUCKING YEARS ALREADY

I cant keep going on like this.

>>34838292
go on and share anon i need some feelz

>>34835569
delete the app/program/account altogether

seriously there's no point unless you know them irl. eventually you'll be replaced with actual people.

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>>34838292
Nah I'm here mane, I just got side tracked looking for this girl's tits. Gotta have something to keeping me going. Where do you think it went wrong between you two. What made.her different the. The other's.

>>34838364
Them move on dipshit.

>>34838390
We were planning to move to New York together after we graduated. She wanted to try the broadway thing and I wanted to work in film. My senior thesis film won some award and I got to go on a free trip to LA right after I graduated, and I realized I wasn't going to have any chance to make it the way I wanted to if I didn't give LA a shot. It all crumbled from there. Four years later and I'm still here in LA wondering what would have happened if I chose differently.

>>34838375
Alright I'll keep digging. Can't guarantee I'll find anything else really feels worthy, as everything from here on out will be from the heights of our relationship.

>>34837532
I prefer to enjoy nostalgia about people that didn't end up hurting me. Anything else is pointless.

>reading your break up text
>and then feeling like a piece of shit

>not having any conversations to read

>>34838486
>breakup
>implying

Wew

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>>34838471
Turns out we didn't talk much on FB messenger during our relationship. The archive jumped right up to when I first gave her my number. Won't be much left now...

>>34836082
That pic fucking killed me

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>>34838548
God fucking damn it. I remember all these moments so vividly. It seriously feels like it was just yesterday.

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>>34838595
i can't feel anything anymore

whats even the point

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stop this thread already, it's breaking me.

>>34838650
No point at all. I just sliced up my shit right now. Going to jerk to cuck porn in a minute. No there is no redepemdtion.

>>34836449
lol fake and gay orignalol

>>34835480
At least you had a "her" you fucking normie

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>>34838650
this is honestly killing me

>>34836568
moar plox orinianglo

>>34836568
Wow. That sucks. Is she Japanese?

i deleted them

oh Annou, you were the sweetest thing
should have married you

ldr ex broke up with me 2 weeks ago, i was a KHV before her and i loved her, never had feelings for another person before, never had "crushes", she was out of my league too

Still i am giving less of a fuck than i thought i would, i am aware that i was really happy with her, everything was rainbows and i doubt i will feel that way again with another person, i would accept her back in a heartbeat if she wanted, still i kind of accepted it and don't think much about it, I'm having no trouble keeping no contact, saved all our texting history, pics together, etc, just for archiving purposes, i don't look at them, just the nudes when I want to fap

its hell when i wake up after dreaming about her though

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>>34835480
Pic related. It's for your own good.

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>>34838730
almost over

almost over

>tfw you used to be like OP and now you could wipe your ass with her stupid fucking chatlogs and feel nothing for her

It gets better OP

Your brain's playing tricks on you nigga

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>>34838786
Fuck me. I can still feel these fucking moments. Every single one.

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>>34838854
when she and her boyfriend before me broke up. we still hardly knew each other at this point. finding out they weren't together anymore was the best thing i had heard all day.

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>>34838908
And this is the beginning. I remember this moment so well. I had a huge crush on her but I was too scared to start a convo so my roommate who was friends with her sent her some lie about me to prompt me to message her and tell her it wasn't true.

Going back through these has been surreal as fuck. Like something out of Eternal Sunshine. I feel so empty.

>>34838471
Are you at least working in the film industry?

>>34838947
This was heartbreaking to read myman.