SELF-HATE thread

>>34815295
I don't think it's necessarily rational to hate myself, I just feel it.
Rather, I feel everyone hates me. That i'm not good enough. They won't like me. No one wants me. I guess that's insecurity and low self esteem rather than hating myself. But they're pretty similar.

>>34815316
>That i'm not good enough
This sounds familiar desu senpai

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I hate myself for being born wrong
>Unattractive face
>5'7"
I hate every physical fiber of my being because nothing I can do can change it without some horrible surgery.

Realizing that no girl will ever find me attractive over the last 2 years at uni is what made me this way. Also /r9k/ to some degree.

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>>34815295
>if you can't hate yourself how the fuck you gonna hate somebody else

>>34815316
the feels are probably not random.
you need someone to take care of you anon.

>>34815455
but i'm a boy, and NOT A FAGGOT

>>34815509
You kinda sound like both tbqhfam

>>34815509
too bad anon.
i would have taken care of you real good, if just you were a cute little trap

i hate myself because i somehow look not too bad.
but my social skills are fucking crap.
why does social skills matter so much?

>>34815295
>>why do you hate yourself?

Because I managed to fuck my life for being a pussy. I could have a normie life if I wasn't so afraid of everything. And now I'm paying the price for running away from everything.

>>how much do hate yourself?

To a great extent. I'm the person that I hate more in this world.

>>what made you that way?
observing others' lives and comparing them to mine. And by knowing that I'm the to blame for all my mistakes.

I fucking hate myself

>>34815539
>why does social skills matter so much?
Social """skills""" are not real skills, but just a characteristic of your personality. Thus, thry cannot be learned like other skills, but only developed through nurture and lifetime of social interaction.

>>34815295
>why do you hate yourself?
My looks, just simply not being normal and having failed at everything
>how much do hate yourself?
A lot
>what made you that way?
Just years of guilt and self loathing

I hate myself because I was never enough for her. I can't seem to let her go even though she flat out told me she was over me. I've gone back to having nobody in my life and it makes me feel that there's something horribly wrong with me.

>>34815295

I hate myself so much I'm considering lifting just to change the way I look because I hate my skeletal figure.

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>why do you hate yourself?
I'm a defective human being, a true failure that shouldn't have been born. I have zero potential for any kind of success.

>how much do hate yourself?
So much I want to kill myself.

>what made you that way?
My birth.

>no ambition
>lazy
>no self confidence
>waste of pretty good genetics
>not a bad looking guy but I don't try so I'm a virgin

>>34815295
>tranny with possible eating disorder
>I've been going to school for the going on 4 years, and in that time I'm only just now getting my associate's to transfer to a regular college.
>I can't think about the future without being hit by waves of stress and feelings of loss.
>I don't want to do anything except drown myself in escapism every day because I know I'll never be comfortable enough with myself to be happy, and I'll never have the motivation that most people seem to have to live a somewhat full life.
>I need to get a job, so I can afford basic shit like hormones, hair removal, and books/video games for the times I actually find them fun, but people scare me. New situations and new environments scare me. Leaving the house is often scary and/or stressful for me. I wish people could ignore that I exist or that I could just disappear from my body.
>Started self-harming because the pain is a welcome distraction from the thing inside me that's been draining all the emotion from me, and I like the sight of blood and markings on skin on my thigh that was once flawless.
>I'm a worthless failure, and a disappointing only child who'll never amount to anything worthwhile. I wish my parents had a normal kid who could be well adjusted, get a good job, and fall in love and give them grandkids. Instead they get an edgy degenerate who thinks about suicide with growing frequency.

>>34817419
This. I have absolutely no desire to do anything and I'm a lazy disgusting piece of shit. Girls tell me I'm cute though, but I don't care, it doesn't help.

>>34817527
I posted my face on the normie board the other day and I got a bunch of people rating me 7.5-9/10

I don't know if it's just my depression talking but I have no clue what they're talking about, I'm awful

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>>34817419
>>34817527
>not a bad looking guy
>girls tell me im cute
Now, I'm sure both of you are terrific people in your own special ways, but you need to leave.

Really, don't make this any harder than it has to be.

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>>34815295
>no ambition
>lazy
>given up on meeting most societal expectations (increasingly higher salary, having a gf at the very least even if you weren't going to have children, having friends, finding a "purpose" etc.)
>scared of stepping out of my comfort zone
>completely disposable
It'd be abnormal to not hate worthless shit like me. It's not like I had a poor upbringing so the fault has to all be on me.

>why do you hate yourself?
My hair extemely thin and disgusting from scalp folliculitis. I'm Asian.
>how much do hate yourself?
I have no self-esteem and I don't like looking in the mirror.
>what made you that way?
Not sleeping and showering enough at college.

>>34817607
but wouldn't a good looking person who can't get laid and has no friends be the ultimate robot?

See post No.34817890.
Same boat.
Also look like a school-shooter, deathly cynical.

There are too many normalfags on /r9k/ that even a thread like this barely gets any replies.

>short
>retarded
>violent

>a lot

>i was born a retard except the wrong kind of retard so i don't have an 'excuse' to fail as far as anyone else is concerned

I'm really insecure about my income and lack of technical skills. The reason this kills me so much is because it's what really cements me solidly in the loser category. I mean, sure I have hardly any social life and can't get laid, but it's not like I have a ton of friends banging hotties to compare myself to. I mostly travel in incel circles so my singleness and apparent unattractiveness don't bother me as much as they would otherwise.

But making shit money, I have a hard time with that. I feel like my career is the one thing in life I "should" have together, based on my grades when I was younger and whatnot. I never expected to be a lady's man, but I did expect to at least make enough money, and it sucks that hasn't happened yet. I go through the same pattern over and over again, I'll pick up a few clients, my income will get on a roll, I'll think "I'm finally moving up!" and then bam! out of nowhere, a few of them will stop using me and I'm back to making 2000 a month all over again.

super skinny and short. really awkward around women. my parents know how much of a loser I am. thinking about ending today actually because the last person that I was living for is probably about to leave me just like everyone else. I would livestream it but my method isn't one from home.

>>34819294
It's unreasonable to expect a close correlation between how well you did in school and how much money you earn. Aren't you putting unnecessary pressure on yourself by doing so?

I hate myself because I can't bring myself to talk to girls. I wish I could just give up on the whole dating game and enjoy my loneliness but I have this invisible pull to have a family.

>>34815898
Your feel is known to me

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I'm not sure if I do.

>>34815295
I just feel like I'm not living up to my true potential. I'm a plumber and I make good money, but I just feel like I could have done something better, even though I know the job market is fucked for college grads that aren't in things like engineering and the like. Also I constantly feel like I'm at odds against everyone and if I don't prove myself to be 110% competent at whatever I feel like I'm some kind of rampant failure (having been told I'm a failure numerous times throughout my teen years probably didn't help a bit). I don't really care much for societal expectations, as I know having a relationship will bring about an unnecessary amount of stress and grief that in the end won't be worth it, I hate children and do not want any (also I'm pretty sure I'd be a very shitty father, I don't have much of a patience with people even though I try to and can keep my cool), and the amount I make is enough to me though I'd like to increase it. Maybe it's just me that hates me, I don't know.


Honestly it varies from day to day. Some days I just feel blank about it, other days I stare at things like bridges and talk buildings.


My upbringing and genetics probably have something to do with it.

>>34820078
Shit I meant "tall buildings"

>>34815295
I always fuck shit up or do something stupid and everyone always jumps on me for it.

>>34815295
>Lifetime of failures and disappointments. Just consciously realizing in the last few months that I hate myself.
>Less than I used to, learning to love myself. Never going to be a battle that ends.

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So basically, >>34819789
>It's unreasonable to expect a close correlation between how well you did in school and how much money you earn
So, basically, Chad will have shit grades in school because of how many chicks hes fucking, and how much drugs hes taking and how much hes enjoying his life while Im sitting at home and breaking my back studying - and he will make more money than me in the end.

End me now.

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>>34815295
Haha, I don't even know anymore, I've hated myself for so long.
>32 yr old autist
>shitty recessive genes

I hate myself for being a faggot who is afraid of everything.

>talking to other students
>asking a girl out
>looking for a job
>driving
>my parents

I don't know how it happened. I was always shy as a child, but the older I got the worse it became as opposed to everyone else who became normal human beings.

>>34820650
iktf. And then came depression and self-harm. Now I barely feel human.

>>34815295
im an obese virgin who's addicted to porn and eating, im stupid, im probably a repressed faggot, and im a massive pussy
i cant cope with the reality of my retarded white trash existence, but i dont even have it that hard in life, it's just that im a permanent manchild who refuses to stop whining and go work with what i have
im like a nigger but worse

>>34815295
>Because I'm 32,single,unemployed and still posting on /r9k/.
>I don't hate myself as much as I used to you.
>Being socially awkward and unable to talk to females.

>>34820798
Yes, I also used to self harm when I was 18 until about 22 to punish myself.
Now I have a bunch of scars and am extremely stressed out when it's warm and I have to wear t-shirts.