Is this Menta-lillnes: The board?

>>34663485
Shut up you fucking slovenly idiot

>>34663485
>Ment-alillness

>>34663485
yep-a-roonie buck-a-roonie

>>34663485
>>34664783
>>Men-talillness

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>>34664809
>>>Me-ntalillness

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>>34664835
>>>>M-entalillness

>>34663485
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>>34664871
>>>>>-Mentalillness

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>>34664899
>my mental illness

>>34663485
this is fearful loser: the board

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>>34664871
>>>>>>>>>>>>mentalillness

heh heh ehe

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>>>/reddit/

rehe-ddiht

>>34664932
I've been thinking that the memories of writing these have been fabricated so that I write another one.

But, in my doubt, I would reveal what I was thinking about the writings. Which I would write instead.

I don't know why I keep writing these, or who would make up my memories or whether I would be doing them myself. I just feel the constant need to keep recording a black box of my confusion. Don't know why adrenaline's hitting.

I could probably just keep writing bullshit. There's no meaning behind it.

>>34665026
reh-ddiht

>>34665058
It's not like it'd be hard to fake it. All the same text over and over, no differentiation between people, almost convenient.

All the responses taking the piss out of my cave scrawlings could just be me talking to myself.

>>34665125
I guess that's probably all it is.

Why would I be doing this anyway? It makes no logical sense. Wish that would be enough to tell my fight or flight to bugger off.

Even if nothing but my thought was real, what difference would it make? It would all be simulated exactly the same way, like how your senses are supposed to work.

I wonder if that means that all of the experiences I have now have the intrinsic value of ones I would make up in my head. If it all was made up, would I be happier?

At this point I'm pretty sure I'm writing to try to do anything. With doing the same shit everyday doing something nonsensical is the only sweet breath of relief left.

>>34665244
Are you going to go bonkers?

>>34665244
I seem to be panicking, in the most biological sense. It's almost like watching myself from the outside now, desperately analyzing my own actions and chronicling them for a sense of relief as I watch my actions as if my being was a sinking ship.

Writing my thoughts down seems to be easier than trying to store them in my head just now. The mind appears so transient in any case, 99 percent of what I did here would be quickly washed out. Now it could also be stuck on the internet forever.

I wonder if I'll get banned, although I'm uncertain if I'm doing anything in particular wrong. I'm not worried anyway, I needed a good excuse for a break from this board.

And thanks to the nature of 4chan, I don't have to concern myself with the social implications either. For anyone out there actually reading this, I could be anyone posting tomorrow. Is that a weird thought? It feels weird.

>>34665334
We can only dream, me. Heh-heh, it would make sense for me to ask myself that, so I think it could advance my theory on this.

But, I really, really, hope I do. I deserve it, and everyone else does to.

Yes. This board is ripe with mental illness.

This board as a collective would make a really fascinating research project.

>>34665486
but normies are asked to get the fuck out

it'd be like running a mental disorder research institute with all the staffs having some sort of crippling mental disorder

>>34665442
>this all happened because of a typo in the OP
>"Guess it's time to visit the psychiatrist again!"
>roll eyes
>cue laugh-track

Life repeats over and over, like a broken record. Constant fucking circles, everywhere. Clinging on to life time and time again with no reason to be and no understanding of a purpose or point. Spun round in a circle again, constant work with diminishing returns, carrot dangled on a stick, no one to relate to, seven and a half thousand million eyes from every direction analyzing and criticizing every move.

What the fuck am I doing?

>>34665591
Am I imprisoning myself?

If I can only prove that my consciousness is real, and my sensory input is all the "reality" I can experience, then my "bad memory" and "damaged mental perception" could alter the universe as it is, because I am the only person that perpetuates it. It's all in me.

Working away life in pain, "mental illness" and everything else shitty or good in life would all be me. Everything would be a projection from my own head, which would contain all of the information to produce and run a universe, in some locked away part of my sub-conscious.

>tfw you objectively look like you're losing it but it all makes logical sense to you

what should i do with this

>>34665745
If I just killed myself, would the universe end?

>>34665776
Is there any point in doing anything?

>>34665776
What if you are cum?

Imagine living a life as semen.

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>>34665543
Maybe this is what we need, anon.
Like give us all an island and film it.
What would life be like without normies?

>>34665776
All the noise fades out. Calm, once more.

>>34665884
I think most would starve off and the only guy who is half competent also happens to be antisocial and he turns island into his personal cult gathering place, the one single femanon will be reserved for him only