Feel Thread

>>34654736
>FFW to HS
>She's actually in my class
>She doesn't have that shitty suit anymore
>She always wears long shirts and jeans
>Sometimes she would roll up her sleves and you could see the burnt skin
>Really distant with her for some reason
>One day we sit next to each other
>She talks to me like if we were still in primary school like all these years where we hadn't seen each other didn't exist
>I started like having a crush on her again but I wasn't sure because she was burnt and all that shit
>I heard that she was going to move out of schools
>I was a kind of sad
>FFW to my birthday
>It's on a school day
>No one beside my parents remembered it or so I thought
>End of day
>She wishes me happy birthday
>She hugged me
>MostIntenseFeelIeverFelt.Jpg
>Felt like the world stoped for a couple of second
>Start tearing up like a little bitch
>Decide to man the fuck up and ask her out
>She wasn't sure because she felt like she wasn't able to date somebody because of her
skin
>I told her I didn't give a shit about that
>We dated for a couple of months
>Best months of my life
>The day she moved out she kissed me and started crying
>So did I
>She told me how she always loved me because I was so nice and all that
>She moved out and I lost contact with her

I saw her on normiebook she's in uni now she seems okay i hope so

sorry for my bad english by the way

>>34654736
>her face burnt not burnt tho
What did he mean by this

>>34654761
It wasn't burnt sorry i'm tired

so fucking msg her on normiebook and ask to reconnect, fuck i'm 32 and havn't had a meaningful connection with a female in a decade.
fucking msg her.

>>34654739

Message her on normie book?

the past months i have stayed awake for days because i cant sleep
whenever i do sleep i wake up every few hours disoriented in panic with head aches
i lie in bed with a lump in my throat completely numb for hours before i get up in the morning
lately i have started talking to myself when i eat lunch because i am so lonely
i cant find anyone to take me seriously and i feel like everyone around me is living in a bubble gum world that i cant connect or relate to
im still young but i cant imagine living with myself much longer

Just a heads up, this is long as fuck.

>junior year of college
>had been dating my high school girlfriend to this point
>would go home every weekend to see her through freshman and sophomore year
>now I'm finally starting to feel like we're growing apart
>go home for winter break and end it
>about six months pass and I'm enjoying being single, but do want to get back into a relationship again
>meet a girl through a summer subletter at my apartment
>she's gorgeous, way out of my league, and perfectly my type
>fall for her instantly
>somehow she's into me too
>we end up dating, spending the whole summer together, have the time of my fucking life
>share our senior year of college together, it's a great time
>we're both pretty emotional people, so it's not a perfect relationship by any means
>tons of ups and downs, but overall we really love each other
>as our senior year gets closer to ending, we talk about getting a place together in NYC when we graduate, as she's an aspiring actress and I want to work in filmmaking
>I had plans to move to LA after graduation before we met, but I'm willing to sacrifice that for her
>The school year ends and we graduate
>Oh shit, the future is now
>She gets a summer acting gig performing about an hour out of town, moves in with her fellow cast members
>My senior thesis film wins an award that gets me a free trip to LA
>Before the trip, go out to her place outside of the city
>She tells me that one of her cast mates is in love with her, but that she shut him down and there's nothing to worry about
>Okay......
>Go on the LA trip and essentially learn while I'm out there that if I want to have any chance at doing what I want to do, LA is the only city to live in
>Tell gf this when I get back
>The emotional roller coaster swings to its deepest low
>For a second we break up, then she decides she's willing to try LA, then she changes her mind again
>I spend the night at her place, we just cry for hours and hours unable to sleep

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>>34655718
>The next morning, I leave the house as we decide we need to break it off for good
>Spend the next few days totally and utterly miserable
>Some of the worst feelings I've ever felt in my entire life, through multiple different break ups
>Complete and absolute loss
>Finally decide that it's not worth it, that I'd rather risk it with her than chance losing her forever
>Send her a really long text pouring my heart out, telling her that I realized that she's everything to me, that she's more important that any plans I've ever made before, that I'm willing to do NYC for her, etc etc
>She takes awhile to respond, but finally does
>She tells me how crushed she is, that she does truly love me, but when I told her my thoughts about LA she basically gave up all hope
>Since that day she'd been sleeping with her roommate who had been in love with her, who she had told me not to worry about, and that she'd be lying if she told me she didn't have feelings for him now
>Lose my fucking shit, fly off the handle at her
>I fucking knew it, I can't believe you're going to throw away all of this for one pitiful revenge fuck, etc.
>We get into a huge argument that culminates in me telling her to fuck off, that I never ever want to have a single thing to do with her again
>Completely fuck off from my college life, move back home, become seriously depressed and essentially never leave my childhood bedroom
>Live this way for about six months
>She texts me once every few weeks begging to talk to her
>I never respond
>Finally get fed up with being such an abhorrent loser
>Decide to pack up and move to LA once and for all

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>>34655735
>I send her one last text the night before I leave, basically saying that I still don't want anything to do with her, but I don't want to harbor any hatred and I want to turn the page and start a new chapter in my life
>She says she wants the same thing, and that's that
>Make my way out west
>After I get out there, here from some old college friends that she's still dating the roommate
>They moved to NYC together
>that fucking feel when
>Get out to LA and completely envelop myself in my new life
>Make new friends, get my career going, meet new people and actually become interested in dating other girls
>Finally feel like I've moved on
>About a half a year passes, making it a full year since the breakup
>Me and a group of friends are hanging out getting drunk, and decide it would be a funny joke if all three of us sat in a circle and facetimed our exes. then passed our phones to the right to confuse the fuck out of them if they answered
>We do it but I instantly pussy out and hang up because that old feeling sneaks back into my psyche
>The next day she texts me asking if I had called her on purpose
>I put the phone down, content with not responding as I'd been doing for the past year
>Think about it for a second, about the fact that I was doing much better now, had a job in my industry, am in a much better place overall
>Decide to respond
>We end up talking for a long while
>Our chemistry picks up right where it left off in the good times
>She says she's surprised at how much more positive I sound
>I tell her yeah, it's nice to be in a better place
>We even joke about her boyfriend without my heart feeling like it's about to explode
>It feels nice to talk to her as a friend without absolutely hating her because we really do get along well
>We end up talking more and more
>Conversations once every few weeks turn into conversations every day
>One night she texts me, drunk

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>>34655753
>Tells me that if she's being honest, talking to me like this is making her wonder if she made the right decision
>This was a conversation I had really hoped to stay away from, because even though I didn't want to admit this to myself, I was feeling exactly the same way
>We talk constantly now
>Our conversations become much much flirtier
>It feels the same way it did right after we'd first met two years before
>It feels good, she makes me happy
>Go back home for the holidays, my first time back east since moving to CA
>A friend of mine who lives in NYC invites me to the city for New Years Eve
>Buy a ticket and go, knowing full well that's not the actual reason I'm doing it but refusing to admit it to myself
>Get to the city, hang out with my friend a bit
>The ex and I decide to meet up that night with my friend, who's also a friend of hers, just to catch up
>Turns out my friend catches the flu that day and decides he can't go out
>Me and the ex decide to meet up anyway
>That night she texts me saying she's outside
>Heart's going crazy
>Check myself in the mirror one last time to make sure I look okay
>Go out
>See her for the first time in over a year
>It's a feeling that I actually can't describe in words
>We hug for what feels like forever
>She takes me to some hole in the wall bar nearby
>We drink and talk like old friends until 4 am when the bar shuts down
>Have a great time
>Stumble back to our buddy's place
>I go in, she comes in too
>Sit down on the couch together in the dark living room
>Just talk for a long time, staring out the window into the night
>Then, a moment of silence as she snuggles up close to me
>I can feel our faces getting closer and closer like some kind of fucking magnet
>Our lips touch
>We kiss passionately
>Tell each other that we love each other, that we always have

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>>34655772
>Spend the rest of the night holding each other close and passionately kissing
>The sun starts to come up and she realizes she has to rush home or her boyfriend will realize something's up
>She goes and the sun rises on New Years Eve of 2014
>Text her the next morning after I wake up and tell her I want to see her again
>She says she'll see if she can get away from the boyfriend for the day
>She does, and we take the day to explore the city
>She shows me all her favorite places
>We walk hand in hand through the streets
>It feels completely perfect
>It's starting to get late
>I'm supposed to meet up with my friend to go to a party, she has to get back to her boyfriend for NYE
>We get coffee in a little coffee shop and sit down together
>I tell her that I don't want the day to end, that I don't want to think about what happens when it does
>She tells me not to think about it
>Finally, the time comes
>She shows me down to the platform for the train I have to take
>It rolls into the station
>The doors slide open
>Well, I guess this is it
>We hug, then look at each other for what feels like a fucking eternity
>The doors start to close
>I look at her one last time and jump onto the train
>As I sit down, feel the weight of a thousand worlds drop onto my heart
>Look out the window as the train pulls away
>She waves to me with tears running down her face
>Get a text from her a few minutes later
>"I can't believe I didn't kiss you"
>Holy fuck man just fucking kill me.....
>I might up with my friend and his buddies but my mood is absolutely fucked
>We go to a party at some hip loft in brooklyn
>I'm so depressed I can't even fucking drink
>Just sit in silence as the party counts down to the new year around me
>Everyone celebrates, kisses their loved ones, shares happiness
>But I feel completely alone
>Next day I take a bus back home and immediately hop on a plane back to LA
>She and I text
>Have a long conversation about how much we want to be together

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>>34655791
For whatever reason this next block gives me an ASCII error every time so here's the gist of it.

>we talk about getting back together, eventually moving to one city or the other
>she breaks the news to her fraud bf that she's still in love with me, he gets hyper depressed and throws temper tantrums
>time goes by, she's finding it hard to end things with him because of his reaction and the fact that they still live together
>realize she's slipping away again
>basically straight up ask her if she'd leave him for me if I picked up and moved to NYC today
>she tells me no
>get depressed as fuck, say fuck it, tell her I deserve better than to be someone's plan B
>meet a girl on Tinder and start dating her
>when my ex finds out she gets fucking furious

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>>34655888
More ASCII bullshit. Fuck it, here's a screenshot of this chunk.

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>>34655949
And the last chunk, again with ASCII shit.

It's been four years now bros. I don't think I'll ever fully be able to let go.

>>34655984
fucking damn dude.

>>34655984
jus let go
she's toxic as fuck my guy
she's a regular cheater

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>>34655984
Sorry anon, sounds like Hell