After 21 years of futile existence, I finally got a gf, we've been together for 2 months now.
She's 18, I was the first guy she ever kissed and I took her virginity.
This weekend I asked her if she wanted to sleep over since I'm home alone, but she told me she has to look after her nephew since her sister's away for work.
I mean, her family is strict af, but why the hell can't she live her life?
Now I'm feeling sick, my stomach hurts and I feel like crying just cause I'm getting paranoid, thinking she doesn't like me anymore and stuff like that.
I haven't felt like this since last year, when I used to cry myself to sleep thinking I was alone and nobody liked me.
Why the fuck is one single bad thing enough to make me feel like my whole life is crumbling down?
>>34620410
you need to stop being a fucking fag.
you need to live for yourself, not for her, thats how you become a better person, a desireable person.
>>34620410
just drive past her house and see if she's there or not, it won't hurt her if she is doing nothing wrong, know what I'm saying
>>34620555
Nice trips.
She lives about 40 minutes away for me, also I don't know her address.
I know, things are slow af between us, she slept at my house once and idk, she always seems enthusiastic when we meet so I don't really think she doesn't like me anymore.
>>34620435
Actually since we started going out I've been feeling more confident, so I don't think our relationship is doing me any harm.
If I left her I would go back to the old me, back to being insecure and socially awkward wherever I go, it surely isn't better than now.
>>34620707
well, being possessive and paranoid about a teenager is probably a step in the right direction
you'll get over it, you have low self esteem. Long distance probably isn't a smart idea, but beggars cant be choosers. Either ignored it or self sabotage, either way it'll more than likely end within a year or two
Try cheating on her. Reminds yourself you're desirable, reminds her to stay on her toes. Don't actually cheat tho
>>34620931
I could download Tinder again and message some random gyal.
I feel like it's wrong tho.