Who here /fuckinglosingit/?
>don't ever know what day of the week it is;
>socially isolated, except for my parents
>constant anxiety because they are unpredictable
>can't move out because we live in an expensive city, and I depend on their health insurance
>random depressive episodes, with an overall-depressed baseline
>talk to myself, 'myself' started to respond
>vampiric, going to sleep near the start of the day, waking up after half the day is over
>get lost in my mind for hours a day
I CAN'T BE THE ONLY ONE
PLEASE
Tell me more about this vampire thing? I find it intriguing
>>34603363
I spend more hours awake during the night, than I do during the day,
>tfw don't have a mental illness
REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I WANT ONE SO BAD AT LEAST I'D HAVE AN EXCUSE FOR MY SHITTY LIFE
Had the same shit a year ago, my roommate moved out and I lost the little self control I still had.
I didnt shower or brush my teeth regularly, didnt clean the flat or wash my clothes, didnt do anything for university, didnt eat.
At some point I had mice in the room, ate only bread and if it was gone nothing at all till I was so hungry it would force me down to the bakery 200m away.
Sometimes I was able to go shopping at night, then I would usually eat a shitton of food till I was near vomiting.
Went to bed at about 4-7 in the morning, woke up in the middle of the day, would stay in bed for hours till I finally moved in front of my computer and started watching movies or play games.
Would barely answer my parents calls, no social interactions at all. This went on for about 4 months.
I managed to get out of it eventually and got professional help, now Im halfway functioning again. It can get better.
reporting in.
I feel like I'm losing it but how to get help if saying outloud to a doctor "I feel like I'm losing it" means I can't be that bad in their eyes if I have insight. I feel like I wouldn't be taken seriously by self reporting it.
feel myself going rogue and I don't care
>stopped talking to any friends and acquaintances
>started living in my car
>Shirked any commitments that aren't my 9-5 >haven't had contact with anyone in weeks outside of work people
>stopped any social hobbies I had
>fearful to answer my phone so I never do
>becoming more reclusive and secretive and wondering if I'm on a highway off the deep end of schizophrenia
I'm 20k in debt and barely making $50 a week driving uber, with no qualifications and too retarded for anything else. I've managed to all my friends and family hate me with my retardedness. Today driving with a passenger I began sobbing uncontrollably and I had to stop just to cry for a solid 5 minutes, she didn't even say anything, just left the car. One day I'm just going to crash full speed into a concrete wall and all this suffering will end.
I don't want to live anymore. I want to quit.
>vampiric
I am with you, I will die or mutate into a subhuman soon. It does not get better for us.
>>34603198
I think it's great you can at the very least realize how fucked up your current situation is. I went on exactly like you for years and thought it natural.
Get help OP.
>>34603418
You probably have depression. Even if you don't you can go to any psychiatrist and say you are generally feeling unhappy and they'll diagnose you.