is it schitz?

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> depression for years
> social isolation
> after 8 years depression leads to apathy
> able to function and get a job and drivers license now
> able to get up in mornings
> numb
> no emotion for now last three years
> just apathy
> in bed the other night
> breathing in ear
> scared
> don't move
> breathing gets louder
> ten minutes of this
> look up and around
> nothing
> face back into pillow
> breathing starts again
> feel the breath on my ear
> unintelligible whispering
> turn around
> nothing again
> same thing happens again
> hear footsteps on my wooden floor
> right next to my bed
> turn around in rush of adrenaline
> nothing again
> next night
> disturbing dream
> it's my younger sister
> she's naked and smiling at me
> cuts open both her legs at the thigh
> and jams her arms into both legs
> blood explodes out of both legs oozing past her arms like a video game
> not frequently, but more regularly now
> see weird faces when trying to sleep
> maybe am asleep

my dad has schizophrenia but he' just paranoid about everything and thinks secret agents are following him, rummaging through his stuff, sneaking around the house. stuff like that.

why does everything bad have to happen to me.