UNI THREAD FEELS

I'm returning to college after 5 long years, to take the last required class to finish the shitty A.S. in worthless University Studies.

The exact problem is, the philosophy logic and critical thinking is taught by a hard-core communist male to female transfaggot professor. Not kidding.

I hate college, but it's the only ticket out of poverty, but the propaganda of "white privilege" is infuriating.

FML.

i miss college so much. it was so easy, lots of free time, no stress. long breaks. it was great.

i imagine if you're a normie and actually are able to make friends/get laid/have fun, college must really be the best time possible in life.

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>>34576891
I think I've finally gotten a hold of myself after two days of anxiety over my future. Getting lots of work done and feeling better about myself. I'm glad because the semester only just started, I had to get a hold of myself.

Also, my college is having a "student activities fair" tonight, which is where clubs and shit try to get people to join, and I kind of want to go, but I don't feel like I would fit in with anything, as I hate being around people. If I had a friend, then I would go, but me just walking around by myself, I'd feel too uncomfortable just being there, let alone actually going up to a booth and talking to people.

How does one with no social life get laid in college?

Been out of school for over a year now, living the NEET life.

I miss school in a way but I also don't. Lots of stress. No stress now being a comfy NEET.

>>34577270
>go to /soc/
>start a uni thread meet up
>if you're lucky you might meet up with a girl

Theres still a small chance you'll get laid but you know it can't hurt just to try.

>>34576970
What do you do now?

orginalololo

>>34576999
Chekt. Nicely done. I think good things are coming your way

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>made out with some random 5/10 slut at a party
>didn't even get to have sex
>didn't bother contacting her
>now tfw no gf is stronger than ever before

Thinking of asking my highschool crush (who goes to the same uni) out to "catch up" or something, fuck I'm still obsessed over her.

At least my classes are chill...

>>34577402
How do you guys even get invited to parties? I literally know no one on campus but I think I'm attractive enough for a 6/10 girl to want to fuck me if I went to one

>>34576891
I entered uni full of hope. I wanted to do a stats related career. I thought that I will find friends. I thought that I will find a gf.
I failed. It is either my rotten acne face, of mental problems or both. Now I want nothing. I think about suicide every day. If I would have a gun I will kill myself. Today I had an interview for a good internship. I do not care about it at. I am thinking about to stop attending lectures. I even failed to write a normal post here, it is just a bunch of phrases.
All this because I cannot get laid. I hate nature, why am I so dependent on putting benis in a meat hole?

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>>34577402
At least you didn't catch feels for your lesbian classmate who now goes to a different uni.

>>34577402
>match with qt from hs on tinder who goes to the same uni
>don't know what to say so just say "hi"
>no response
Should I try again and send something with more substance or nah

>>34577457
You want that literal and emotional warm connection with a girl.

>>34577473
You already blew it, just keep swiping

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i'm going to start college in september after putting it off for a while. My biggest concern is that I wont be able to make friends on campus and I'll be stuck being a loner just like in high school. I decided I'll join whatever clubs interest me and actually make an attempt to socialize. But obviously I'm afraid that this will not work. Does anyone have any tips to make friends? I understand a lot of people here have the same problem If all else fails I guess I'll just lift at the gym

>>34577498
But I dont want any other girl

I finished my CS degree last year. 20 years old turning 21 in a week. Why are you guys so behind?

>>34577360
Thanks, anon, I hope you're correct.

Also, any anons here that go to SU? I'm in desperate need of a friend.

Is it worth it to double major in Math and Economics or is Applied Mathematics and Economics the more "optimal" route to go?
Currently 2nd year student at Uni

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>>34577506
>If all else fails I guess I'll just lift at the gym

Start with that first. Most clubs are open all semester long so you can join whenever. If you can make a gym buddy then it will be great.

Good luck buddy!

>>34577495
And also this. I dont know what to do, I am tired of suffering.

>>34577530
>rushing into wage slavery
Cuck

I dropped out my first year, smoked too much weed and partied too hard, I should be a senior now. I'm technically going back to school but it's EMT school, so I guess it counts

Don't do drugs kids

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>>34577562
Thank you for the optimism friend! I am a dyel skelly so hopefully I wont get any weird looks while I'm there

>people try to be my friend
>go full autist recluse 50% of the time because bipolar
>have no real friends but everyone says hi to me and would let me party with then if I wanted
>girls know me as dorm weirdo and think (know) I'm depressed
What do you call this

Posting this in every unifeels thread
HOW TO ARTIFICIAL CHAD

Start doing physical activity, take walks, go for a run, do a calisthenics program in your room, this is an absolute must.
I was a horrible autismo freshman year, and now I'm chad tier. (I am currently very active sexually and just took a qt azn grills virginity two weeks ago)

Here's how.

>start lifting, eating correctly, get a blood test, correct any deficiencies you may have. Look for any private md labs, quest diagnostics for example.

We call ourselves robots. Our bodies are machines, if something feels off in your car, you take it to a mechanic. People forget (You) are your own mechanic. Sleeping 14 hours a day? somethings' probably wrong. Correct your nutrient deficiencies, lose bodyfat %, correct your hormone profile (more test++)

This alone will make you feel much better, Your body is not equipped with the mechanisms to deal with metaphysical external stress that life throws at us, only the physical. GF dumps you? Tests dragging you down? Youll get a physical reaction etc etc.

Our bodies have evolved to deal with physical dangers well, but in the modern world, abstract stress on your body is handled poorly. You have to realize all of the weird feels you have can at least be somewhat corrected by having your body at 100%, any weakness mentally is exacerbated by physical weakness.

Most all psych meds do is to move to correct your hormone profile, and for most robots who don't have schizophrenia, you can make yourself feel like aces in a month or two of hard work.

Making sure your body is in tip top shape will allow you to
a) be alive longer to see the future of sexbots
b) increase your quality of life dramatically
c) deal with your autistic hardships more easily

cont'd

>>34577632
>start a individual sport
KEY: INDIVIDUAL
Team sports are too normie, and hard to enter late.
For me it was Judo, Jiu Jitsu, and Wrestling.
I got into shape, learned valuable skills, and once you have other men try to strangle you and rip your limbs off, tests and grills don't seem too bad.

Grappling is in every culture, and is used as a display of dominance among men, and your waifu likes dominant men. These personalities are good ones to mimic, and you will meet true savages along the way that people gravitate to like no other. Start on your way to become them.

For me, learning how to best someone physically gave me the courage to best people socially.

>start into behavioral game theory
Read as much as you can from successful people (Trumps books are good, Carnegie's etc (they can seem plebby, but reinforcing basics is necessary)) , mimic them, and channel your autisms to learn how to game people.

Body language books were really helpful for me, your uni library has some.

>care about your appearance
KEY: YOU HAVE TO TRY
The smelly dude in ugly clothes with a dylan roof haircut will never lead men. Ever.
Honestly, what's under the clothes matters a lot more than the clothes themselves, but we've covered that.
Start with jackthreads(#)com
It's really low tier fashion, but normie approved.
Stop spending money on junk food, tendies, and vidya. You can afford it.

Go to a sportsclips or supercuts, ask the nice lady what would look best, tell her you trust her with your life and let her work. They will pick a haircut that suits you better than you can.

>tfw grades are slipping and feel like primordial schizophrenia is developing

See you space cowboys...

>take kratom and listen to classical music while studying
anyone else really enjoy finding the optimal environment for focusing? studying in general is fun but I just can't bring myself to do it most of the time

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>>34577657

I can put on a really effective personality for everyone I meet, and quickly. People fit into archetypes, even yourself. These molds react to certain positively and negatively to certain things, learn it. I went to literally dozens of parties and social gatherings without speaking at all (pretend you're really high or something if someone asks).

Just to observe and learn, sure everyone thinks you're insane, but those hours on the ground allowed me to form a very effective method of dealing with almost every type of person.

It's hard and unnatural, but I can currently go into a room with 0 people I know, and work it really well.

>start becoming really good at things
Be neurotic about as many things as you can. Once you maintain yourself physically, you will start doing it mentally, and then socially.
KEY: TAKE BREAKS
Take a night every two weeks to sperg out over hentai and eat bad food. Use it as a control exercise, and a reward for pushing yourself into a world of pain

Keep your room retardedly clean, create a system for everything, and it will slowly absorb your schoolwork as well.

I personally think of school as something I want to be done with as efficiently as possible, so I can train my mind and body on more fun pursuits. Get your schoolwork done as robotically as possible, and you will not be stressed about it, and more importantly feel better about yourself.

You will never complain that your room is too clean, or your laundry is too folded, or your homework is too done.


Pic related the only person i care about. I think about her everytime I have sex with anyone.

>>34576999
youve got to pregame the fair anon. thats one of the only ways to enjoy school sponsored activities.

taking anatomy 1, stats, bio 2, and ochem 1. wanna take on an online macro econ but idk if i can handle it considering how piss-poor my time management skills are right now. ive been feeling like i just got back from break for a few days now.

>>34577572
Not him but I am eager to get out of college. I can't even stay because the longer I stay the more debt I get and the worse my life will be.

>>34577457
where are you from foreign anon?

if you failed uni, you could do retail for a couple of years until you get tired of it and then re-apply for school when you feel as though youre ready. the years of putting up with people's shit will make you hate pussy. it's literally not even the solution to your problems.

>>34577878
I am from rus but study in the uk. Basically if I will fail uni I will have to go to the rus armyand also lose visa and lots of parents money, and it is worse than death.

>>34576970
This is the greatest source of regret in my life. Uni could be the high point of my life, but I can never leave the house

>>34576891
>have a panic attack in class
>somehow manage to stealth the fuck out of there without prof noticing
>drive to a park
>smoke a cigarette that tastes fucking disgusting to try to forget about the suicidal thoughts

I'll do the same tomorrow, except I probably won't even be able to go into class.

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I just want to leaf

>>34577402
Leave.
Originally tho

>>34577439
Frat parties bro. I go with my little group of friends, I pay like 5 bucks, and wham I'm in a party.
>>34577471
Fuck that man sorry to hear it
>>34577473
You fucked up sorry

>>34578089
I'm still a robot at heart though. Making out with a drunk slut is actually kind of easy, I'm not even that attractive.

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>>34578141
Going to a party and making out with a random girl is normie behavior. I'm sorry if you feel otherwise, but you're not a robot. Go try to make it in the real world, it's much better

>have Chad connections (people I knew in HS)
>STEM
>139 IQ
>go to gym every day
>0 junk food
>7/10 face
>good hygiene
>good fashion sense
>have part time job so lots of disposable income
>get 1-2 matches on tinder a day
>still a virgin because can't fuck/talk to girls I'm not legitimately attracted to personality wise

Listen boys, the truth hurts but it's the truth. Your personality is what will guide you. If you're a robot, you will inevitably fuck up with a woman. We just aren't wired to understand the female brain. You can try and coast on superficial traits but it will only get you so far, and you will fail to find a non-superficial woman.

>>34576891
Trying my best not to fail my Calc 2 exam this Friday. It's so tempting to drop out of engineering

>>34578393
How do so many people have trouble with calculus 2 lmao. I took an accelerated course that was both cal 2 and 3 and it was easy

I'm starting all over again.
It's middle of the ground, 3 year degree in Software Development. At least it's not system analisys, or any of that bullcrap.

Studying in my country is expensive, specially if you live close to the college, but good luck finding something worthwhile and that it's not full of normies.
If you want to be among lots of women (assuming you are male), biotechnology, biochemistry, chemistry, pharmaceutical, dentistry, psychology. It's ladden with chicks.

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>tfw had an internship for 6 months
>secluded from normies
>together with other robots in company
>redpilling eachother
>shouting memes

Regular programming starts again next week. Can I successfully reintegrate with the normies? I don't even know them anymore. How do I hide my power level.

Are your credits there forever? Its been like 8 years since I've taken a college course and I was wondering if I had to start all over again.

>>34576999
>too autistic to join normal clubs
>not autistic enough for anime club
>too autistic to make friends

Just fuck my shit up famalam

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>>34576970

>so easy
>no stress

What the fuck?

/r9k/, how do you introduce yourself to a girl that sits next to you without being autistic? There's this really qt Japanese girl that sits next to me and I want to talk to her, but I've never really been one to initiate contact with girls before

>>34578434
>Tfw tested out of math and virtually all other GE requirements
>Tfw never have to take a STEM class again
Life is good

>>34577952
Nah, people who dont make friends within their first 2 weeks of residency pretty much end up outcasts their entire 4 years

>>34578434
Calc 2 TA here. Some kids are just genuinely dumb, some are too scared to try. The genuinely dumb ones hurt to see.

>>34576891
Failed first year because I missed class, freaked out over missing class and didn't want to confront that fear or deal with consequences for it so I went to class even less and it just snowballed from there. Retrying all my courses from last year except philosophy, which I've switched to English, cause philosophy was really just a bludge so I could have four classes and be counted as a full time student.

>>34578939
This isn't exactly the best place to ask that sort of question
We're all just as autistic as you are, anon

>>34578393
My professor is the head of the math department with an Ivy PhD that creates the hardest fucking questions possible. My friend took Calc 2 last semester and his work was much easier

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>>34576891
three weeks in and I'm already being killed by stress. I failed all my classes freshman year and had to take a semester off but I'm back now and trying to actually get good grades. I don't know how I'm going to be able to do this for like five more semesters

basically I get up at 7am, go to class until 6pm, do homework until midnight, play video games and watch trap porn for two hours, sleep for 5, repeat. I hate my life

>second term of second year
>no idea what I'm doing, failing uni
>want to take time off but can't because I'll get kicked out
>feel like people are using me only for notes and assignments
>still no friends, so lonely

>go to the counseling service
>tell the psychologist Stacy all my problems, and my background
>see her eyes glow off as she listens to my stories, her getting almost disgusted
>can tell she's judging me because I'm a sheltered autistic retard
>almost tells me fixing mental health can't change my personality or make me friends
>tells me she's not a career advisor
>finally refers me to a psychiatrist

I dropped out in the middle of a semester because anxiety became too much to handle. Pretty sure my GPA is a borderline 2, maybe a high 1. What's the reapplying process like? I'm being forced to go back.

Thinking about going for my Masters degree because I hate my current job and want to change fields.

>tfw born in a mentally ill family
>parents were both loners but succeeded in uni
>lonely living a life as a minority, no one to talk to
>second year, still a social and mental failure, low GPA
>social anxiety worsens as everyone around me gets judgmental
>on the verge of failing and have no idea what to do
>the only thing I have going for is my looks, which I could use to get rich Chinese qts
A-at least my grandparents are rich

>try to start going to bed early
>have 8 am classes
>10 pm
>hear yelling through my wall
>roommate discovered markiplier's channel
>the autistic screeching and overly dramatic yells from her room never stops

kill me please

>>34579798
>her
make your roommate your gf anon

>>34578253
>Listen boys, the truth hurts but it's the truth. Your personality is what will guide you. If you're a robot, you will inevitably fuck up with a woman. We just aren't wired to understand the female brain. You can try and coast on superficial traits but it will only get you so far, and you will fail to find a non-superficial woman.
I'm effeminate so I'm really relatable to girls

>>34579825
i'm straight anon
and why would you date someone that liked markiplier

>>34578939
dude if you're autistic you have no choice

>>34579853
If you're a robot you'll date anyone who'll have you

>tfw fucked up
>tfw superficial interests that no one talks about IRL
>tfw gonna end up alone forever

Who /STEM genius but mentally ill/ here?
>was born really intelligent
>loving family, although mentally ill
>had trouble socializing since young
>smart, always got through school easily with great marks
>never had many friends although attractive
>got into a good uni
>general science program, I do nothing while taking a full courseload and it tires me out
>try to switch to the CS meme in second year, end up failing
>just want to take a fucking break and go to Korea for kpop

>in 4th year of college
>GPA dropped below 3.0
>finally switched majors last semester
>chose not to dorm at a school farther away for reasons i don't even remember
>want to kill myself whenever I wake up early for the half-hour commute
>always cranky and bitter due to chronic neck pain
>tfw no hobbies besides shitposting
>tfw socially awkward and stand-offish
>tfw loner in high school and still loner in college
>tfw still KHV at 21
i want a re-do lads

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>>34579798
>freshman year
>roommate is a total sperg
>wakes me up every day at 6AM playing Markiplier videos loudly through speakers
>bail on him after 3 weeks with no notice and try to avoid him
>he's in one of my classes this semester
>he sits in the front row and plays runescape and browses the 4+4chan trump board during class

Calc 2 is hard. Barely passed Calc 1 with a B and a huge curve. Don't think I can handle all of this math, should I just go the baby route and be an IT major?

>>34577944
man well it sounds like you already know how much worse life can get. go smoke a shit ton of cigarettes and get sick, get drunk for the night. i think people get better after they hit their lowest point, that was the case with me. try hitting a mock "lowest point" so you can rebound.

my friend you know yourself better than i do. dont let society get to you, no one really cares about everyone else in uni because no one except yourself matters. find the value in your education, take another class that you really like, read a good book youve read before, it might be important to do something educational and fun to adjust your focus to uni.

good luck russian bro, i lurk in these threads, i hope to hear about you getting happier soon.

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>>34580191
>slipped through calc classes somehow
>in differential equations now
I feel like there's been some kind of mistake
what the fuck am I doing here

>>34579867
>>34579045
I know, but I can't pass this up. This may be my only change at a qt Japanese gf

>tfw failed last term but can't simply drop out
>barely doing my assignments
>friend gave me a copy assignment but it's shit

>talked with a psychologist counselor
>even they don't care if you're failing university, they want you to drop out

>>34578939
JUST be urself dood

oriniggeral

I go to college in 3 weeks how do I not completely fuck up every social encounter during my first month or so

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>>34576891
>literally zero friends and bullied heavily throughout middle and high school
>always told by councilors and parents that I was a smart good kid who would make friends in college once I got out of my small town
>now third year uni
>still friendless even though I tried clubs and shit
>surrounded by chads and staceys who are rude and act disgusted by me
>don't even like uni
>probably too much of a sperg to land a job once I get out anyway
I'm honestly considering seeing if I can get diagnosed with something to get me neetbux so I can just drop out and become a hikki, I hate people and it's clear I don't belong in the regular world, I can't think of a single time I've been glad I got out of bed and been happy that I interacted with another person

>>34580763
>how do I not completely fuck up every social encounter

You will anyway

>tfw born Asian
>everyone treats me like a fucking international student
>no Asian friends
>no friends
>international students won't befriend me because I'm an immigrant

>>34580782
>>now third year uni
>>still friendless even though I tried clubs and shit
>>surrounded by chads and staceys who are rude and act disgusted by me
They can sense the spergness man.

You literally have to improve yourself, no other way.

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>>34576891
>already constantly skipping classes like a madman
>"ill go next time... ill go next time... just gotta catch up so i dont look like an idiot"
>dont go
>fearing a "HEY ANON WHERE YA BEEN" type confrontation

i wish i could just take online classes

>>34580852
Force yourself to go to class my dude, I did exactly what you did last year and failed everything

>tfw look attractive but am mentally ill
>only attract mentally ill girls

>it's the beginning of my term so Im still gung ho in all my classes
>talking with professors after class n sheit
>do this every term but inevitably end up stopping showing up for classes because something happens and I get too depressed
>it makes it worse because all the professors are shocked because I was the best student up until the end
>repeat ad nauseum

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>>34580852
>now, I'm going to divide you into groups-

>second year
>failing
>no one to talk to
>no one is relatable
>too old for this shit
>no motivation

>>34580095
>another chronic neck pain bro

hi

>>34580916
I know that feel.

I've transferred to another college just to avoid seeing all the professors I've disappointed.

>tfw you try and change your robot ways and try to socialize but everyone ignores you/treats you differently and any attempt at making friends fails

never again

>>34576891
i reaIIy, reaIIy want to kiII myseIf

>>34581207
they either know you from before, or can sense the robotness

>>34581251
no one knows me, i know its the robotness cause im so awkward, but i thought i'd try since i've had normies on my back about having no friends my whole life. im just accepting the fact i'll get through college as a loner just like the hs days.

>>34581334
>im just accepting the fact i'll get through college as a loner just like the hs days.
if you want to, you better get a 4.0 or something because you're not getting it otherwise

>>34581392
that's the only good thing about being a robot. no friends = more time to study = good gpa (at least for some if we spent less time on r9k)

>>34581480
nah my hobby is shitposting and I spend all my time being lazy because I am depressed

Kind of a mix of feels on my end.

Just started dating this qt3.14 who I met in a sociology class last semester. We pretty much officially started dating on Sunday when I literally asked her, haha. We're both kind of shy so we weren't super up front with each other at first cause we're not used to it.

We've both been pretty busy so I haven't been able to spend as much time with her as I would like but we're trying to make it work. I have some stuff planned for us V-Day week so hopefully then. I'm also taking her to this banquet thing on Friday that we're both gonna be a part of so I'll see her then too.

School is kinda shit right now though. Having some real struggles in my classes even though I'm only in 14 credits. They're putting me to work in these engineering/CS classes man.

I'm really happy to be dating that girl though, a lot of people thought she never would or that she probably just thought of me as a friend but it seems like she had deeper feelings for me than that. Even when I'd come on /r9k/ sometimes and ask about it a lot of people would just say "she probably thinks of you as a friend only" but turns out there was more. If I can do it, you guys for fucking sure can.

>tfw even the therapist is disgusted by your personal life

>walk around campus
>couples holding hands
>haven't said more than 3 words to a girl all year

>>34577516
well too bad. there's nothing you can except move on

Been a little over a year since I graduated and I haven't found a job in what I fucking studied for. Moved back in with my mom this past August and have been unemployed since.

I feel like a complete failure and have lost all confidence. Withdrawing from fucking Calc I was the moment I realized I was never going to be successful because I'm fucking

>>34581695
Damn it I've wanted to talk to this girl for forever but never had the chance.

I think I'm just going to give up on women like I did before. I'll never get the kind of girls I want, only the shit-tier 5/10 ones. I'd rather be alone then settle for some dime a dozen sorority whore.

>>34576891
College has been great for me

>Enter college autistically afraid of going to Hell
>Perseverate over it for entire first semester
>Constant existential crisis
>No friends
>No roomate
>Dying on the inside
>Severely depressed
>Go to counseling
>"hmm, anon, I must admit, I think its quite silly to be afraid of these things. I am an atheist..."
>Make a few friends, but I have to invite myself to everything
>Fastforward 2 years
>Going to study in Australia to escape my problems
>Will probably suicide if things don't get better, or if this semester is too good to be outdone

How am I doing?

>go to counseling
>notice the Stacy bitch slowly getting disgusted at myself
>tells me I can overcome social anxiety but it is not like it'll help me make friends
University really weeds people out.

Bad thing I don't even have a fucking clue what to do in university.

Even the robot advisor was nicer than this bitch

>>34581826
dude, I thought about giving up to... but then I started to girls who recently got hot and it's great. There were ugly girls in high school too but puberty can do wonderful things. now I'm talking to a couple sexuality aggressive 7/10s with great bodies. it gets better! just keep at it

>finally feel calm going to the counseling session
>she latches out at me and insists it's career related
>refuses to refer me to therapy programs or a doctor
>get mad afterwards again

>>34577473
it never hurts to try, only on the inside.

>transferred to 2nd uni
>literally the exact same as 1st uni, eating in cafeteria alone everyday, no friends, dorm suitemates condescendingly mock me
why did I think things would be different? well, fuck everyone, I'm just going to keep my head down and graduate

>>34582065
things are never gonna be different unless you somehow become a normie

>>34582147
yeah I actually thought my personality has improved a lot since then, which it has, but I've realized it's still nowhere near enough to reach normie status. I've accepted it's unattainable for me

>>34576891
Alright.

I dropped a math class, but that was because my new job seriously cuts into homework/study time, and the assignments for this math class were gargantuan and non-trivial.

I'm in my 5th year and this is my second to last quarter. I'm still the depressed, friendless piece of shit I was my freshman year. Grades are alright except for a few quarters where they took a major dip because I was just in a bad mental place at the time.

My new job isn't helping any of this either because it gives me severe anxiety and makes me feel even more ostracized than I already am. At my new job there's this pressure to do everything perfectly the first time, at least for me that is. I also get the feeling that I'm not liked there, it feels like I'm a burden to them and that they're probably thinking, "Why the fuck did we hire this guy again?" Not only that, but the place gives me a massive inferiority complex and some serious impostor syndrome. It feels like everyone else there are orders of magnitude smarter than I and I always feel so fucking stupid and useless when I'm at the office. I'm also worried upper management might promote me above my peers who have been there longer which will only make them resent me even more, you know the whole, "They promoted that schmuck over me?"

I'm a CS major, by the way. My job isn't as a software engineer/developer though, I'm an analyst/consultant at an IT firm.

>>34582168
once a robot always a robot. this is our destiny, my friend.

>psychologist somehow thinks I'm lying about my symptoms just for attention
>really I was just finally calm and not triggered because I thought I was getting help
>have trouble remembering and naming my symptoms
>she treats me like I wasted her time or something
>anxiety attacks and my symptoms start coming back again
>tells me she's not some career advisor
Now what do I tell my psychiatrist? Fuck.

I have trouble naming my fucking problems

Is mental illness just a meme?

>>34582285
>It feels like everyone else there are orders of magnitude smarter than I and I always feel so fucking stupid and useless when I'm at the office.
Dude no one fucking cares

Forget about the peer pressure, getting promoted is what matters.

I know that's hard when you're a fucking friendless robot

How did you get through CS?

I am also struggling and failing right now so it's hard. My parents treat me like a fucking failure because I had one chance in a better life and I've ruined it.

>>34582303
>Is mental illness just a meme?

no but you have one

>let's go back in time, 2 years to be precise
>be me
>depressed
>bipolar
>alcoholic & chainsmoking
>living in the city centre on my own
>lonely
>don't like major (engineering)
>so down i was set on committing suicide
>parents would hate me if i dropped out
>start failing classes
>realise it's my life and since i'm killing myself soon anyways i can do whatever the fuck i want
>be free for thje first time in my life
>my uncle offers me a job in his farm
>move to the countryside to a little isolated shack
>get to train horses, take care of the cattle, etc.
>love every second of it despite i live very frugally and not what i was used to
>TFW happy for the first time in my life
>no depression episodes since then

>>34582290
It really is, especially if you grew up as a robot since young.

There's nothing that your parents can change, unless you somehow had normie friends

>>34582358
I know I do, but then why did she act so disgusted at me?

She acted like I was really just some disgusting sheltered autistic creep and didn't even refer me to the therapy or CBT programs

Man the mental health support system is really fucked up.

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>>34577471
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHHA FUCK DYKES AMIRITE????????????????????

FUCKING SWORN SHE TOLD ME SHE WAS BI NOW SHE'S HEAD OF THE GAYFUCKBIO CLUB

CUNTS....I SWEAR.....

>>34582362
>>don't like major (engineering)
Instead of failing you could've explored your options if you wanted.

I am glad you are doing better off.

I am also thinking about dropping out, but there's nothing more comforting than a useless uni degree with opportunities a robot would never make it.

BEST YEARS OF OUR LIFE

I'm just fucking scared I won't do anything man

>>34576970
What the fuck are you talking about, I'm beyond happy I'm out of uni. No more homework, test stress, constantly pissing myself over grades, ect.

Now I just get to go to work for 7 hours and not worry about it at home. It's work and home, not a weird jumbled mess like college

>>34582429
i forgot to mention i was working at a big4, i was a year away of getting my degree desu. Best decision ever, i was miserable, i would kill myself rather than work in an office ever again.
It's normal to be scared man, but prioritise your mental health and happiness over a degree.

>>34582396
you probably fucked up somewhere. maybe you chose a bad psychologist. maybe you weren't very open with your feelings. look within for guidance

>>34577598
perks of being a wallflower?

oreegano commento desu desu sugio

>>34581875
>Australia
Which state m8

>tfw failing uni
>dad insists I do something that I like
>mom insists I stay in uni
>thought of staying in this depressing shitty uni with nothing to do depresses me even further
>GPA and motivation too low to transfer out
>too avoidant and dependent to try to live alone
>don't even know what I want to do
>fucked up my chances at being a optometry doctor or engineer

literally all the conversations I overhear from other students that aren't about classes are

>sex
>booze
>weed

This is all people have on their fucking minds. Is this all there is to life? work and then do degenerate shit afterwards to forget about having to do work? I'm starting to take the antinatalism pill

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>try to talk to people
>they constantly look at their phone, don't make eye contact or listen to what I'm saying
>only talk about themselves

I think I'm a pretty good listener. I've try to give a shit when communicating with people because I hope it'll make me better at socializing, now I realize that normies are literally more inept at talking than I am

>knew this quarter would be tough
>do my best to prepare for it so I have an advantage going in
>life decides to fuck me over and I get behind on my work right from the start
>catch up a bit at the end of this last weekend
>come down with the flu, bed ridden for three days
>the assignments haven't stopped piling up
>the quizzes and exams aren't going to be delayed
>I've run out of time
>if I fail even a single class I lose financial aid, if I lose financial aid I can't go to uni
>start wondering what the point is
>I wasn't even happy when I was doing well
This is it boys. If I don't manage that comeback I'm packing it all in and quitting life. I think I'm going to do it by train since it has worked for some people in my college town in the past.

University is just way too hard to get through as a robot.

I know people would tell you "boo hoo you got into a good uni, you're smart, you're set for life" and everything

The environment here just depresses me and it's set to weed out robots.

I know no one has "true friends" but at least they socialize and get the experience in life.

Robots always remember to smile and befriend people because everyone is insecure and want to be liked

Do what you want but who the fuck knows what to do?

>>34582581
>because everyone is insecure and want to be liked
no one wants to be liked by us though, we're fucking losers and our opinion doesn't matter to them at all.

>>34582568
I guess we all cope with the insipidness of life the best way we can. I drink tea and read books 80% of the day, some may say that's a pathetic way of life, and it prob is.
Don't judge anon

>>34582468
>It's normal to be scared man, but prioritise your mental health and happiness over a degree.
I want to, but I am stuck at a dead end because my GPA is too low. Can't fail out and ruin my chances forever

>>34582494
I was referred to whichever psychologist at the counseling centre. Like I've said, I was simply finally calmed down right then and had trouble remembering my symptoms. I guess I looked like I'm lying.

I am very critical to any rejection or criticism.

>>34582568
>This is all people have on their fucking minds. Is this all there is to life?
Of course, it's the only thing to look forward to relieving stress

>>34582571
>now I realize that normies are literally more inept at talking than I am
They're not inept.

Take a fucking clue.

They DON'T want to talk to you

>>34582590
>no one wants to be liked by us though, we're fucking losers and our opinion doesn't matter to them at all.
Professors, advisors, admins and whoever are incredibly insecure and live a pathetic life.

Of course they want to be liked. It's really easy to get on the good side just by doing simple things

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>>34578939
JUST FUCKING SAY HELLO MY NAME IS ANON HOW ARE YOU FINDING THE CLASS

OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT
FUCK IT"S NOT HARD


REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE


RREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

>go see a faculty advisor
>oh boy he's gonna be some terrible guy again having a bad day
>genuinely smile at him and give him a good handshake
>tell him about how I'm failing uni
>he turns out to be a fellow robot
>starts telling me about how he once sat in a bio class of 300 people, taking notes alone
>encourages me to meet more new people
I guess that's literally what advisors and all the university staff are, just employed there because no job

>>34582720
>encourages me to meet more new people
"just be urself" tier advice.

>>34582643
Im talking about situations where someone has come up to ME and started talking, I assume with the intent to have a conversation.

>>34582737
It's actually not that hard, I'm pretty good looking

>>34582772
Oh. That's when they're trying to use you for something, shaming you as a robot

>tfw second year
>constant worries about how I've missed my best years of life
>did nothing in my first year that was actually useful
>had a gf but she was just some beta orbiter using slut
>still a kissless virgin
>thinking about going on tinder or something

>tfw never hung out with people in life
>tfw never gone on a date
>constant AvPD BPD and DPD
>just hoping for some qt older girl to be my gf

>tfw worrying about how I've never networked with people
>no connections
>nothing to talk about
>no interests
>missed my chance at being a normie or at least a failed normie

>tfw no one will even look at you out of pity anymore

Waiting for my bitch ass roommate to go shower so I can rub one out 2bh

>tfw don't want to be a failure
>don't want to study because I never actually explored the real world
>always complain about everything without using the resources

>>34576891
Just took a test that I was about 50% prepared for, thought it went as well as it could have so that's nice. But in general uni life is good desu. Made some friends and got an apartment lined up next year. Havnt failed any classes yet, no gf but I'm ugly and not looking for one. I'm getting /fit/ and over my vidya addiction so life is pretty good desu

>>34582555
Drop out and work desu, listen to your pops.

>transfer from CC to a university
>think things will be better
>it's actually worse
Why did I buy into the Uni memes

Maybe next semester, when I dorm, it'll be better. Or not.

Also, I'm trying to write an album, but school is sucking all of my motivation away

>>34582285
I know that feel, it's the same at my summer job. Not in an office but I work manual labor so if I fuck something up I slow down the process really bad and I'm pretty sure all my coworkers hate me but no way to tell. The only thing that makes me feel better is that they hired me back, because I must do at least decent work and be a tolerable person. It's probably the same for you senpai, don't worry too much.

>>34583393
>Drop out and work desu
I am a robot, what makes you think I can work?

I'm extremely vulnerable so even doing a volunteer job scares me of rejection because I have no support.

>>34583459
>transfer student
>getting better
oh boy of course it's worse.

no one wants you to succeed.

they hear the two words "transfer student" "older student" and boom their interest is gone

>>34583482
Than just commit sudoku senpai, or live on neetbux. 3 options you choose desu

>>34583503
dude face your problems, always talk about it with your parents.

I refused to talk about my problems in my first year that I got academic warning, now I'm on the verge of dropping out.

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>>34579045
>implying anyone in this bread has a higher powerlevel than me
top kek anon! Hahahahahaha please kill me!

>>34583506
Living as an Asian man in the West just sucks man.

>everyone treats you like a fob international student
>International students hate immigrants and vice versa

Maybe I'm just complaining but it all comes down to race

Boohoo yeah I might be Korean but I want a Chinese gf

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>>34583495
>tfw people look down on me because the CC I went to is basically for the dumb kids from the local highschool who go, get at least a 2.6, then transfer to the uni
>tfw the real reason I went there was because I forgot to pay the application to my current uni when I was first applying, got waitlisted, and didn't get a seat

At the CC I actually had a friend and talked to a girl. Now I'm like an anchovy in a sea full of marlin

>>34583591
no one cares about the reason man LOL

either lie about yourself, git gud, or prepare to drop out

>tfw everyone looks down on me as a second year student in first year
>mentally scarred, huge anxiety issues
>have personality disorders
>mental health instantly better when I remove the stress triggers

>>34583591
>At the CC I actually had a friend and talked to a girl. Now I'm like an anchovy in a sea full of marlin
No one is actually friends with each other man.

They stop doing collaboration after first year anyway.

I am in the same situation too, but don't let it get you discouraged

>>34576891
>have to write a 200 word essay by next monday

fuck uni, man, nothing but bullshit

>tfw fucked around in first year
>don't know what to do
>under constant abuse and anxiety
>just want to live the neet life but I'd be sad
>at the same time schooling is too stressful as well

>>34583856
>tfw one f u l l page reflection in my journal about a reading due on Friday.
They can't seriously think that's possible

>>34576891
After dropping out 3 times, I finished two 3 year art degrees in 11 years.
Life is despair. Looking at job advertisements brings on waves of depression and regret.

Okay serious question guys: what's the best university in the USA to be in if you have genuine autism? I do some normie stuff like smoke weed and play sports games but I'm a socially awkward mess whom has serious mental health issues.

I've heard RIT is a very autistic friendly school but dunno if I should transfer for the 4th fucking time.

>low GPA
>university credentials might be my only way to improve life
>still have serious doubts because I get neetbux but no other options
>never worked a job or did anything

>>34583582
As an Asian man myself, life is suffering

>get treated like a nobody
>get funny looks almost everytime
>no friends at all
>Asian girls want white/black Chads

Fuck this hellhole

>>34584288
Usually the Chinese freshmen girls would be staring at me because I am Korean.

But now even that meme has died off

It's microaggeession man, all the whities always projecting at you for "stealing" jobs when you're actually bringing all the money into the economy

>>34584288
>tfw even psychologists and therapists would project at you
KEK

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Why the fuck is it so difficult to just make friends?
I made it my new years resolution to be more outgoing and it's just failure at every turn because I can't into social interaction

Met a girl who I went to high school with, but was never particularly close with and I hadn't seen since her graduating and asked if she wanted to catch up. Apparently she took that as an offer for a date or something and told me to not text her again kek

I've had to read long ass articles on the history of vaginas for 2 separate classes. If I wasn't full gay before I am now

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>>34583582
>>34584288
Honestly feel pretty bad for Asians in University
I didn't realize how bad it was, but I was on the bus a few days ago late one night and some dumb sluts got sat behind me. I didn't see what they looked like at this point and they just sounded like basic white bitches and I started eavesdropping and they were just trashtalking asian guys enough that it made me feel uncomfortable (I'm not asian). I turn around and it turns out to be two asian chicks

>>34584628
You give off a creepy and desperate vibe.

>>34584672
>I didn't see what they looked like at this point and they just sounded like basic white bitches and I started eavesdropping and they were just trashtalking asian guys enough that it made me feel uncomfortable (I'm not asian). I turn around and it turns out to be two asian chicks
Huge clash between the Asian and White culture.

Not to mention all the WMAF meme shit, it basically comes down to white supremacy

The Chinese girls used to love Korean men but the kdrama meme died off because of THAAD issues

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>>34584689
I guess so
I really didn't mean it as a date at all though.
>>34584748
Kdrama is still pretty popular isn't it?

>>34577506
Making friends at work is easy peezy. After that I only know how to make friends online.

>>34584772
>I really didn't mean it as a date at all though.
How old are you and the girl? That's probably why.

>>34584748
Terminal High Altitude Area Defense?

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>>34584784
I'm 21
Think she's 20 as I was held back a year
How does that make a difference?
I'm just kinda embarrassed about the whole thing

>>34584785
Yeah that one, that's what's called

>>34584799
If she's fucking 20 then she needs to lose the ego lmao

>tfw even psychiatrists will tell you it's your fault
They don't want you to succeed

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>tfw got a response from my University's Police Chief after applying letting me know I sound like a good candidate to join the student patrol
>tfw I can stop washing dishes for minimum wage
>tfw I'll hopefully soon be able to get paid $10/hr for walking around and busting normies for underage drinking from 9-3am
>tfw I can radio in house parties to real cops where I suspect underage drinking
>tfw after 6 months and a test I can carry a tazer
>tfw I will get paid to btfo normies and w*men who have rejected me at every turn
Haven't been this excited in quite some time buds

>>34584875
why not just become a police officer if you like the type of work so much?

>>34584943
Not him but most are pretty competitive and have barriers to discourage robots. Psych evaluations, interviews, extensive background checks where they interview your neighbors.

Dropped out to pursue the emergency services. Best decision of my life.

>tfw 4am
>tfw have to wake up in 1 hour

Just end me.

>tfw insecure robot and everyone is taking a jab at you
>even the counsellors would hear your sheltered ass beta loser story and laugh at you
SCHIZOPHRENIA

REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

>>34584943
This is part time and I'm too beta to actually do anything like arresting people or dealing with dindus. I'm going to shoot for comfy government work after school

I think this job sounds good because
>I already take night walks
>Better hours and higher pay
>Hate normies here with a passion after 2 years
>Get to participate in SWAT training as a hostage
>Get training on how to kick someone's ass
>Tazer if I stick with it
>It's memey as fuck

Anyone living in Canada right now?

With the shitty economy everyone is so being aggressive

>tfw depressed
>tfw anxious
>tfw everyone being so angry at you because of projection

>tfw mental health slowly deteriorating
>GPA failing
>getting older without doing anything

I always try to take the "bad" profs in CS

the "good" profs attract all the clueless normies who actually expect actual instruction out of professors

>tfw spent my first year being an arrogant af schizoid loser
>now second year and no one likes me
>tfw cucked for life

>>34579740
congrats to your bachelors degree. Which field are you in and what do you want to do instead?

How much do you guys study? I have 0 free time. If I'm not making food or sleeping in studying. I would estimate 4 hours of classes then 6 hours of homework. I study all Saturday and Sunday. I've never worked this hard in my life and I have constant anxiety because of it.

>switched into CS without knowing what would happen
>on the verge of dropping out
>everyone are super competitive geeks just fighting for a spot

>>34585080
>I'm going to shoot for comfy government work after school
I start on Monday

wish me luck

>tell psychologist that i don't want to be in arts
>she goes in a rage

>stayed up all night to study for an exam
>got a 44/100
Please just fucking kill me.

>>34580852
skipped every math class in my first year. I have been in uni for 4 1/2 years now. Everyone else graduates in 3 1/2 years. Don't skip anything for no reason.

>Studying at library
>Two occupied spaces on my right
>Stacy and Chad come back and sit
>Stacy next to me
>After a minute she switches seats with Chad

I literally didn't do anything, didn't even look at her, and no I don't smell since I feel insecure about that so I shower right before going to the uni.

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>spend 45minutes shitposting with phone on a bench every lunch break
>Classes are so exhausting I can't get anything done for shit
>Whenever I tell myself Im going to work like a motherfucker some shit happens and takes my whole evening (clogged the shitters last night and spent three hours fixing it)
>Hate myself for cramming exams and finishing papers 20 minutes before deadline

Everything is just out of control

I'm on my third year, writing my bachelor's thesis, but I didn't pass one exam. There's still a second chance, but I have no notes or anything, I'm afraid I fail this one and then I'll have to wait till next year's February to defend my thesis and finish the studies.
Sighhh

>tfw not bullied
>tfw no friends
>just treated as if I don't exist 99% of the time
>still feel like everyone is looking at me when I'm outside of my room

I just want a friend, but I know that's highly unlikely cause anyone that's into anime and vidya is probably a cringy failed normie.

>>34587358
This desu, I feel like when I try to study I just get fatigued so quickly and need to rest. Then work just builds up and I'm staying up the entire night trying study and catch up, then rinse and repeat. All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy

>look at former friends from high school
>most of them went to vocational schools, got jobs within a year of graduating
>have plenty of disposable income
>stay connected with each other and make friends at work
>look at myself
>depressed, no income and in debt, completely isolated
Why the hell did I go. I knew this would happen, but did it anyway.

>>34577530
fuck why are you so fast? I'm 20 and still have 3 more semester

>only real reason I went to college was to find a girlfriend
>literally haven't talked to a girl once in three years at college
hmmmm kill me

>>34576999
You promised dubs yet descended with trips. I don't like you.

>standing in financial aid line
>there's a couple in front of me
>they must be a new couple
>they keep snuggling and kissing
>hold hands the entire time
>"You're SOOOOOOOO cute!"
>"You're cuter!"
>Doing all this couple shit in front of me
>Get depressed

Most of us will never know that feel

>cant drive
>do online courses
>work part time for money when i want it
life gud

>>34585560

is cs really that hard

>you were born in the worst time in history thus far to go to college
>you all still went
lol

I wasn't able to make any friends my first semester. Second semester now and I'm considering joining anime club but I looked at the facebook pages of some of the members (they have a group set up) and they liked a bunch of entry level shows like Naruto so I don't think I'll fit in. What do.

>>34587445
>anyone that's into anime and vidya is probably a cringy failed normie.
that's literally every CS robot dude

>>34587505
I had a fellow robot friend get into Law school after 2 years of shitty arts

>>34587984
it is

maybe I'm just getting PTSD and anxiety and shit

>>34582362
I'm glad you found happiness man. I'm in a similar situation right now. Shit isn't looking too good for me.

>>34588608
Is CS just a meme? I'm fucking sick of everyone around me, it's so toxic

>>34576891
I dropped from uni officially 2 and a half years ago. I was doing terrible before, I got depressed and became pretty much a NEET with a uni cover, which is kinda ironic as I aced first year so greatly I was called by the teachers early in the next to give a talk to the newcomers about it. Had a fight with my dad and decided it was time to leave, so I used my IT background and got a job.

I want to go back and finish my career desu, but I've lost most of my will to live and give effort to things.

>>34577530
Would you recommend Comp sci? I'm at University of Washington and considering majoring in it.

>tfw fell for the CS meme
>growing toxic everyday

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I'm going off to university in August but I'm worried that shit is gonna be really awkward in the dorms.

I'm transgender and by the time August rolls around I'll be around one year on hormones. I'm already starting to look kinda andro so I think I might be passing as female by the time I end up in the dorms.

Do they put me in the male dorms or the female dorms? What happens if I don't get a single? I'd be uncomfortable with a male or female roommate and I'm sure they'd be uncomfortable as well.

What would you do if you went off to college and you found out your roommate looked and sounded(getting speech therapy) like a chick?

>>34588762
When you registered on your application, you should've marked female or trans/female

>tfw getting sick of university

>>34588793
My mom is really coddle-y and was hovering over me when I filled out my dorm application. I'm not out to her so I had to put male on my application.

>>34588078
go anyway and talk about shows you like. try to find a middle ground between entry level and stuff you like

>>34588814
How have you been on hormones for almost a whole year without your mom knowing or noticing changes, tho

>>34589086
I've been on hormones for 5 months. My mom has commented on my skin being clearer and has been giving me these looks that suggest that she's been noticing me looking more femme but she hasn't called me out yet.

I just have to hide it until August. It's not that weird for a 20 year old to suddenly start looking like a girl right?

I dropped out of college 3 times around my final exams couldn't handle the pressure, I had rl shit going on to add to it, but always felt depressed I missed out on the uni experience.

I'm now approaching my 23rd birthday trying to get into an open uni course

>>34589233
>tfw second year and still no friends

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>>34576891
>almost fuck up my first semester, pull things together at the end and get a 2.91 GPA
>over the break decide I don't want to do the meme degree I signed up for
>I want to make enough money that I answer to no one and can be comfortable
>switch to civil engineering even tho I've never been good at math
>quit all drugs except weed
>study math hours every day
>take first test after studying so much
>get a fucking 70
>meanwhile I've been neglecting all my other classes and doing absolutely horrible in them
>just failed a Chemistry test completely, turned in an almost blank answer sheet
>haven't turned in a single homework assignment for that class either
>tired of female professors who assign piles of fucking homework
>all of it is just tedious busywork
>tired of classes filled with 95% females who have no problem with doing such tedious bullshit and excel as a result
>my only two friends are majoring in Visual Arts
>their classes are so easy
>they keep coming to drag me out into smoking weed and hanging out
>girls don't like me, guys don't respect me, everyone thinks I'm creepy and weird
>don't feel any attachment to parents or family, I'm more of an obligation to them than a son
>feel like my masculinity has been completely stolen from me with no hope of ever returning
>can't bring myself to give a fuck about any of this bullshit
What keeps you guys motivated? I've been on poverty so long. I know money will solve some problems, but it seems like so many hoops of bullshit to jump through and I'm not even sure the end result will make me any happier.

I'm nearly failing a 200 level CS course meant to weed out freshmen. It's so fucking hard senpai. No will to study, and using a programming language not even useful in real life.

>>34589422
I barely made it through discrete math even with a tutor

>>34589171
It is weird, dude, you don't just get androgynous when you're at the peak of your growth.

You should probably tell her; if she's been a good loving mother to you, she deserves to know because your own decision and determination rather than because of circumstances making it impossible to be hidden anymore. There's a difference, and if you're honest and serious about it, she'll notice it. Don't wait for her to ask.

Are any CS robots here familiar with DrRacket? This is one of my core classes and I don't wanna fail :/

These threads are really depressing but also reassuring. It's good to know other people I can relate to exist, but it sucks because none of us go to the same uni and also it seems most of us are having an awful time at life.

Savannah State University here. I want to switch to Georgia State University because I bet there's more robot types there, but it doesn't have any major I want.

>>34584288
I literally only have Asian friends at uni(not actual friends but people I talk to before/after class)

I think I have an unnatural bias towards Asians and I'm not sure why. I wish we could be friends

>>34589446
My mom is kind of a homophobe though and it definitely transfers over to trans stuff.

I don't think she could take me trying on girl clothes and makeup and stuff while I still lived at home. I'd be better if I just waited until I moved out to tell her.

Redpill me on Computer Science. Is it a meme degree? I'm in engineering ATM but considering changing since computers are the only thing I've done with my life. I'm worried the field will be saturated though, considering how many people are probably going into it for the same reason.

>feeling social and outgoing
>decide to spontaneously ask someone to pick a song from my iPod for me to listen to
>he stares at me for a second and says "i dunno" and hands it back, scowling
maybe I'm the autistic one here but I'd think someone would at least give a reassuring smile and hit shuffle

>>34585111
yeah I get asked for spare change 8-9 times a day if I go downtown. I always say "maybe on the way back" but take a different route home.

>completely failed in making friends first year of uni
>currently in second year and thought i had found a safe group
>spend whole of lecture today talking conplete shit about me in whatsapp group and laughing about it
>post picture of teachers pet award "and the award goes to... anon!"
>post picture of dick trophy saying champion on it "here's your award anon!"
>mocking me when the lecturer comes "of course anon knows!"
>taking photos of me in class and posting them
>then they say "it's just banter anon!"

Am I being too sensitive or are they just assholes?

>>34589573
Sounds like complete assholes. People will always use the shield of "joking" to be the remorseless bullies they are. It's human nature and will never change, all you can do is be strong enough to shut them down or target someone else and make them the group bitch.

I can't tell you how many times I felt bad for everyone bullying someone in the group so I defended them, only for the entire group to turn on me, including the person that was initially being bullied.

>>34589573
don't let it get to you lol

>>34589573
just do the same type of banter and see how they respond. like if you know where their dorm/house is then put a sign saying "gay sauna club entrance" or whatever and see how they respond

I would take it as mean spirited but I did know a few people in high school that were friends and did that type of banter. I have a couple of friends back home named Chris and Lucas, Lucas and I mock Chris a lot but we still genuinely like him

>>34589530
I really don't get the CS meme thing, maybe it's because where I'm from it's not such a popular degree - computer engineering is, though. I just got accepted in civil engineering on my first choice, hoping it's less saturated than computer, though the competition was way bigger.
Don't worry a lot about saturation, though, many choose it because it seems easy to get a job and most don't even manage to finish the major - where I live, 45 go in and only about 5-15 make it to the end.

>>34585590
Hopefully it's comfy friendo
What are you doin?

It'seems awful. 25, 2nd year. Started school late.

Completely failed a quiz this morning My insomnia is getting worse and worse. Feel terrible all the time. Stress and depression through the roof.

Taking Calc3, multivariable calc, differential equations, physics lan, and Latin this semester. Live at home and commute to school. Only way I can afford uni. Car is breaking down. No money to fix it. I have a minor back injury that has gotten bad the last year.

Bipolar insane mom comes home and starts fights with me all the time. Then turns around and acts nice the next day. I hear her talking to my stepdad about throwing me out so might be homeless within the month.

Dying here. And I'm KV robot. I just want a degree so I can be independent.

>>34588762
Should become my dormmate and become my cock slut ;)

>>34588762
Ignore them like I would anyone who would be my roomate. As long as they leave me the fuck alone and are quiet and not obtrusive they can expect the same from me. I couldn't give a fuck what they look like or act like. But when you share a private space with someone you leave yourself at the door.

>>34589636
>>34589645

Well ive screenshotted the whole thing and already set up a meeting about it with my tutor and im planning on showing the lecturer i had since we're pretty good friends (my uni is small and the lecturers know everyone).

The lecturers have to give references when we apply for internships/jobs so hopefully this will fuck them over. Silly twats.

Next time i see them just gonna tell them theyre nasty and i dont want to be part of their shit whatsapp group.

>>34588628
I ain't in CS. I'm majoring in accounting. Sometimes I wonder if I should've went into CS because the one CS class I took last semester was the easiest class I've ever taken, even including high school. Just basic python/pygame programming and shit. It seems way better than studying fucking business, that's for sure. For CS, disregarding the toxic people, is the material itself easy?

>>34590142
>For CS, disregarding the toxic people, is the material itself easy?
Nah the second year courses are extremely hard

>>34576891
I'm back in college at 25 getting my second degree because I can't do much with my first one. 2 more years of this at least, is it worth the time really? I'm not super passionate about what I'm doing now but it'll give me more security to get a decent job and move out on my own.

I wanna do so many things right now but I'm not mobile. Living at home when you wanna get out is shit and working 2 days a week at a place you hate to pay for school is a drag.

But then I think I shouldn't complain

>>34589360
I keep going because I don't know what I would do outside of education yet. And I want to make my mother and family proud to say that I have a bachelors degree (not going for a masters, too hard).

>>34590388
what are the degrees?

>tfw anxiety-fueled-procrastination-fueled-anxiety-fueled-procrastination

My brain is shit. SHIT

It's just a small assignment but it's putting me in emotional turmoil for no reason.

>>34590142
Depends on the university I guess, but where I'm at the first year CS courses are easy as hell, but you also need some math classes to graduate which are hell (focused on proofs and theory).

learning to weld fucking sux
I suck so bad & I've never seen the welds broken so idk what a good 1 is

>get a haircut
>it's shit

might have to skive uni now

>>34590736

The reason I never went to trade school is that I have no manual skills at all. If I tried a welding class I'd accidentally stick my foot to my ass somehow.

>>34590774
i'm just doing it to pay for education that actually means something for me

>>34590672
Business law was the first and I'm currently in computer engineering

>>34590079
Nice plan, anon. Fuck over those normies' futures. Let them get what's coming to them.

>inb4 lecturer laughs and says they're just joking

>>34590846

Do all welders conceive siamese twins?

>>34590853
nice
>safe group
anon's the dangerous 1

>>34590879
only the ones that do!
listening to "Real Friends" now

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Has anyone else just given up and embraced tfwnogf?

>>34591656
Pretty much. I just read that 3% of people wait until marriage. I had a chance of having sex and didn't so it would be fair to marry a virgin in the future. Still never marrying a non-virgin I'd rather be single than marrying a slut

>3rd Year
>parents still ask if I've made any friends yet
>EVERY FUCKING CALL
>even after I sperged out last year about them asking this
I'm this close to making up an imaginary friend.

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>tfw dreaming hard about making the next big viral app

>tfw got the idea
>tfw got the skills
>tfw got everything set up

I don't even care if this shit add 20 hours of work in my 50 hr/week, I doing this shit.

Living the dream.

>didn't do my homework because, reasons again

I haven't changed since 4th grade in how much I detest homework.

>>34589556
no you're autistic. nobody asks someone to pick a song for them to listen to. You not knowing that means you are on the scale

>>34591873
just say I've been talking to a group of people in ________ class. That will get them off your back

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>>34576969
>tfw you're a STEM major and don't have to deal with this shit

>>34576999
Plenty of people go their by themselves, anon. Just take your backpack with you and pretend you went on your way home from a class.Also nice trips senpai.

>>34582916
>had a gf
>still a kissless virgin
No anon, you never had a gf.

>Usually finish shit last second because I'm lazy
>Now part of a group and need to work on a group project
>They're meeting up tomorrow to talk about what we've done so far and I'm still busy working on the fucking coursework due tomorrow so I haven't had enough time for that
It's gonna be a big disappointment
I know one of the guys has already finished half of his work on the presentation but the other guy has probably done as little as me

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>>34580095
>wake up early for the half-hour commute
>tfw almost 2 hour commute and too poor for dorm

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>said hi to girl this morning
>she smiled and said good morning
>I didn't turn around to ask her out

I'll never see her again unless she remembers that exact time. FUCKING GODDAMIT I LEARNED MY LESSON.

Hopefully next Thursday she's there

>>34593752
>asking her out on the first time you see her
uhhhhh

>>34593492
Yeah I did have a gf man

>>34593774
have you ever picked up sloots

guess not

>tfw born mentally ill under weird parents
>bullied in my young age
>lived in three countries
>never actually fit in with anyone

>>34593816
why would I pick up sloots man

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>>34593223
>tfw it was a one evening event

>>34592888
its not common to do but its a fun idea
you're autistic if you think normal people get all buttflustered about being interacted with by strangers
the other guy probably felt like a loser for not being able to think of what to pick and beat HIMSELF up over it after

>>34576969
>Not being happy that your professor espouses the glory of the red curtain
Jesus have you tried not being such a casual

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>get forced by friends to get tinder to lose my robot status
>try it out
>first day
>four matches already

I'm on my way out.

>>34576891
Flunked out of university in January. I'm actually happy about it, its a little complicated but basically I'm looking for jobs now, trying to get into a different program somewhere else that I actually want to do and am finally starting to do stuff for myself.
Quit what you don't love,
I'm gonna be alright friends.

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>>34594940
>people say I should download tinder
>requires facebook
>have to take pictures of myself
>have to talk to people
Fuck this shit. I'll be alone for the rest of my life and I don't even mind.

>>34593603

Make a plan of your content and bullshit that you've done this and this, only to do them later.

>saw a girl sketching my face during class
just to be safe i shouldn't ever talk to her, r-right guys

>tfw studying at La Sorbonne
>tfw got a hundred page to write this semester
>tfw no gf

I really hope we're all gonna make it

>>34596309
I wrote a thesis once. The trick is to get a lot of amphetamines and do it on like a friday then edit it a lot.

I have the option to take my exam tomorrow or as a make up on the final exam. Which should I do?

>>34578434
Curious to see the exams you were given. Most don't realize that exam difficulty may vary by a lot between universities

>>34595228
i drew ppl in my classes before when i was extremely bored

>tfw burnt out
>tfw depressed
>tfw nothing to do

>>34577748
Explain archetypes please.

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>>34596850

>tfw things to do but burnt out and depressed

>tfw get huge anxiety because of bureaucratic profs and admin
>spending a day outside made it better

I cannot! Fucking! Stand! All the pretty girls in uni. They are so close, but I have no idea how to get close to any of them. I fucking hate myself.

>>34595158
shit...didn't know you needed fb for that

>2nd year
>still no friends
>can't even make classmates

Are psychiatrists just a fucking meme?

>>34597695
Life is a meme my friend

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>girl said hi to me today...

All I could think of is "YOU BLEW IT" -BILLY MADISON

ALL FUCKING DAY

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m5RtlpXsl8k

I hope I run into her again within the week or else she will get fucked by Chad.

>>34597749
What did you do after she said hi?

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>>34597810
h-hi but it was pretty low. I know she heard me, she smiled. Now the hard part is to run into her again. I didn't even get a good look or the color of her backpack, she was wearing a superman t-shirt

>tfw bell curve graded class
How the fuck is this fair. You have to get above average or you just fail, doesnt matter if you know all the material. Half the class is destined to fail no matter what.

I major in theater at uni, give me it

>tfw therapist tells me I will never have friends
KEK

>>34598417

Why'd he say so?

The only thing I regret about college is all of the "could have had" pussy I passed up because I'm a good looking sperg.

Other than that, I don't feel like I missed much besides some of the harder drugs some of my peers do.

Fuck that shit.

>>34577632
>for robots who dont have schizophrenia

Aww man and i was really liking the advice too

>>34576891

I'm taking a 4000 level course that's basically marxism 101 and I might have to drop it because I understand 40% of what the fuck is going on, and we have a 20 page paper to write in a couple months.

tfw too stupid for english

>>34581875
>I am an atheist...
beware the atheists

What is American university life like these days?

I'm from a small village in Eastern Europe.

I guess what you see in the movies is mostly depicting the late 20th century, is it completely ruined nowadays?