What's giving you that >late night melancholy feel?

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memories of a time when i was truly happy and there was still magic left in the world

and this song

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DxOAVi4JziA

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i want to sleep forever

and dream

about laughing beneath the red lamps
with you
your smile through the haze of cigarette smoke
lingering
like the warmth in your eyes

>>34506697
How old are you anon?

Oregon origami

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Ywn go home to a loving wife, a happy son, and a dog after working a fulfilling job

You will always go home to an empty, trashed motel room that you pay weekly for

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>>34506873
i am 29, i will be 30 in november

and these last years have not been at all kind

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I know that not only do I have absolutely nothing to look froward to this week, but that it's going to be particularly torturous. I'm about ready to fucking kill myself

I'm sorry to hear that. What have the last few years done for you?

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take me back home

Haven't talked to my oneitis in a week. It hurts all I want to do is to talk to her and cuddle with her. Her and I sort of had a thing but now she's moved on to my friend, more than likely whoring herself out to him. Not 100% sure but it seems likely.

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>>34506952

failure to find a good job even with a master's degree

worsening anxiety and depression

psych ward visits

on and off SSRI's

on and off alcohol

living at home

>>34506926
What's coming up next week?

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It's the finals and I have no desire to study, on top of that I can't really drop any more classes this semester since I already have enough that I didn't pass.

>>34506994
I know the feeling, anon. It fucking sucks. Maybe try to take break from both of them for a while to heal up?

>>34506333
It's not late night yet where I'm at, but I got that feel.

I can't get the energy up to make the short film I've been dying to make for a couple months now because I feel like I'm gonna fuck it up. I feel like I haven't planned enough, I haven't storyboarded anything, I don't even have a shot list or schedule down.

I can't convince myself that this is just a dumb joke script and that it doesn't matter how good it is, so long as I get it done.

I feel really shitty beyond that as well but that's my major bullshit right now.

>>34507031
I am trying to transfer a bunch of classes in to this college I go to, but to do that I need to get a bunch of professors to sign some forms. So I need to track them down and ask them to sign the forms. I have absolutely fucking terrible crippling social anxiety and I'm scared to death to go find these people. I've already been putting it off for two months but if I do it any longer I might have to pay a lot of extra tuition money. I have some other people to meet with about my grades, too. And I know I have a lot of homework to do which scares me because I've basically never done any homework before in my life (I failed out of college for that in the past)

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>>34507070
Haven't seen them in over a week. She sent me some really nasty texts the other night, so I don't think I'm in any position to text her back or anything. If she wants to make amends then that's all on her although It might be best to keep her out of my life for good.

>mfw shes been posting really slutty pics of her self on social media

>>34506995
Man that's hard and pretty relatable but to a lesser degree. I wish the best of luck for you in the future anon, we can struggle together.

>>34506333
Realising how truly retarded the majority of people in my classes are.

Talking to them about politics is like talking to 4 year olds.

It quite honestly makes me sad knowing I am in the same classes as these people, and furthermore knowing these kinds of people are the majority in society.

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will the sadness go away...?

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>went on a date
>couldnt maintain eye contact/started too long
>couldnt keep a steady convo going
>she seemed disappointed
>i was nervous and it was obvious
>tfw the only way i can get a gf is to have a long term relationship with a girl willing to put up with my socially inept ways
>tfw ill never be able to go on a date and just enjoy it
>tfw not normal

>>34507084
Hmm I know how you feel. Insecurity about creativity is frustrating. What I found helps is to skip straight to making something and cross bridges when you come to them instead of over thinking everything. Film isn't my field though so I may be chatting shit.

>>34507108
Jesus that's grim. Hope you manage it.

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Suicide is seeming like more and more of a good idea.

For as long as I remember I've been depressed, but not really suicidal. Nothing has ever gone my way, but only recently has it become apparent that life will not get any better, only much worse.

>failing all uni courses
>had to quiet job due to anxiety
>all friends live far away and don't care for me
>girls never even thought of me
>oneitis has pretty much made it clear she doesn't love me or even care for me

These are all relatively small problems, but they pile up and can't really ever be solved. Nothing makes me happy anymore and there is no purpose in my existence. If I kill myself I only save my self from who knows how many more years of suffering. I just want to be a kid again.

>>34507173
>went on a date
>not normal
stop trying so fucking hard normalfag

>>34507123
Sounds like she's feeling insecure and wants some sort of positive feedback. If she's been shitting on you in the process though, don't be the one to give it to her though, it will probs make her more toxic.

>>34507173
Well you're a bigger man than I. Just the thought of going on a date makes me shit bricks

>>34507294
Really don't know what to do. I want things to go back to the way they were and i kinda wanna just start over with her. But at the same time things are fucked up and think it would be in my best interest to never speak to her again. She loved playing with my emotions. Also watching her flirt with my "friend" in front of me really ticked me off.

>>34507289
talking online and irl are two whole different worlds

>>34507249
I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm a completely dysfunctional human being, if you could even count me as a human. I wish I were dead

>>34507251
I don't know much context about your life but in an ideal world, I'd say it might be good to make a big change in your life. Like moving to a different city or trying to get a job that's different to what you'd normally go for.

We are made of sex :/ I wanted something more.....

>>34507289
Yeah from what I'm hearing I think it would be best to cut her out. Sounds like a classic case of manipulative girl preys on kind person.

>>34507154
I feel you, anon... I really do. But let us all die in our own way

>>34507369
Don't see it so seriously. If you fuck up, try to laugh at yourself instead of beating yourself up.

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Thinking about how insignificant i am in the universe.

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Idk why but at night I always feel a bit more insecure about myself and my future, but at the same time I feel calm and accepting, like everything doesn't matter or will work out in the end. Anyone else know this feel?

>>34507498
Doesn't that give you more freedom to do what you want with your life?

>>34507498
think about life in more of a microscopic level. all the bacteria living in your tummy and intestine really do think you matter.

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2016 was an absolute shitfest for my life. I thought it was my year of growing into a happier person.

I'm scared of what 2017 has to offer. I don't want to live a long life of misery.

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BW3gKKiTvjs
>ywn date Kate Bush in her prime
>ywn be her Heathcliff and let her through the window
I legitimately think about this daily

>>34507569
Putting deadlines on happiness is self destructive. I do it a lot and it just makes you feel worse when you don't meet the goals.

anyone else look back at the past at cringe

>11th grade
>guy who sits next to me and this one hot girl and one other guy says he has naked pictures of her he'll show me sometime
>one day its just me and that girl
>tell her because i wouldnt like anyone talking about me or sending pictures me without me knowing it, just as a heads up
>next time in class she tells him hes full of shit and tells him he doesnt have any pictures of her
>awkaward as balls
>obviously i said something
>everything goes back to normal but months later she is showing off pictures of her having a threeway with her boyfriend and some girl to all three of us
>realize shes a hoe

should i feel like an idiot for that? i thought i was just being nice. its been three years ago but occasionally ill think about it sometimes but its usually before i go to bed

Lol that doesn't sound too bad. Some would see it as white knighting but hoes will be hoes

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>>34507614
Yeah it sucks. Sadly, I am driven by goals.

Anyone else having some Misaki feels tonight?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Eht8_rhVMOs

>>34506333
Because I know that no matter how determined I am I wont be able to get up for these lectures tomorrow and I'll end up dropping out of uni

>>34507493
But I'm completely useless. I can't even talk to anyone but my parents. What am I supposed to do when they die? I'm just a waste of air

>>34507398
Thanks for the response. Very often I dream of just dropping everything in my life and leaving everyone behind. I am still somewhat young though, and depend on my family for a lot of things and I don't know if I'd be able to survive without them. But then again, it doesn't seem like I can survive much longer like this either.
>>34507508
I love night time. It is much more comforting then during the day since I don't have the constant anxiety that I should be doing something.

>>34506333
Mostly unstable/unforseable future and current shit i have to deal with. currently its if i should leave school and what would happen if/when i do.

>>34507810
The fact that you think you're a waste of air is probably a major part to why you're shy. I know it's really hard but try to think the person you're talking to finds the conversation super mundane and ordinary. That's a good base to stop yourself from worrying that they're thinking negatively of you. Obvs it's easier said than done.

I remembered life is really short and ends

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>>34506333
it's not unusual that i go to sleep in the afternoon and wake up with anxiety and sadness. tonight was one of those nights, i've been trying to cool my jimmys ever since.

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Thinking about how my ex gf cuddled and "watched a movie" with my best friend while I drank and played video games. She told me she was "going to her girl friends house".

>>34507852
Yeah, if you're considering suicide you're saying you have nothing (or very little) to lose, meaning taking a leap is a comparatively safe option.

I slept in too much and I'm not gonna get to watch all the anime I wanted to unless I stay up until 2 or 3 AM
I have to work at 8 tomorrow

>>34507877
By school do you mean highschool or like college/uni?

>>34507958
Yeah but at least you broke up with her anon.

What if you were submissive and didn't. Your life could be so much worse.

>>34507958
That's fucked, I feel your pain.

>>34507925
I know, and I try to do that but just knowing that people are looking at me and listening makes my mind go blank and I forget everything I need to say, even though it's unimportant and nobody cares

>stuck in such a rut
>stuck living home because I have a seasonal position at work, and usually get laid off for like 5 months
>year-round position opened up and I bid on it, but I know I won't get it because a lady with more seniority than me bid on it
>even though I'm a way better worker than her, that doesn't matter
>want to leave my job and find something better, but I have 6 years invested in this company, and I have no idea what else I'd like to do
>didn't talk to oneitis for about 5 weeks because I blocked her after she sent me a messed up message
>caved and unblocked her and we've been talking a bit since
>the only time she really talks to me is late at night because she's probably doing better stuff during the day
>want to keep talking to her, but at the same time I know it's no good for me

Right now I'm pretty tired and I just want to go to sleep so I can get out of this world for a few hours, but my sleep schedule is so fucked that I know I won't be able to stay asleep for long. I'll wake up at like midnight wide awake and I'll be up until like 7am.

Oneitis texts me at late night sometimes, I like to imagine she's not happy with her boyfriend and imagines what being with me would like.

>>34507598
For whatever reason I listened to this song on loop until 12 am during election night and whenever someone brings up either Wuthering Heights or election night they are the first things that come into my head.

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>>34507173
>Never been on a date before
>Never kissed
>Actually have touched tits, ass, ECT.
>Didn't used to have social anxiety, only grows stronger with time
>Depression growing as well, don't know what to do with my life
>Trying to just get a girl to notice me in a nonweird way doesn't happen
>All my conversation starters are Holocaust jokes and edgy pol memes
>Pretty much great for anything but getting girls interested in you
>Can't go to college parties, hate social degeneracy
>Sit at home and build circuits, vacuum chambers, and other extremely unusual hobbies
>People think I'm a genius (I'm not, just like doing stuff I think is cool) but never want to talk to me
>Have managed to go through an entire semester without talking to anyone in my classes
>Have acne(finally has started clearing up in last few weeks) that occurs unrelated to my hygiene.
>Acne pretty much kills what very little confidence I have
I just want this social autism to stop. I have been ravaged so many times emotionally before that I can't feel much good anymore, and the not being able to feel is what hurts the most.

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>>34508009
>>34508014
It is horribly painful. Now I don't have my gf or even my fucking best friend from elementary school to hang out with. How can people be so heartless?
reeeeeeee
>tfw even my ree has become melancholy

>>34508049
Feeling loyalty to a company you work for is asking for trouble imo. Also your oneitis situation sounds like its getting sour. Maybe it's time to move on from both of you can.

>>34508049
In a similar oneitis situation as you, except I haven't talked to her. She may be fucking one of my friends now

Most likely gonna fail my studies.

No motivation for studying because depression and anxiety fucks me over whenever I actually attend shit

Quit my job for same reasons so have no money.

Lack of social skills so no gf, and friends have just stopped talking to me altogether unless they want something from me.

I have nobody to talk to

>>34508177
No friends or just no one you feel you can properly talk to?

>>34508173
Have you tried medication? What country are you in?

>>34506995
you are me - to the age, to the education

>>34508247

The latter. I have "friends" at school, but it's just that, at school. I can't see myself opening up to anyone

It's a rare night where I get a late night contentness instead

>>34506333
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hW2vyytxCGM

listening to music, bereft of distractions, when the reality of things sets in

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>spend all week praying for the weekend to come sooner
>spend all weekend doing absolutely nothing
>repeat ad mortuum

>>34508113
You should try to find some weed or xanax. Might as well have fun by yourself if not with anyone else.

>>34508284
Britfag, and waiting on medication now.

Put up with it for a few years but finally had a breakdown four odd months ago, where I just didn't go outside until about a month ago.

Still have another four months or so until treatment though, not enjoying the waiting.

>job hunting for a year
>turn down ok job interview because its 2 hours away

>>34508676
I got Prozac from the NHS last may and it's really helped me. Good luck with getting meds

>>34507173
lol, we are of the same breed anon
Went on a date last night and was
>literally
>shaking
so badly that I couldn't drink my drink.
We did end up making out at my place at the end of the night then. Being naturally handsome is pretty great.

>>34506955
I know that feel, biggest regret in life was not moving to Japan when I had the chance.

>>34508428
iktf anon, I have no one I feel comfortable enough with to talk to. I never have. It's horrible.

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>>34508079
I'm still listening to it on repeat so you're not alone

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NEETbux won't pay for my dreams

>>34506333
My life is so pointless. I have no relationship, no reason to be here. It's so mundane and repetitive, and I'm stuck like this. I just fucking want out of this hostile, lonely world.

>>34509145
had a thread about this yesterday, nobody here has someone to talk

>>34507958
I don't let much bother me, but I think I would go fucking insane with rage if my best friend and gf did something like this. It's just so fucked that the both of them could do that to you. Cut them both off forever.

I sincerely hope things get better.

I have goals and dreams but realize that I cannot accomplish any of those things while I am alive.
It feels like I can see where I am going to end up and I am completely unhappy with my destination.
I feel someone is grabbing my heart every time I see or think other people doing the things I want to do. I know this is childish but I can't get rid of this feeling no matter what I do.

>>34507154
they feel the same way about you, if that helps :)

i dont even know whats making me feel miserable anymore. i just kinda grew into it and lost sight of the source.

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i'm realizing that there is a very high probability that i am going to let myself and everyone else down, as well as amount to nothing in the long run.

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I felt for a girl and have no courage to aproach her because every time I go for a girl I fail

Cuba is under communist oppression
The Romanovs are dead
The Muslim invasion can't be stopped

Oh, and I want to kill myself and all that. But I'm really feeling a more "global-tier" melancholy right now.

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I'm living alone in a new city in an empty, furnitureless apartment, and I'm barely breaking even each month because of how expensive this city is.

I wish I'd never left the last city I lived in, I wish I had tried harder to find a job there, and I wish I had someone to cuddle with.

At least I have my cat...

Can you robots post some good melancholic music I can listen to in the dark to drown out the traffic outside my window?

Girl I've had a weird history with came over to the place I love as my roommates we're having a party. I fucking hate the feelings she makes me feel. She acts like she likes me so much but I know we'll never date and other guys drool over her. Idk why one of the only girls I've had feelings for has to be so attractive as well... I'm not even the type of guy who cares that much about looks in a girl. It's more about her personality and how she makes me feel. It's fucking pathetic, I'm depressed and it makes me realize how really alone I will one day be

>>34506333
>she's a thousand miles away in state care
>when I want to message her she's never able to talk
>when she wants to message me I'm never able to talk
>I can't find the balls to vocalize my feelings or face my family with them knowing I love this girl like nothing else
>I don't even know if I could help her if I did

I drink a lot.

the neet, basement dweller feels, you wouldn't understand

im usually numb to things but tonight i'm just thinking about how ive been alone my entire fucking life. i'll be 30 in a few months. what the fuck kind of life is this to live

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>18
>everyone is hooking up and planning college and summer trips
>kids going into the medical field, engineering, and other worthwhile shit
>kids going to exotic places for spring break and their gap years
>I'm working and going to trade school instead of college


People tell me that it's good that I'm doing trades and talk about the "job security" and "opportunity for growth" I'll have, but I can't help but feel like a simpleton who is too dumb for college.

I also feel like I'll be staying in the same depressing cycle for the foreseeable future. I'm young, but I already feel like I've wasted my youth.

I could write a whole paragraph of self-deprecation, but the whole "future" thing is hitting me like a freight train tonight.

>>34506333
I mostly read love stories for feelings these days, I've given up on reality. I just feel numb at this point, it feels like I'm watching someone else. Every time I look in the mirror I wonder who the person is on the other side

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>>34506333
>start talking to girl from here about various subjects
>she says things I think/agree with before I say them
>enjoying talking to her
>we move to email
>talk some more, she has even more in common with me
>seems to enjoy talking to me, I enjoy talking with her
>suddenly she stops replying
>5 days since last reply
>but why

>>34509853
the uncertainty is the worst of it. I have no idea why she stopped replying, if I knew why I could at least make peace with what happened.

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>every attempt at making friends fails
>clearly no one likes me and im a fucking loser
>wont try anymore, prefer loneliness at this point
>cant feel a damn thing
>stopped caring for everything
>what is the point

>>34509879
The sad thing is that's how most girls are...they tend to avoid confrontation and just cut you off completely instead of at least giving you closure.

>Meet a cool girl but she lives 4 hours away so you don't get to see each other often so you keep it casual
>She meets another guy who lives like 10 minutes from her
>Says I'm still number one but I know how this shit goes

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listening to old russian new wave songs and smoking cigarettes

>>34507162

For a little while. Then it comes back with a better plan of attack.

Thinking about dropping out of uni. Got no friends. No job. No hobbies. Can't drive. Every night I feel like crying myself to sleep but just end up laughing to myself at how fucked everything is. I can't sleep, this feeling of sadness gets me right in my core.

>it's another "anon acquires romantic attraction towards one of his close friends" episodes

>>34509933
why can't I just have a single fucking girl who enjoys talking to me dammit

>>34509935
>Says I'm still number one but I know how this shit goes
drop this thot, you dont want a girl like this

>>34509839
Have you real Elective Affinities by Geothe or Spring Torrents by Turgenev anon? Both are good love stories. First Love is another good one by Turgenev.

>>34509983
If a girl is going to just cut you off from her life like that then you deserve better and the issue was probably with her as opposed to something you did wrong. You'll find someone eventually, as long as you keep trying.

>>34509983
I mean it's not really something I can just demand, but surely there are girls out there who are also lonely who have similar interests to me?

reeeeee

>>34510034
I know, I'm not giving up. Still, the search is frustrating. And not knowing what if anything went wrong is extremely frustrating.

>>34506333
I'd listen to the words he'd say,
But in his voice I heard decay,
The plastic face forced to portray,
All the insides left cold and grey.

There is a place that still remains,
It eats the fear, it eats the pain,
The sweetest price he'll have to pay,
The day the whole world went away.

>went on a first date with a girl over a month back
>thought it went well, had fun, etc
>when I asked her to hang out again a couple of times she gave standard "busy" excuses
>accept that she's not into me, move on, don't think about it for a month. no big deal
>two days ago she texts me out of the blue asking if I want to hang out saturday
>cautiously say yes
>not feeling too jazzed going into the date, still pretty sure she's not into me
>spend the whole night second guessing myself and everything I do
>pull up outside her apartment to drop her off
>all I can think to myself is "when the fuck did I become so bad at this?"
>assume this will be the last time we talk
>next thing I know she's leaning in and kissing me
>"good night anon"
>oh shit, was not expecting that
>drive of feeling pretty good for the first time in awhile
>this morning, having breakfast with my roommate who works with her
>the date comes up and I mention how confused I am
>he tells me that after our first date, she told him that she likes me, but sees me as someone she would end up in a relationship with and doesn't want a relationship right now
>well, there goes that fleeting moment of happiness
Why would she even ask me out again, much less kiss me, if that's how she's feeling? I fucking hate feelings.

i loved her so much and now she's gone
it's always because of me.
always.
i hurt her but she comes back to me every time
because for a girl who used to not believe in love,
she does it better than anyone i've ever met.

i constantly wonder if she's thinking about me,
but i'd be lying if i said i deserved even a minute of her time.
she's so fucking talented it hurts,
and when she would talk to me i felt like
i could never tell her anything new
because she knows more than any professor i've ever had.

she is not thinking about me.
and if she is thinking about me,
i hope it's about how shitty of a person i am.
a girl as intelligent and incredible as her should not be
giving monsters like me second chances.

>>34506333
To be perfectly frank OP, I'm not sure why. It's 4am here and I can't sleep, I have to be up in 4 hours.

Things are looking up for me too. I've landed myself a job that I start on the 1st. My music production has improved and people are showing an interest. To top it all off I might be getting laid in February. For the first time, that is.

But, as I lay here, "I can still feel the hollowness inside of my heart. And it's all, right where it belongs."

The only thing that filled it was while I was reading. In the novel the protagonist recalled some features of his childhood. And it sparked a memory in me.

I was laying on my mums bed. Her room is neural, nothing of interest in there. It's calm and safe. It was summer. I was watching her white netted curtains blow in the calm breeze, utterly at peace.

The sounds of Childhood summer filled me and a great sense of desperation welled up inside me. Like a howl or wail of a scared, trapped animal.

And now my stomach feels desolate. I'm empty again. Just a whimper.

Alone.

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>>34510331
CRAWLING IN MY SKIN


THESE ORIGINAL WOUNDS WILL NOT HEAL

>>34506333
>dont have the balls to kill myself
>have to work to support a mediocre life, and wait millions of moments until my death
>don't enjoy anything except solitary vidya and sculpting/painting, but not exceptionally good at anything

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>>34506333
Listening to
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9K7rmxjk5RQ
while obsessing over my oneitis.
>tfw I think about her so much and she probably doesn't even remember I exist

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re-reading punpun again

nothing hits the spot like coming of age media, makes me want to kill myself in the best way

>>34510760
Drive is my all-time favourite film, anon.

You ever hear the story about the Scorpion and the Frog?

I kind of want a bf but I'll never be happy with one because I can't connect to people emotionally and because I get sick of people a lot

just want someone to hold hands with or cuddle or kiss and go out for coffee/dinner with

maybe if I were prettier I'd be able to get one

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>>34510838
i was severely depressed for months the first time i read through punpun

Imagine swimming as far as you can until your arms and legs just give out, your whole body is exhausted and you're just gasping for air, but instead you begin sinking into the black depths of the vast ocean and every time you struggle to inhale you suck in briny seawater. The last stings your eyes. You're choking on water and you feel the claustrophobic cloying sensation of not being able to breathe. You struggle in terror for what seems like an eternity until your brain finally begins to die from the lack of oxygen and you lose consciousness.

>not having mentally unstable dark eyed and dark haired gf to lie to and say 'things will be okay'

thats whats gettin me

>>34510882
It's one of mine, too, it's one of the very few movies I gave enough of a shit about to actually buy.
>tfw I'll never invite her over to watch it with me

>>34510893
You sound like my ex.

She went through like three other dudes after me, all lasting around a month. She just gets bored easily.

But, she was immature. So, she maybe just needs to live a little before settling.

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I'm not happy as a girl and thinking of myself as a girl or seeing my body makes me nauseous and dissociate but I don't want to be a freak

>>34510966
I know that feel bro. I'm in the process of getting girl over. We might watch it. She needs to see it.

What's preventing you?

>>34510898
me too

the family dog i grew up with had to be put down yesterday and it kind of finalized the end of my youth (i'm 19), which is the strongest theme i remember from punpun

>>34511017
>What's preventing you?
Her boyfriend and my social autism. I don't look like Ryan Gosling so I can't pull it off.

>>34511019
I've been thinking a lot in those terms too, lately.

Watching all the old childhood 'Consistents' either fade or decay.

How long until it's all gone?

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>>34510331
>The sounds of Childhood summer
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cbyyq8IuaX4
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dJSs51NsyYI
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vhkYvaSC1q4

>>34510990
noone gives a shit about ftms

mtfs are the real degenerates

>>34511055
Ahahaha true enough.

Do you feel the same way I do during the 'elevator scene?' I get so engrossed in it. An intense desire for that. (except the head stomping)

>>34511099
Precisely those! Ahaha thanks, anon.

Though, I'm English so mine are kind of variants of those. But the sentiment remains the same.

One sound I used to enjoy that has since vanished is a chain that secured a security camera banging against a lamp post.

On a Sunday, the streets were quieter than usual, n ot sure why. But the silence gave room for the sound to travel. And the dry summer almost coloured the sound.

You ever notice sounds sound different in differing seasons?

Another biggie: distant children playing in a the street.

>>34511119
I do get a weirdly cathartic feeling from it, come to think of it.

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just left a MC pug

I am not conencting with any of the guilds or people I have joined

I miss my old guildies

Fuck blizzard and fuck wrath

I fell for the meme and finally got me some oats.

Feeling a lot of nostalgia for the early days of Roblox recently. It's changed too much in the 7 years since I last played.

>>34508449
Nice, me too. I got ghosted by the oneitis yesterday but it feels good that I actually grew the balls to make a move, and now I'm certain I have no chance, so I can move on.

>>34509681
I know this thread already has a lot of music in it, but here's something I like to listen to.

https://wenzlmcgowen.bandcamp.com/album/mind-beyond

It's by the saxophonist from a band that puts out mostly very energetic music, so the depth and lyricism of his solo work really impresses me.

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>>34506333

listening to music from 10 years ago

I thought I had my whole life ahead of me

>>34511202
>distant children playing in a the street.
I noticed that they don't do this anymore. They play app and online games now. There used to be a basketball court in every other driveway now there's none. Streets look depressed and lonely,parks are empty.

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They're gone. The Bolsheviks murdered them.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z7aayeV2WrE

And not just them, either. The Habsburgs, the Hohenzollerns, the Qing, the uncucked USA, the possibility for a free Cuba...it's all gone. The fucking commies and their jew banker friends destroyed it. I hate them all so much.

How autistic and socially inept I am and how I'm always able to embarrass myself on a day basis.

How I'm not maturing like people my age.

>>34512029
It's not gone.

True elites still exist.

We could bring it all back.

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>wagecucking earlier
>mostly outside job, snowy cold area
>Usually fine with a hoodie and another jacket layered
>Go home
>feel lightheaded, back hurts, cant stop shaking, feel cold everywhere, coughing and have a raspy feeling deep in my throat, etc.
>have three relatively important assignments due for tomorrow for college
>"No exceptions"

To top it off I was late by 6 or so hours for work today because I thought I had a different shift, I'm on my last write-up, and I've only done one assignment so far. I like to think I try and do my best, but I fuck up so much.

>>34511997
This is so fucking true and so fucking depressing.

All the games we played, some of which were made up! Did you ever play freepod? That was the shit.

Life's different now. Defibately a tint of grey.

It's like a loss of innocence. Which I realise is subjective and really just indicative of my own age.

But fuck man.

This is why I listen to boards of canada so much.

>Hating everyone I talk to
No matter what I say, its wrong and something I get teased about. .

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>>34512112
>This is why I listen to boards of canada so much

Very true, I absolutely love Boards of Canada for the memories their music induces for me. Some of their songs make me feel as happy as I remember being as a kid. The Few Old Tunes tapes especially make me feel so nostalgically happy.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XnT66FHapqM

>>34512452
Hey! Glad I'm not the only BoC fan here.

For me though, to really get those Nostalgia juices flowing I listen to Nothing Is Real.

Does it for me everytime.

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>>34506333
I haven't had friends in ages, and while I'm constantly working my ass off, I'm too poor to be able to even feed myself.

>>34509816
Don't worry about not going to college man, it's one big waste of time and money.

I put 4.5 years in, and I've got one semester left. All I can think about is how much college ruined my life. I've hated what I've been doing these past 4 years, and I'm gonna have to get a job doing what I hate to pay back the education I won't use.

>>34506333
That unyielding feeling that I'm punching below my weight and don't stack up to where I should be in life by now.

I think we made a huge mistake with trump, like a mega fuck up.

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>>34506333

Memories of the 90s and the early 2000s. Memories of a time where it still seemed like there was hope.