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>>34404674
>be me
>19
>bi, but only into feminine boys and traps
>have no irl friends
>i do martial arts and the people there are good people and stuff but don't really relate to them, been there for 3 years and never went out with anyone as friends
>only friend i have online happens to also be my 3rd grade cousin
>when we were little we played together all day doing all sort of things
>he is 2 years older than me, and when i was 8 years old his parents went to greece so they took him with them
>when i was 12 my parents came to italy and left me with my grandmother home in romania to finish my middle school there
>came to italy to start highschool here, knew only one word in italian so i never managed to make any friends
>learned italian all by my own an managed to talk and write pretty good after 2 years
>never went out with any class mates
>never had a gf even tho some girls showed interest in me i never felt anything for them and didn't want to get with them knowing that i would feel nothing for them
>going to uni now, still haven't talked to anyone and made no friends

i just want someone to hug anons :( i like being alone but i would trade it for a person to be affective with anytime, don't know for how much more i can handle it anons

>>34405240
I'm 28 and I still wonder how I keep handling the lack of intimacy. We're in completely different bags though my friend. For the last seven years having friends kept me from going crazy probably.

>>34404674
>>34405240
>bi, but 99% into men
>bi, but only into feminine boys and traps

There's a better word for this. It's called "homosexual"

>>34405439
Not all bi people have same sexual preferences.

>>34404674
just hurry up and off yourself you faggot

>>34405458
If you're """"""bi"""""" and only crave cocks and men, that's just straight up gay, you retarded faggot

>>34405484
Why do you have a need to define sexuality of other people? I'm not closeted gay. I'd rather be full blown gay than bi any time of the day. But I can't change my sexuality.

>>34405482
lmao

>>34405538
>Why do you have a need to define sexuality of other people?

I don't, you're the one contradicting yourself. Being only into men isn't bi, no matter how much you claim to be both

>>34405575
I have incorrectly represented my sexuality in green text, just so I needn't explain in details why I'm bi, but not interested in having relationship with women. I'm like 4 on kinsey scale, and from time to time I even watch lesbian porn.

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>start going to therapy and seeking medication
>since then my depression and anxiety has increased dramatically
>my heart is physically strained from all of this

>>34405752
:(
Why did they increase?

>>34405804
I don't know. My first session I cried for the first time in about a year. Since then i've been oscillating from being numb around others to being a complete mess when i'm alone.

I'm suspicious that this girl(really close friend) that I also like a lot and have hooked up with a bunch of times is banging one of our friends. I don't have proof and can just be over thinking it. Should I ask her? Or is that beta?

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Death is my boyfriend

>>34405903
I could never go a session at therapist without crying. I wish you all best anon

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>>34405989
At least post the non-meme version

>>34406619
but i made this meme version myself