>tfw forgot how happiness feels like

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>tfw will never know what happiness feels like

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You now look at happy people like they're aliens

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Tfw after i got up i was literally almost immediately told to "go and look for a new family and piss off" besides also having been massively physically threatened and gaslighted over nothing (the whole situation was basically a setup but i was cast as guilty regardless like always)

Anyone else here the scapegoat in a "family" of origin that hates your guts/doesn't love you and actively fights you during sudden unpredictable mentally ill eruptions of hate directed against you?

Like i can stomach the usual passive-agressive signalling and easily deniable dismissal meant to make you feel like a piece of shit but when they start to physically and emotionally abuse you over many years in this manner and try to shock you into submission by threatening to disown you along with massively insulting you over nothing it's just on a whole nother level and quite hard to stomach especially when you don't have any person of reference outside this dysfunctional nexus and it's your abusers' word against yours (who of course outwardly try to always present themselves as the martyrs who can do no wrong)

>tfw depression setting in but happiness is recent enough to not forget the feeling

no please

no no
no

please

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considering suicide honestly..