What are some of the feels you are having anon? Let it al out here.

>>34324287
broke up with le gf of over one year.
>feels bad man

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The fact that I can't fuck her cause she has a boyfriend

want to just like comfy in bed for the rest of the weekend

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I don't really give a shit about not having a girlfriend. I don't know if it hasn't hit me yet, but I just get annoyed at the thought. Do I get lonely, sure, but sometimes interacting with people is exhausting. I enjoy my me time.

I just want to live my life, then die.

>>34324287
I had a chance to be with this girl in high school and I fucked it all up.
She was skinny but had a nice ass and little tits, I like little tits a lot, she worse plain black clothes, not band tshirts and emo shit just plain solid black, and she played an old fat Nintendo DS in class every day.
None of the teachers ever stopped her, I have no idea why.
I don't know if she had any friends, but she didn't sit with anyone at lunch and I never saw her talking to anyone.
I wanted that shit so bad.
This was before gurlgamerz were all over the place, so to me it was just this silent Bob scary gamer chick that no one had claims on.
I saw girls try to bully her twice, and one time, she said nothing, spit in one of the girls' faces and just walked away. The other time, I don't know what happened, I got that weird sort of nervous feeling watching and left.
I could have been with her.
And I fucked it all up.
I didn't want to be her boyfriend because I thought I would get bullied for being associated with her, and high school was already hard for me.
So I asked her if she wanted to be my friend with benefits.
I just went up to her at lunch and I said, "Hey. You wanna be my friend with benefits?"
I had never spoken to her before.
I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me.
She looked at me like I took a shit on the table, and got up and left.
And I never spoke to her again, except for once last year.
I've never had a girlfriend.
I could have picked myself up a skinny, spooky, nintenyearold when she was a tight little 14 year old, and I fucked it all up.
I fucked my whole life up.
I'm never gonna get that kind of a chance again.
She's still out there playing Nintendo and being a virgin with no boyfriend.
I bit the bullet and messaged her last year when I read that Switch was coming out, and I thought maybe she would like that, so I sent her a link and asked her if she'd heard about it.
And she responded later with, "Yeah, thanks though."
I want to die sometimes.

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Last night I had mutual oral sex with an american girl who seems really into me.

I mean. I really like her. She sucks dick like there's gold at the bottom.

But I am almost 100% sure she's crazy. I get that vibe off her. She's non-demoninationally religous for one.

I guess my feel is I am not sure whether to stick my dick in potential crazy.

>>34324617
If she already sucked your dick, if she's crazy, then it's too late.
That counts as a commitment to them
You'd might as well have fun as logn as you can, cuz if you're fucked, you're fucked

>>34324287
Mood swings. One moment I believe I will have a successful music career, find someone I love, have a ton of kids, and die surrounded by my loved ones... the next moment I want to join the 27 Club.

>>34324287
Why can't I just force myself to do class work, I'm putting it off and off and off but I have no legitimate excuse besides the fact that doing it isn't what I want to do.

Why am I so fucking stupid, why am I controlled by things like what I "want" to do and what I'm forced to do by external factors? Why is it so painful and boring whenever I try to force myself to do something productive?

girl i really like got a boyfriend but still tagged me in a post in normie book. i really like her, i thought she liked me, yet i still did nothing about it.

>>34324688
I don't think I have the self control not to fuck her after muh more of this. So I guess I am along for the ride.

Never done this before. Hopefully my life doesn't end up too destroyed.

>>34324617
crazy hole > no hole
you will regret not sticking your dick in it, go for it.

>>34324753
I can already tell it will be life changing, hopefully in a good way. She is into me and enthusiastic which is new. I am by no means experienced but most of my experiences have had an air of reluctance about them. Nice to be called attractive in the heat of the moment.

>>34324812
Everyone I've talked to has said all girls are crazy, so fuck it. Set yourself a good foundation before getting into this. (particularly with self image)

What exactly do you define as "crazy" anyway? What have you noticed so far?

Mum's just got back from her night out. She's brought a man back. I can hear them kissing and whispering. FFS. Her headboard backs against the other side of mine behind the wall. I just don't want to hear them.

>>34324937
She is strong about her faith but has no worries in hooking up with me. She has, in her own words, a tendency to 'run away' where she'll get on a train and disappear for days at a time.

Maybe I am projecting my insecurities- You must be crazy to be into me, right? But something about her, her vibe, her intensity... It is hot as fuck but also scary. Like she could flip easily.

>>34325145
Stop being a faggot and jerk off to your mum getting pounded.

>>34325115
I have been here for 9 years and this is he most pathetic thing I have ever read. Fucking pedophile, why wait? Just kill yourself now and get it over with

>>34324714
Because it's bullshit, that's why. Every fiber of your being is telling you this.

I'm HUNGRY

fuck this diet

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>>34324287
I saw all this stuff about people in the march today, and it got me thinking.

This kind of thing (marching, protesting, trying to create a change) is something I've always loved. I remember back in sophomore year of high school I was really into Les Miz (the broadway show because I'm a piece of shit), and I remember saying "I want to be a revolutionary".

That idealism has followed me for years, but I'm realizing now that I couldn't be a revolutionary. I'm too obsessed with being comfortable, I don't do anything to change. I still live with my mom even though she wants nothing to do with me anymore. I go to college because the alternative is just not going to college, and my lack of a work ethic reflects that. There's no attempts at following through on actually making films as I claim I'm desperate to do, what I want to do for a living. I'm just a squishy ball of stagnation.

I can't be a revolutionary if I can't even fight for myself.

>>34324287
feeling dumb for months despite previously being considered an intellectual of sorts beforehand

>>34325285
I don't know what else to do and I don't know how to make myself care. People like me probably shouldn't even be alive but I'm afraid of dying.

>>34325409
I'm at the same place anon, and I've been lying to everyone that I'm progressing even though I am not. Can't imagine what will happen when the lies crumble.

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>>34324287
I'm doing well at work and it seems as if everyone in my life loves me
But what if they knew that I had a paraphilia and OCD and spend every waking moment obsessing over fucking decomposed bodies?
what if they knew that I can't drive past a funeral home without deeply struggling with going inside and crashing the funeral just to be close to the dead?
what if they knew that I spend hours in local cemeteries just to be close to what I need?
what if they knew that I try and lucid dream as often as I can to get what I need, even if it's not real?
what if they knew that the years of therapy I've been in haven't even broached my sexual issues yet because they're so deeply ingrained I have to address countless other problems first with medication and other treatments?
would they still love me?
would they even talk to me?
would they try to hurt me?
would I go to prison? would they turn me in? would they try to forget me?

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>>34324287
I swear to god If that orange tumbleweed cuts our funding for muh guns

he's gonna get a face full of the reddest taped most inhumane vile of engineered pure pathogenic evil I can bare to throw on his bigly disgusting fucking face-aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaburnnnnnnnnnnnnitttttttttttttt

does anyone else not want a girfriend or sex? ill admit it, i watch porn occasionally and find aome women attractive but when i really put my mind to it real sex would be uncomfortable and confusing, especially with all the touching and if she made noises that would be uncomfortable

ive saw tits irl when i was in highschool and it actually wasnt anything noteworthy like gow i thought it would be

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>started work at a job several months ago
>the pay & benefits are pretty alright, but the job is way shittier than i'd thought it would be
>could probably find a job pretty easily of similar pay and benefits, but way less shitty
>if i left, the entire team i work with would be in a state of chaos
>my boss also has a lot of hope for me and works with me a lot so that i can surpass my colleagues quicker
>feel guilty that i am definitely going to quit at some point this year to find something else

>>34325487
Horror movies must be a hoot.

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I really, really like the smell of my unwashed cock and balls

>>34325574
I'm watching A Clockwork Orange for the second time in two days right now and I watch one at least every night. Gore and horror movies are the closest things I can get to safe entertainment. When one of my coworkers mentions they like horror movies it takes everything I have to contain my power level.

>>34324287
I did half a gram of molly this morning and now I'm dizzy and nauseous. Kinda knew it would happen but it still sucks

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I might like idea of men pounding my ass.

its all my moms fault i didn't have these thoughts until she asked me if i was gay

i just want a girl to hold me at night

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>>34324287

I like to read/watch cheesy romance media and then cry to sleep.

>>34324287
Last thursday, I went to a school party (as I do on most thursdays) and finally had interactions with girls. Funny thing is, I was really close to not going, then this close to leaving around 1am but a friend told me to stick around and it was cool.
I started dancing, some girls started smiling at me and dancing with me. One literally came up, talked to me and told me to come see her some time etc.
The only thing I'm a bit mad about is that this other girl (8/10 pawg) that had been dancing and making eye contact, smiling the whole time tried to initiate conversation at the end of the party and I completely dropped my spaghetti. I don't think I'm ready for verbal interactions yet.
Still, it was pretty fun.

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I want to fuck her but we're roommates
There's a 50/50 chance she wants to fuck me
She also fucks guys regularly and every time she brings one back to the house it ruins my night

>>34325971
Now that I think about it, 50/50 might be my delusional optimism talking.
Probably more like 10%

>>34325989
why would you want to fuck someone like that? why the FUCK are you even roommates with someone like that?

>>34326022
I want to fuck her because I have no standards, and because she keeps leading me on
I'm roommates with her because I needed a last-minute thing and had no other options

>>34326065
if she's a whore that fucks lots of guys and leads you on I say go for it. She'll probably do it if you get the tiniest bit of liquor in her

>>34326163
I think you're right, the problem is getting her to drink like that.
She only drinks when she's going out to a club or something, and by then she'll have some other guy lined up for the night

>>34326163
to add to my post here
>>34326270
she doesn't fuck a "lot" of guys, she's mostly seeing this one guy currently, but it's not official so if he's busy she'll sometimes have a guy from tinder over

>>34326270
A slut like that is only leading you on because she knows you're too beta to make a move. Have some alcohol at the ready on a night she stays in then make your move.

Posted in another bread, but here it is anyways.

>cute autstic girl
>probably more autistic than me
>two years younger than me
>i know her brother, pretty good dude
>he's super protective of her
>i ask for her number
>she gives it to me and i text her
>she responds within 30 seconds
>we talk for a bit
>she sends a normal message, then immediately after she tells me she has to go
>try to talk to her the next day and she never responds
>see her the next day and she's staring and smiling at me

How am I supposed to court an autistic girl?

I'm feeling so dull, man. I'm tired, and I'm sick, and I'm angry. I can't display any of it though, since I've never once had strong convictions about anything in my life and any attempt just looks and feels like I'm trying to come across like that. I'm performing a shitty act for an audience that isn't even there.

>>34325446
I don't know if it's going to fix anything but I'm seriously considering blocking myself from all games and putting a program mandated lock down on sites like this for two weeks. Maybe that'll force me to actually do things.

I tried it once for 1 week and it made me splurge on the site when it was over, I hadn't really built good habits but maybe I need to try again.

Im a spoiled ungrateful little shit

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>lost weight and went from robot to autistic Chad virgin
>girls now find me attractive and I have no idea how to handle it
>got invited to go to some girls dorm to meet her roommate and I said I was sick because I got so anxious I felt like I was gonna puke
>I'm 23 and I can't even work up the courage to meet a girl despite knowing I'm not ugly
>my fear of being outed as a virgin is so severe that I am subconsciously sabotaging my life
Am I just psychologically damaged? Do I need to see a shrink or something?

>>34326424
Put yourself in her shoes. How would you want to be treated? Go for it, make some mistakes but don't show fear or hesitation.

I wish everyone would shut the fuck up about politics. I hate how the social media era has just made everyone think they HAVE to state their political opinion.

It never was like this before. I wish people were back to how they were before 2015. You know, when they weren't just a textbook definition of what wing they were and the primary thing they talked about was politics and they didn't automatically see the other side as the enemy and as pure evil and condemn them even if you have everything else in common.

Its just people used to have other interests other than talking about politics. People from all sides of the fence used to talk to each other and be friends with each other. If someone went "I'm a Republican" and then the other person went "I'm a Democrat" the response used to be "Oh well lets not talk politics with each other."

Fuck I remember the 2012 election people would casually be like "Who did you vote for?" "I voted for Mitt Romney" "Oh I voted for Obama" "Oh cool." And that was the whole conversation.

It just feels like people aren't unique anymore, just textbook definitions, they've let politics consume them and now it's EVERYWHERE. Like jesus fucking hell. Almost every r9k thread is a Trump argument thread now and if it isn't, its what it descends into. I can't escape it on any board.

Trump didn't divide America, Hillary didn't, America did by locking themselves into political safe spaces and automatically condemning the other side, and also by thinking that everyone HAS to know their political opinion.

Fuck twitter.

>>34326512
>the only thing stopping him from being a chad is/was his weight/personality, both of which are easily improvable
you were never really a robot

>>34324287
Can't maintain old friendship going even though I try my hardest keep it alive and message people. I always get left behind.

My mom hates me, My family hates me, My close friend secretly hates me. I never had a gf (And I got shamed publicly for this).
I feel so unappreciated, lonely and drowning in problems that seems to never stop. On top of that I start having anxiety and heart palpitation.

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>>34326963
>Personality is easily improvable
Literally how

>>34327293
just think about what you'd normally do and do the opposite
it's much easier to change personality than height or facial structure you normie

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>>34326567
Basically this. I even have to talk politics with my family now because they've suddenly started giving a shit
>mfw listening to my sister parroting the absolute dumbest Occupy Democrats-tier shit opinions all day
I am not a hardcore /pol/fag or anything but people caring so much about politics and forcing it everywhere is really annoying and I wish it would stop.

I hate how it's a radical fascist opinion to not want white people to become minorities in countries they originally settled. I hate how being some gendered freak is socially acceptable and encouraged, and people are paying to castrate and give dangerous chemicals to their children is acceptable. I hate that I have to accept people that hate my guts and have no interest in assimilating as my fellow countryman.