/25+/

28 and just diagnosed with autism, marked for life and no qt3.14, not even matures sluts will go for me now

>26 next month
>live at home with mum
>haven't worked in over a year due to illness
>local friends I had for years dropped me a year ago for no real reason
>have a degree in web development but not sure i want to do it anymore
>can't motivate myself to do things
>constantly worrying about missed opportunities as i continue to age
>constantly worrying about things not getting better
>constantly worrying about shit like world wars, family dying, being a victim of horrendous violence etc
>spent years of contemplation/reading and thinking deeply about life only to find i've gotten myself almost nowhere with it
>not actually sure if happiness is possible without going full zen mode

Pretty hectic, lads.

I turn 26 next week. I'm unemployed. I have a useless journalism degree. I'm pretty apathetic about things. Working on writing a few books.

>>34269765
What're you planning on writing about?

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>>34269688
32 and sick of all the normo's and children here

Got some pizza right now though, so there's that

>>34269817
Speaking of pizza, what is some essential robot takeout?

Chinese used to be for me but I've grown more weary of the food lately

>>34269688
>27
>live with parents
>drunk every night
>no job for 9 months after I quit
>total piece of shit
>never been in a relationship
>virgin
>do have friends but none of them live in state anymore
>almost guaranteed to be stuck in state even if I move out
Living the dream.

just turned 30....

pro tip: those of you counting on the false sense of security that comes with suicide are in for a rude awakening...

we are hard wired to endure and its incredibly hard to follow through.


I am def sick and tired of watching white trash americans or poor minorities nominating liars for public office. That is the icing on the cake for my current despair.

>>34269817
I'm enjoying the privilege of not being considered a kid anymore. But...

>tfw I only look 20
There's a bad fuckin' feel

>>34269688
27 reporting in.

>live with folks
>have full-time job
>have gf and a few friends
>drink all day when not working (and sometimes at lunch)

It could be worse, I suppose.

>>34269814
I'm writing three different books. One is random horror stories.

Another is a collection of scifi fantasy stories with the same two characters. Think a collection of Sherlock Holmes set in a space setting.

The last is a mobster story set in 1990. The first two are done. I'm nearly done the third as well.

I can't say I'm a good writer, but I can produce content relatively quickly.

>turn 27 next month
>live with mommy and daddy
>last semester of master's degree
>just broke up with horrible idiot girlfriend for wonderful sexy genius 20 year old who was in one of the classes I taught last semester
>still useless robot
>made no progress on thesis
>addicted to drugs
>think I lost a single test from last semester and might be totally boned cus student wants to discuss her grade
>thinking about running away to the hills to live as a hermit atm

I'm gonna get loaded on morphine and weed and forget about how good I am at fucking up all the things I stumble my way into

>>34269940
Not him but just curious - what drives you to write such books? Do you plan to sell them? Don't you feel writing fantasy stuff is a waste of time? Or it is a sort of escapism you can fall into?

>>34269981
That's a very unexpected persona for someone who teaches at university. I can't imagine teaching at age 25. For starters I still feel like a fucking teenager. Secondly I don't have the confidence nor the knowledge. What do you teach?

>>34270015
I do plan to sell them. Although I think the mobster story is my best work yet, so I may never release the other two.

I'm trying to build a backlog of work to eventually release and build a campaign around that. However most advice I have seen online says to stick to one genre. I find that too boring.

I do set them all in the same continuity and universe. Even if the stories are thousands of years apart.

Fantasy stuff sells really well right now on Amazon. The mobster story is the one I'm worried about finding an audience for.

But overall yeah it's a bit of escapism for me. I guess I wasn't 'chad' enough to make it as a newsman or in society for that matter. So now I write fiction to give myself some sort of purpose in life.

Hope you enjoyed my blog.

>>34270058
Sorry, I am a teacher's aide, so not a teacher. I'll probably start adjuncting next year once I finish my master's. I'm just already extremely morphiney.

28

I hate this board, but that is nothing compared to the hate I feel for myself.

I hate myself so much that I constantly stop myself from achieving anything in life. I'm very good in my work field but I'm inconsistent because whenever I feel like I'm about to design/visualise something good, I stop doing it. So what happens is you get an efficient person for 3 months, but then suddenly that person becomes nonexistant or nonproductive.

I don't get how humans like other human interaction this much. I can't stand it, I never was interested in humans. The less I talk to other people the better I get. The more I have to socialise the more drained/fatigued I become.

These days I'm mostly thinking about my past mistakes and how my whole life is centered around the same test and how I never pass it. It's always about this and I'm basically reliving the same shit with different people and different locations. In between that I'm escaping from life and myself either via vidya or the gym.

And then you have to pretend like all of this doesn't exist because your nephew, who is 2, wants attention. He's a cool kid, way more social than me. He likes looking at cars and telling their colours. Today was the first time he slept in a place other than his bed and house. It was my bed.

I can't even off myself because I honestly don't want to become just a distant picture and face to him like my father became one to me. He died when I was 9. I don't want to become that uncle who knew him when he was little but then he had to go or whatever bullshit they will tell him.

Oh and I watched Arrival about 2 hours ago. It's a dope movie. Check it out.

>>34270138
>Fantasy stuff sells really well right now on Amazon
Really? I wouldn't mind writing a book perhaps. I've been thinking recently about a super advanced civilisation that lives in peace, and drawing up images of otherworldly technology and shit. Not sure how that one would go in the public eye

Could you perhaps paste a paragraph of content? No worries if you don't want to

>>34270205
Also, I'm in history, and I used to assume most academic people were like me (totally broken on in the inside and weird as fuck in private) but I've recently realized I'm kind of an exception. Just a few more months of maintaining the facade of normalcy, though.

I spent my first three semesters on some pretty hard opiates (got straight A's and a scholarship) and somehow it got me friends, academic success, and I'm actually with a woman I really like, but I'm still the weird fail robot person fundamentally and I'm just waiting for that to reassert itself.

27.
Cheated my way through an exam today I studied nothing for (so did everybody else, teacher himself said he'd rather not have one, but administration forces him to).

Now all that's left is lear 1400 pages till the 25th and I'm feeling quite low. Not sure if I'm gonna make it, but I have to try.

Afterwards time to look for a better job. Build a new PC. Continue going to the gym. Find some new friends after my old ones abandoned me. Joing a P&P and boardgame group. Develop some daily routine to keep the house clean. Try to make some progress in therapy etc.

Maybe I'll find time to look for a relationship at 30.

>>34270224
>hates people
>posts in a thread full of people
Hmmm. Really gets the noggin ticking.

>Oh and I watched Arrival about 2 hours ago. It's a dope movie. Check it out.
>tfw can't watch many movies anymore since discovering motion picture is a propaganda thought-control machine controlled by illuminati

You might think I'm bating, but I've read about this stuff. Wish I could blue-pill myself.

>>34269981
>useless robot
>get's to be picky about girls
Uh-huh.

26 frenchcuck here
I wanna try going back to uni after failing in law t-three times already (I should rather say dropped out because no self discipline and couldn't stand the work load, also it's fucking boring) and try something else but no idea where to go.
I like drawing, pretty much my only real hobby but making a living with that is silly.
I need to get a degree that is both enjoyable and actually has jobs to offer.
I wanna quit the wagecuck life, it's driving me suicidal.

>>34270310
>Find some new friends after my old ones abandoned me
How do you go about this beyond age 24? I tried meetup.com but there's just something about it that doesn't seem right. People seem too "adult". I want fun conversations and proper friendships, not talking about fucking work and forced pleasantries

>>34270412
Basically what I wrote just afterwards, find myself a P&P and boardgame group. Some older nerds to hang out with is just what I need.

Maybe some of my classmates turn out to not be total shitheads, although most of them are rather young.

Other than that I have no clue. Honestly I'd really only need one, good friend. A pairing like JD and Turk from Scrubs is what I always dreamed of. Too bad that will never happen.

>27
>just got passed over for promotion
>for the second time
>women keep being promoted constantly at my job
>they get priority on good shifts bc muh kids
>applied for 10 jobs
>not a single response

Thinking about moving, but grass is greener. Starting to come to grips that maybe it's never gonna happen for me. I've only had one decent job my whole life and the company got bought out and laid the entire staff off.

>>34270259
You should give it a shot. I'd like to share something, but looking through my work, nothing seems to make sense out of context. Guess that doesn't bode well for it.

>>34270412
Gotta sift through people via the work and pleasantries until you find ones that share similar interests

looking for this anon (>>34265000) from the last thread.

can we talk more?

27 here
i like my job, it's easy, i have a lot of free time, i'm treated well there, get along with the people.

but it's really wearing on me that i'll never have sex or get a gf. it's very, very depressing and makes me want to die.

i'm 19 but i like lurking these threads because i hate other young people

dont worry i wont post anymore, just lurk

>>34270872
You and me both. I find solace that I could just get a hooker at 30, even if I'd rather avoid that and it wouldn't change anything.

Usually I'm too busy or tired to think about it though.

>>34269688
>30 y/o kiss less virgin
>live is so Cal.
>moving to mississppi with my father
>says I can live rent free with him and his other family
>gonna go down south and try and make a go of it.
>it's getting too expensive here in San Diego anyway.
Maybe I can reinvent myself over there.
I look relatively young for my age.
Maybe I can lie about my age and get a qt southern gf.
Yeah right. I'm gonna fail over there just like I did here.
Wish me luck faggots.

>>34270964
using prostitutes really doesn't appeal to me though.

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26 years old and no job exp

But here are my options
-going to trucking school
-get part time job and continue college
-get full time job at factory


I'm fucking stuck. I don't know what to do and am panicking.

>>34270872

26 here, actually enjoy my job but then I come home and feel like killing myself because I'm a khv and nothing is changing for me.

>>34271135
I don't like it either.
It's just the IDEA that I COULD lose my virginity at any moment if I wanted that makes it a bit less painful.

Although I'd find a trip to Thailand really interesting.

>>34271021

Its always good to move and start over, but I' warning you as someone who lives in the south, age is a big deal to women. Southern women get married as young as possible, and they're looking for a guy around their age. So you're going to be sifting through the pile of left over women.

>>34271158
>get part time job and continue college
That's what I'd pick if you are in Europe.
It's not as easy in the US from what I've heard.

>>34271228
I'm in the US anon.

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Hey, just got from the gym, doing fine I guess. And feeling pretty good now, hope it lasts, I don't want to go back to depression. I want to stay in my manic phase forever and be motivated.

>>34271239
Well, can you study without taking loans?
That would be community college, right? Is a degree from there worth anything?

I'm 26.
Fulltime wageslave.
No girlfriend, but about once a week I have a super long masturbation session. Get completely naked and clean for it. Sometimes shave everything below the neck for it.
All in all, not bad

>>34271364
>I'm 26.
>Fulltime wageslave.
where do you work anon?

>>34271158
Pick the second option that's what I wanna do but I've been swamped by debt and now I'm fucked financially

Get a Car robots that way you can drag everyone into the fucking crazy world of automotive finance where police harass you for a lightbulb and you have to pay for emissions and other crap

27 years old here. Currently my life is bretty gud. I make 40k/yr as a lab tech, have a comfy studio apartment and have a qt asian gf. Got a nice, fun to drive car that's paid off as well. My days after work are spent playing bf4 while enjoying some coffee or beer on sweet solitude, which I savor before my gf comes to visit over the weekend.

I spend a lot of time thinking about whether or not I want so start a family or live a comfortable bachelor's life. I really do enjoy my alone time though sometimes, I wonder if I'll have that same mindset for the next sixty or so years. Having a gf and some dating experience is nice only but being tied to the same woman and household for the rest of my life sounds so incredibly boring. That and the marriage prospects for western women suck.

I'll see where life takes me. Thanks btw to whoever has been posting these 25+ threads back to back lately, we need more of them

>>34271502
why not the other two anon?

>>34271442
...gamestop.
;_;
Gamestopblox

>28 years old
>live with my foreign girlfriend
>she complains every week about how things are better at her country
>She criticizes my family every week
>She spents most of the time complaining about her shitty job
>mfw she actually has a boring job but good pay + good hours
>tfw we are probably going to move to her country (ex soviet country)
>tfw what I enjoy the most is playing boardgames with friends and bro and playing vidya
>tfw I can't really do those things much anymore and after this year I might never do them again

life is complicated.

>>34271769
>live with my foreign girlfriend

gtfo normie.

>>34271808
Well, you all told me that having a girlfriend was the one goal in life, the one thing I had to get in order to be happy.

I have a girlfriend now. We've been together three years. I don't feel happier. I can't leave her. I'm still depressed. Having a girlfriend is not the best thing that can happen to you.

>>34271837
Usually we got less people going with normie shit in this threads. Or at least a proper argument. GF is not an exit to "normiehood" not at all.

26 going on 27 NEET here
Bored and counting the hours until Trump's inauguration

>>34271021

>moving from san diego to mississippi

man youre in for a rude awakening. lol. get ready for hell.

to the bummed out journo guy from Devon from the last thread:

this is a really tough situation. a lot of it comes from feeling like you have no agency over yourself. because right now it seems like you don't. you are in a caretaker role with your mom, which fucks anyone up in the head. you're in a bad town you clearly don't like, and you don't have an easy way to get out.

so here's the kicker on this; you gotta let the frustration go

the frustration is what's making you feel like you're stuck in a cycle. it's keeping you from realizing what options you actually have available to you right this instant, because you do. i understand that you feel like you can't abandon your mom, but you -can- set boundaries for how much of your life you spend attending to her. i don't know your mom but i doubt she intentionally wants to put your life on hold. imo most people will take and take whatever you give them until you say no, no judgement to her. on the other hand, if that actually ~is~ what she's doing, then you need to have another more intense conversation with yourself.

try to get over the whole "eh i slacked thru uni" attitude. it doesn't matter how you dealt with shit in the past, what matters is how you're going to handle shit moving forward. it's easy to find justifications for why everything is so fucked up and think there's something noble about failure. but letting that meme into your head makes the status quo is always an ok backup plan. heck no. get used to living with risk. start projects for yourself that you can actually finish. little shit. it's just a muscle to train.

last thing: you are on the internet right now. you have access to literally 60% of the world's wealthiest population at any given moment. you have all the tools at your disposal to find interesting ways of getting story material and making money. you just have to make yourself train back up. it's doable, even though it won't seem like it at first. firsthand experience. hang in there.

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>want to go on a xanax binge
>steam bf won't let me
It's probably for the best

>>34269915
>have gf and a few friends

GET OUT NOW

>27
>asian fob
>no gf/friends/job
>started college 2 weeks ago
>struggling to fit in with others because I'm a subhuman ESL trash

Forget about not having friends or a gf. Being an ESLfag is the true end zone. There is no hope for me.

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>be me
>going through shit breakup and orbiting women my ex is obsessed with
>tfw will never be perfect enough for him
>BPD therapy in 2 weeks
>getting thinner every day

I'm not really depressed anymore but I still find myself contemplating if this life of mine is worth continuing. I guess there's another 10-20 years of cashing in welfare and playing videogames in an apartment alone in store for me if I want to but I lack any driving force or motivation for life in general. Occasionally I let myself get excited about some new game but as everything else that's a fleeting feeling that lasts about 1-2 weeks I'm assuming it's the same for any "positive" event in life before returning to the baseline.

Life Is just a rollercoaster ride of varying states of experience, but how the hell does one find an interesting enough reason to keep going at I it?

>>34269876
I used to lay in bed with a gun pointed at my head. Suicide note written and laying on my desk. But I could never go through with it. I continue living the life of loneliness.

>>34271998
Did this happen because of your parents or different circumstances? I live in a big US city and I always feel sad for the kids of mudslimes and other minorities when their parents raise them speaking their gibberish language. Might as well have drank while they were in the womb.

>>34271158
>going to trucking school

Drivers will probably be replaced by computers soon.

>>34272027
How old are you? How chubby?

Lot of guys like thicker girls.

>Be 41
>workmy ass off for 40 years
>popular as fuck
>married to a loyal Stacie
>omgwtf.exe
>finally have a mental breakdown due to depression and social anxiety
>spend time in mental institution
>basically haven't worked since
>become alcoholic
> browse this board everyday
>shitpost because I'm Aussie
>come here because it makes me feel comfortable
>only get out of bed to fill wine bottle
>honesty don't give a fuck
> feels good man

>>34272211
What happened to your wife tho, is she ok with the current situation?

>>34272247
She has been more than accomodating- more than any wife should. I know I have to get back in the game, she's waiting on that day.

>>34272340
that's actually good to hear, anon, not all is lost! Shit, you've been doing fine for last 40 years, you can get into it again! Good thing you've lucked out with wife.

>tfw no gf
Im going to die alone

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>>34269760
>spent years of contemplation/reading and thinking deeply about life only to find i've gotten myself almost nowhere with it
>not actually sure if happiness is possible without going full zen mode

I hear that. I try to justify my years of NEETdom and social withdrawal on the assumption that I grew as a person, philosophically, through reading and introspection (rather than by focusing on traditional success ie. money, education, friends etc).

But now, at age 24 I've squandered all the opportunities I had when I was younger, and I live like a dog on the street. All I have left are existential thoughts and theories that will never be valuable to anyone.

I have so many forgotten ideas about how I was going to change the world. Now that reality's kicked in after I sat on my ass every god damn day since high school - running away to go full zen mode out in some third world monastery seems more attractive than ever.

Well that and suicide.

33

I just got matched with a little brother and I'm so excited because I'm alone.

>>34270224
>>34271021
>>34272211
>>34269760
>>34269856
You should consider killing yourself

Commento originale (wonder why I thought no one had said this before. Where the fuck do I think I am)

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>>34269688
Should I go to trucking school? I'm very close to someone who is trucking now, he works long hours. What should I do?

>>34272920
Most of the truckers I know work 12-14+ hours a day, 5-6 days a week.

>>34272975
you think I should do it? I'm not sure

>>34273005
It's a robot job, but you need to be a hard worker. Logistics is serious business. No dicking around, no accidents, no drugs in your system, and you're likely going to have to deal with unloading trucks a lot.

Tired of this life.
I also need 3 root canals which I can't afford.

>>34271889
I've noticed this too. It's very refreshing. Totally agree with you btw.

>>34273033
>no accidents, no drugs in your system
I have a clean record and don't do drugs.The person I'm close to doesn't unload much, he just parks and waits until it's unloaded

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>>34272540
I love that guy. I wish I could give as few fucks as he did.

29
thinking about applying for my SSDI soon.
does anyone here get it and have any tips or tricks?

>>34273121
It's not a bad job, but you won't be making big bux until you have years of experience under your belt. So if you're fine with driving at all hours of the day (not on a single load of course) and don't mind having a busy schedule then go ahead. Don't go to a college though, apply to one of the schools that are run by a trucking company. They will pay for your training if you agree to work for them after you pass. If you fail you need to pay them IIRC however.

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>>34272211

>41
>worked for 41 years

>>34270335
And so the delusions begin

I love the posters in these threads. Everyone seems so mellow. Sure, most of us are depressed, and a fair deal of us suicidal. But we all seem to have come to this place in life where we see life beyond the veil of our youthful hopes and dreams, and the hate towards the world is mostly now directed at ourselves, but in more of a way of some form of acceptance, rather than complaint.

I'd hang out with most of you, tbqh.

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>>34273105
Yeah, I'm all for bants, but at least do it properly. Otherwise I like atmosphere in these threads, helps me get by. When I'm here and not outside I actually like people.

>>34273301
I envy your unknowingness. If only you knew how bad things really were. If you ever thought there was a shred of hope for this planet, it's probably best to think again.

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>>34273331
Keep it real, my man

>>34273375
You mistake lack of knowledge for lack of care....

Anyone ever get a job that they were under qualified for?

>>34269876
>HEY GUYS IF YOU HOLD A GUN TO YOUR HEAD IT'S REALLY HARD TO PULL THE TRIGGER

Gee what a fucking concept.

That is why if you are gonna kill yourself, do it the easy way.

Here's what you do...

>grab a foldable lawn chair
>grab some tablets that are easy to overdose on
>grab your favorite booze
>put some banging tunes on your phone
>grab headphones
>go to a traintrack
>set up the chair on it
>start listening to your music
>down a handful of pills
>down the alcohol
>get comfy
>wait

Easy way to die. You're comboing methods.

For added effect, use a blind-fold so you can't see the train coming, and make sure you are a sufficient distance from a road or hospital.

If you don't die right away by the train (which will only happen if for some reason the train is going really slow and you get really unlucky), you'll be bleeding so much, so fast, that you'll be too far from medical attention and bleed out.

25 here

I still live with my mom but I live in San Francisco so it's not looked down upon due to the rent crisis. I came off a really high dosage of LSD and realized on what I have to do. My dream is to become a youtuber and I believe I have the right knacks for it. I've made 2 videos so far and I've never been happier.

>>34271998
>Forget about not having friends
>Being an ESLfag is the true end zone
But anon, how are you ever going to speak with native proficiency if you don't socialize? If you're too embarrassed, you should buy a mic and chat with folks online.

>>34273982
>I came off a really high dosage of LSD and realized on what I have to do. My dream is to become a youtuber
What an insightful experience you must've had