so /r9k/, what was the worst moment of your life? ill greentext mine.

>>34183953

>be me, 15
>bipolar, schizophrenic (both undiagnosed)
>friend invites me over to his for some drinks and weed
>accept, had just gotten rejected by oneitis, was rough, badly needed something to lift my spirits
>takes a long time to convince my parents (they didnt know about the drinks and weed, obv)
>they finally agree to let me stay the night at his
>hype it for a few days, really looking forward to staying over at his and getting hammered
>the day arrives
>catch a ride to my friends house, he lived about an hour from where i lived
>knock on the door, noone seems to be home
>they'll arrive soon, i'm sure of it.
>4 hours later, still noone home.
>fuck it, it's getting late (it was about 10pm at this point), i dont want to get mugged, i'll go to my great uncle's house
>trudge along the town streets to my great aunt and uncle's house
>both super cool people
>sit out in the backyard with great uncle, each of us sipping a bottle of brandy and talking about music
>probably even better than what would have happened if i'd stayed at my friend's, to be honest

>>34183962
great uncle runs out of brandy
>"oh, anon, im a tired old man, can you grab me a bottle?"
>guy is 95 years old at this point (still a badass, though)
>im a nice kid, so i decide to give him my bottle
>"oh, thanks anon, youre a good kid you know that?"
>as he takes a hold of the bottle, it falls to the floor and smashes, echoing within the empty yard
>record scratch
>snap back to reality

>>34183976
>my great uncle died over a year ago
>my great aunt passed a month back
>scurry to reach my phone, open up conversation with my friend
>havent messaged him within the last 3 months
>look back towards the house, totally silent without anyone to take care of it (my parents refused to acknowledge it's existence, even though they were given it in my great aunt's will)
>realise that i hallucinated a whole night hanging out with my dead relatives and probably former friends
>the brandy bottle i was holding was empty, i'd probably picked it up off the road or something
>feel sick to my stomach anyways
>vomit all over myself
>nothing else matters at this point, stumble out of my former relative's backyard and onto the park bench that sits out front
>try desperately to contact my oneitis, she's the only person i ever talk to
>she ignores me entirely, off talking with her friends probably.
>sleep that night on a park bench, covered in vomit and tears, wondering how the hell my life got to that point

>>34183987
>I hallucinated a whole night hanging out with my dead relatives and probably former friends

How in hell? Can schizophrenia do that?

>>34184180
i hallucinated that my great uncle and aunt were still alive, the bottle of brandy and that my friend invited me over. at least, thats all i think i hallucinated.

>have one friend
>she commits suicide

>>34184220
Looks like you weren't that good of a friend.

Strong skin flares

>Get tattoos
>everyone makes fun of me because of them

>>34183953
Basically the first time I tried weed I overdid it and panicked the entire night 5-6ish years ago. Like it felt like there was a drill in my chest and not being able to think properly terrified me. Havent exactly been the same since. Sober life is kinda like a dream

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>>34184637
What's the moral of the story bucko?

>>34183987
>>34184200
dude that's rough
you should probably seek help before you become unable to function

>>34184553
What's so bad about that? You did something for attention and got it.

>>34184742
They aren't even visible and theyre to remember periods in my life.

>>34184771
What's the point in even tattoos if people won't see them?

>>34184782
What's the point in keepsakes?

>>34183953

>be 19, kissless virgin
>meet super cute and super petite (5 foot 0) 21 yr old girl who's already in uni
>she's taking womens' studies
>she thinks I'm awkward but cute. She's a super feminazi but I'm so desperate I hook up with her anyway
>I give up meat for her, becoming vegan, and feel weak and sick
>She convinces me I'm gender-fluid and makes me feel guilty for being white and (previously) straight
>God can she ever suck a dick, though. Every day before bed I would lick her pussy and she'd suck my dick, and I was so happy
>She convinces me that a man wanting monogamy from a woman is sexist, so she says she needs to fuck other guys
>Cry and beg her not to
>She fucks another guy and records it
>I go over to her place, not knowing this, and she shows me the recording. She tells me I need to share her
>I blow up on her, scream, throw shit at her, and leave
>2 weeks go by. I tell myself I'm better than that, deserve better than her, but I can't take it anymore. I feel like such a loser again, I go crawling back to her.

>>34185006
fucking hell
that hurts to read

>>34185006
>She wants me to be her boyfriend, provide her emotional comfort, and continues to suck my dick, but continues to fuck other guys
>She tries to convince some of her female friends to fuck me, to make me feel better. One of them almost does but stops it at the last second
>Three months of this, and finally I tell her I can't handle it anymore, I try to break up with her.
>She tells me I'm a sexist pig, cis white male, that she never liked me, was never really attracted to me, just liked using me as a lick slave, and thought my dick was tiny
>I fucking lose it and start punching her.
>She takes krav maga, she actually beats me up by punching me in the dick, tripping me, and then stomping on my stomach
>I lost a fight to a 5 foot 0 girl
>I'm so furious and humiliated, I go home and get two knives from my kitchen
>I go back to her house and wait there
>she comes home, I jump out and start stabbing her, trying to get her in the neck
>she manages to escape, running away from her house screaming, and neighbours intervene
>I spend the night sneaking through alleyways, avoiding cop cars
>0630, the cops finally catch up to me
>I did almost six years in prison

>>34185006
>"loving" a manipulative whore
Just jack off, man.

>>34185059
Did they have "cis" 6 years ago?

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>go to the movies with normie friend
>nothing good showing
>decide to see the tourist starring brad pitt and angelina jolie

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>graduate high school
>start talking to marine recruiter
>get /fit/
>go to boot camp
>get sick, lose a lot of weight, end up in hospital
>end up getting medically discharged just over a month in
>get back and everyone pats me on the back for "at least trying"
>i just want to kill myself i'm so ashamed
that was the only time i ever felt like a had a direction in life and something to push myself for every day, then i got fucked over and now i just want to die as soon as possible. I didn't even care about the military and service for muh country and shit, I was just happy to have something to strive for and to be part of something so great.

>>34185089

womens' studies was talking about this shit like 15 years ago, at least.

>>34185098
Did you get sick because of the boot camp or what? If not, why don't you try again?

>>34184637
de-realization pal, had a bad go at weed first or seconds time myself but the dreamlike stuff went after like a month.

>>34185059
post pic of gf

>>34185059
>>34185006
Why so fucking violent man, she was a cunt but this entire story is you stooping lower than a person ever should, in more ways than one.

>Had all that young love shit you guys always complain about missing
>Got married, even had a kid
>She died two years into the marriage
The world doesn't allow you to be too happy, or things to be too perfect. No matter how hard you work for it, the world's not gonna let you have it all

>>34183953
When I shot my dick and balls clean off with a .45

>>34187034
Better to have love and lost?

I'm sorry.

>>34187063
That's quite a feat anon, any pics of your fucked uo man vagina?

>>34187070
Take out the kid? No, I probably would've killed myself
With the kid? I yea I guess, but it's always in the back of my head if I could have both of them, we wanted a second one too
I've accepted that the romantic part of my life is over, I've tried my best in the past to move on but I've given up at this point
Sorry that's sort of a hard question, but that's the best way I can answer it
If it helps a little more, if I'm doing the math right (probably not) by the end of this year she'll be dead just as long as I knew her

>>34183953
>grew up depressed
>never really belonged
>had school friends so I was still somewhat normal
>graduated high school
>all school friends disappear
>"at least I still have my 'real' friends"
>"real" friends ignore phone calls and texts
>sometimes catch 'real' friends outside
>'real' friends make excuses to not be around
>"We'd ask you to come anon but there's no room in the car"
>3 row car with 4 people in it
>barely leave house for 2 years
>social skills quickly descend
>still delusional enough to think I'm still the semi cool guy from high school that girls like
>try to talk to girls
>terribly awkward
>been reading theredpill
>make me even creepier than I already was
>girls are actively ignoring me, going out of their way to avoid me
>come home after a long day of failure
>reality comes down on me hard
>realize I'm lonely
>realize no one really gives a fuck about me
>realize no one really did
>realize how little of an effect I've had on people's lives
>realize the only people at my funeral would be family
>try to look on the bright side
>"I can live without friends"
>"yeah I can be happy alone"
>"I'll just work harder with girls"
>"bitches will replace friends"
>try to nap
>I'll either feel better or worse when I wake up but it's better than suffering
>sit in bed, crying because I'm so alone

After that I stopped feeling sad and stopped feeling emotion altogether.

>>34187182
You're a lost cause anon

>>34184200
Hey anon, sounds like you should see a therapist. There's nothing wrong with doing so, I saw one a while back. Did me some good.

>>34187126
Remarry and have more children ifyour white otherwise kys and the kid

>>34187457
Yes, we're white

>>34187534
Remarry then, my mom did at 32 and had 2 more children, shes a lot happier with a partner than she was alone, she was spiriling into robotdom alone, plus the stepdad was cool and i liked having him around

>>34187655
>Plus, the stepdad was cool and I liked having him around
I had a dickhead stepdad and my mom was sort of blind to it for a good eight years, so that's always been one of my biggest fears, I don't want to make my daughter uncomfortable, especially since she's very shy when she's not at home, I don't want to mess with that

My whole life to be honest lad

>dad is a violent schizophrenic paedophile from a rough city
>my mum was also violent
>parents moved from Manchester to Taunton in 1981 because racist
>had my sister in '89 and me in '92
>used to beat me, lock me in cupboards and wash mouth out with soap when I was as young as 3
>had to watch and sometimes get caught inbetween parents physical fighting
>mum and dad divorced in '95
>mum took me and sister to Manchester women and childrens home
>met a guy called Frank
>he used to beat me and my sister, swung us by our ears until they bled
>dad found us and took us to Exeter
>sexually abused me, physically abused me, mentally abused me and verbally abused me
>used to go crazy a lot, heavy drinker. extremely violent
>dropped sister off at cop station in June of '97
>I'm with this crazy bastard until late '98
>go into care
>am withdrawn
>I molested kids when I was a kid (even living with my dad)
>my foster dad cheated on my foster mum so there were a lot of fights there
>foster dad has punched me on occasion
>I tried to fuck foster sister
>killed her hamsters and a dog
>pyromaniac
>thought about mass murder a lot
>thief
>vandal
>I attempted burglary once
>zoophillia

>>34185006
This half is fucking sad

>>34185059
And this half is straight fucking terrifying

>>34183953
When she dumped me.

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When I first discovered masturbation. Now I have crippling depression

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>>34187917
I wish i was your friend irl so i could help you with your struggles

>>34183953
>go hang out with some friends to smoke weed for first time
>two super chads, two girls and me
>too nervous to say anything while we drive around
>get to chad's house
>smoke a little with girl i know around the side-yard
>don't feel nothing
>enter huge bong
>try to take as big a rip as i possibly can
>chad is impressed
>nothing happens for about 5 seconds
>suddenly I become the most primitive form of consciousness
>the early stages of that high were so abstract and distant from normal human cognition that i have no real way of describing them other than i was basically totally unconscious save for a single dimension of consciosness
>more and more dimensions become conscious in my head
rising and upward scirclin, sycling throug the dimensions of experiecne
>like moving in gigantic concentric loops in higher dimensional space
>not normally autistic i dont think at that stage in my life
>full blown autist after i take this hit
>start seeming very arrogant and uppity and talking in a stressed and forced british accent for some reason even though i am from america

The day I had a threesome on lsd

>>34188223
As in killing the normal fags? Cool lad

>>34185059
Hahahah no way thats true
Very nice story though, i liked it

Am i robot if your stories dont make me feel?

>>34185059
Hey prison bro.

I went in for 3 years for burning down an abandoned house. Jail was the worst time of my life.

>>34188370
I just dont like it when people feel bad and have bad upbringings

>>34188270
so you bong ripped your way to r9k?

>>34187786
Try a dating site, maybe Tinder
Maybe it'll cut out all the beating around the bush

>>34188473
greentext some shit pls

>>34184712
>>34187413

Are you guys retarded? He's way past that point, get a grip.

>>34188270
i get anxious too every time i smoke. i just want to get home and read a good book or listen to music, go to bed, anything except trying to socialize with people.

i just get really self-conscious and making words and/or sounds with my mouth (that are directed to inform or to engage in conversation with other people) becomes really hard.

that can't possibly be the worst moment in your life though

>>34188600
I looked into it a bit, it's not the "cards on the table" thing you'd think it is, even at my age
Plus I'd ask my daughter what she thought of some of the girls and she always found something bad to say about all of them, no matter how nitpicky

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>Had group of friends at end of highschool
>Graduate together
>Start dating the group girl
>Don't see them as much over the summer but it's cool we're all going to move in together
>Except the decide to disclude me and have my GF live with them instead
>I don't even really care, I just care about this girl
>Winter comes
>Start getting down emotionally
>Have few friends and the ones I do seem to be avoiding me
>GF dodges the question when I ask her about it
>Spend more time playing video games but still spend time with gf once or twice a week fucking (ree norman)
>We have a nice Christmas and new year
>Have one argument
>Lmao you don't give me enough attention see ya
>Major douchebags mommy owned the house they all lived in
>Find out from his GF that they had all been talking shit about me for months and how I played women and was sexist and shit
>Major douchebag and his merry little band of numales had convinced the nicest sweetest girl I've ever met to dump me and turn her into a bitch
>Fall into deep depression
>Start failing classes at CC
>Stop going to classes and just play video games in the Rec Center at college all day
>Stop sleeping
>Days become a blur of staying up all night and waking up at 4pm to go wage at Pizza hut
>Only solace is 4chan
>/r9k/ helps me a lot
>Lose about 10 pounds and most of my will to live
>Lying about grades
>Stop talking to parents and my two remaining friends one of whom is in Japan in the marines
>Stay like this for about 4 months

Finally decided after this summer to join the air force, I leave in 2 weeks and I'm so happy to be doing something I want to do. Also trump won, and most of 2016 was based as fuck so I'm pretty pleased.

The world is fucked, isn't it?

>>34189697
It feels like everyone in this thread tried so hard and got so far

>>34190094
The worst part is that most of these are just "I wanted to live a normal life" and the world just wasn't having in
Mate, anyone have happy stories?

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I didn't have any "worst" moments, just a chain of semi-impactful moments that shaped me
>dad is an alcoholic
>family feuds between my dads and my moms
>verbal abuses at home from my dad, which in turn resulted in a lack of a father figure
>mom kicked dad out of the house but after a year or so she wanted him back, now starting another feud, mom and dad against moms family
>bullied up until my first year of high school
>barely any social interaction besides playing LoL with some friends
>rejected by oneitis because I didn't ask her earlier, which made me bitter because we still are friends and she is the only person which I really consider a true friend
>had a group of friends which I constantly went out with, but it shattered 2-3 years ago,I barely go out
>don't care about my mom, she's too obsessed with bringing dad back
>past 2 years were uneventful, only helped me in realizing how sad I am

I thought i'd end up happy, I still do sometimes, but I have a shit attitude towards people and that'd be the last nail in the coffin.
It would've been better for something horrible to happen and make me a lost cause instead of hanging between hope and sadness

>>34189457
the fuck?
everything about that story is retarded
study you fuck, it's called willpower
you don't need an easily manipulated girl like that in your life
sweet? she moved in with your asshole "friends" after they excluded you and didn't stand up for you when they talked shit about you
fuck her

you should've stayed in college, studied and graduated. the best revenge is to be successful
Just don't fuck up in the air force

And don't go back to that bitch in 5 years time
It seems harder than it is to drop all your friends, but trust me, you can easily recover. Don't give any of them the time of day, no matter how much they seem to have changed. You're better than that
Or you should be.

>>34191057
I was stupid out of highschool and doing classes at a community college I didn't want to be at with no plan other than 2 years of prerequisites

I started dating her because she was always super fun and always had nice things to say about people

I was retarded yes, but now I have a plan and I'm going to work my ass off

>>34190523
Define "happy". I have a moderately uplifting story. Buckle up, it's probably long. And the ending is bittersweet at best

>be general degenerate in high school
>drugs, alcohol, social retardation, the works
>graduate alright but just miss grades for uni
>spend a year travelling, best time of my life, mature into someone i like being
>return home and obviously it all ends
>run into girl I met about a year prior, call her A
flashback
>when we first met, she had just broken up with a mate of mine. I was a socially odd dickhead so naturally I insulted her in a hilarious way. She didn't like me (surprise eh?)
>she was pretty hot though
>next time i saw her, we agreed to bury the hatchet and that was about it
back to story
>A randomly sees me in a nightclub and compliments how I'm looking and forces me to buy her a drink (I'd always made a point to never buy girls drinks)
>end up chatting with her all night blah blah blah I walked her home and we ended up having a "thing" if you can even call it that. never fucked her though
>somehow I ended up with strong feelings for her
>she wasn't like everyone else - and I had a lot of experience with what everyone else was like
>i actually just enjoyed chatting to her
>but we both started uni in the autumn so we (she) agreed that we should "end"
>cool
>year of uni, separate story. for the sake of this it was just drinking and sex, yay
>probably regressed into more of a dickhead, i dunno
>still chatted with A but...
>couldn't deal with uni, needed to be somewhere else
>dropped out
>hooked up with one of my brother's friends that summer after A kept flaking on me, trying to get over her
>went travelling for another year after working all summer
>generally pretty depressed at this point
>plan was to spend all the money i had on a kickass trip and then kill myself
>i genuinely thought I'd not see my next birthday and the thought was actually weirdly calming
>i wasn't depressed over A, though I'm sure that helped, I
cont

>>34191278
>couple of months before i left, i visited one of my friends in uni who coincidentally went to the same uni as A
>visit was kinda awkward
>tell her how I feel. well, I fail to actually say the words but she understood
>she let me down gently
>depressing journey home
>then a school-friend kills themself right before i leave
>shit
>Travelling again made me happier for the first time in years
>knowing i was gonna die afterwards made it all a bit weird, but in a cozy way
>accidentally "find myself" though
>i now know why people use that expression - i became comfortable in my own skin and realised what I actually wanted
>return home
>A flakes on me again but fuck her, I can't deal with her shit anymore
>decide not to kill myself because I want to achieve something after my epiphany abroad
>still depressed though
>deal with parents was that I'd go back to uni after travelling
>so I have to go back
>decide if im not gonna kill myself, I'll be so drunk that I won't notice
>next year is literally a blur of drinking
>probably become the worst person I've ever been when I'm drunk
>drink a shit-ton. literally. had a few medical complications because of it that I ignored
>genuinely blackout drunk multiple times each week
>have an experience that i won't dwell on that leaves me agoraphobic
>now drinking in my room alone
>eventually pull myself out and manage to become somewhat social again somehow (it wasn't easy)
>somehow graduate that year
>still down though
>realise that the closest thing to a real relationship i've ever had was with A, and that was kinda laughable
>a string of one-night stands and borderline creepy advances when blackout was my legacy apparently
>moderate my drinking over the summer
>return to uni
>old habits die hard
cont (next part should be last)

>>34191532
This story probably feels robotic since I'm not giving any details. I just didn't want to write a book. The experience I won't dwell on involved me getting drugged and narrowly-avoiding being raped and then arrested.

>back in uni
>drinking heavily again in no time
>pull a couple of really hot girls
>pull some complete whales
>feel disgusted with myself, and the hangovers make me feel shit
>so sick of existing in a scenario where every girl i see becomes a "how hot is she?" and "how can i get with her?"
>stop drinking heavily
>focus on schoolwork and this art-project
>a girl i'd met at the start of the year, call her B, is helping me on this project
>i only asked her to help because she was hot as a way to get to know her
>i'm an idiot
>but B's really enthusiastic and she's never seen me wasted
>towards the end of the project, she starts flirting with me a lot
>think i'm being delusional in my sober state because she could have basically any guy and I'm weird and a mess
>realise B's insecure as fuck and has no confidence
>one day she's hanging in my room so I can show her the finished result of the project and finally muster the courage to ask her out
>she says yes
>we begin dating
>finally feel "real"
>B fell in love with me
>aah shit
>I don't love her
>I don't love anyone
>I'm only with her to feel less insecure about myself and so I don't lust after anyone else
>eventually realise I'm probably asexual since I have no romantic feelings at all outside of lust
>can't hurt B though cause I don't want to be a dick
>plus she'd only end up dating some faggot, who'd make me jealous, and who'd probably treat her like shit
>at least i treat her well

>year later
>set to graduate soon
>she's happy as a clam
>we'll have to break up after i graduate
>see la la land
>that "what if" scenario hits me cause I know that's how i'll feel in 5 years
>a-at least someone cares about me for now though
>r-right?
/my normie story about what a complete ultra-chad i totally am

>>34191860
Noones going to read all that bullshit

>>34192157
probably
i don't really need feedback, i just felt the need to unload

i don't have a worst moment of my life; it's a constant barrage of everything and sometimes I feel good, other times I feel shit

>>34192157
I did, I get the apathy you're feeling, not really caring about anyone or anything, I can't tell you it passes over, but it's no reason to throw away what you have with this girl
>>34187786 here, I've got a happy story

>Come home around 7 one night like four months ago
>Go to daughter's room to say hey
>She's reading a book, I think it was Of Mice and Men, I didn't read that shit until highschool
>Say hey and ask her how her day was yadda yadda
>Notice a fucking guitar with a case in the corner of her room
>"The fuck is that"
>She looked at it
>"Oh, that called a guitar, you use it to make music, dad"
>Resist temptation to beat her with guitar
>"Why the fuck do you have a guitar?"
>"(Her friend) said he wanted to get rid of it and he'd give me it for $30"
>Want to call her retarded, but also don't want to crush her creativity, plus learning an instrument is good
>"Whatever, you do you"
>Heard her strumming it and playing a few notes every now and then
>One day she called for me, seemed a little intense, hurry over kind of worried
>She said she wanted to play a song
>After a while of us trying to work out the laughter, she finally started
>It was the fucking song I used to sing to her when she was younger
https://youtu.be/udaMX-xX3zM
>It's sad, but I like the first verse and the "follow your heart no matter what" thing
>She was great, her voice was so sweet but she kept the song somber
>She finished and we started laughing again, I hugged her tight
That's it, nothing much, but someone wanted happy stories

>first day on school
>saw this girl in my class
>thought to myself that i want to know her better
>pretty good lookin, blue hair
>never had the balls to talk to her
>days went by
>a classmate introduced us to each other
>start texting for a while
>become really good friends
>i began to love her like I loved no one else before
>i was kinda the funny guy in class no one takes me serious
>we started cuddling in class or just holding hands
>everyone thought we're together
>told her I had feelings for her
>she said "anon are you serious? i'll never feel the same"
>wtf.jpg
>world shattered in million pieces
>to in love with her to break contact
>shit goes on for months

>got depressed FeelsGood.jpg

Don't really have one moment that is worse than all of the other shitty things that happened in my life but the one I remember the most was this one that happened years ago:
>be really angry and hate myself
>find knife from kitchen
>start to cut all over my arms
>after I was done just sat there and stared at myself in the mirror and looking at how pathetic I looked with blood all over my arms.
>next time I see old "friends" at school (was in high school at the time) I get bullied by them and made fun of for having scars on my arms and shit.
When all of my old friends were laughing at me for that it was a really terrible feeling. I'm glad im not as retarded as I was when I was a teenager, but the image of myself in the mirror has really stuck with me.

>>34188322
we gon need a story fuccboi

>>34192504
Cont- also just the first time i started cutting was another bad moment for my life. I did it lots of times after that. Like i said, luckily im not retarded as I was and figured out that self harm doesn't solve anything.

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I never had a worst moment, just little unsuccesses one after the other that led me to the condition where even getting out of my room is an accomplishement in itself.

It's not even the others' fault, it's just that I didn't know what to do in most situations and things just died out.

>be me
>have a huge crush on an older male teacher
>loved him to death
>school trip to rafting centre
>disabled chad couldnt raft
>he and his friends went somewhere else and bathed
>with my crush
>they got to see him naked in the wardrobe while i only got to see an uggo teacher
>6 hour bus trip home i almost cried on multiple occasions

>>34183987
I'm pretty sure that's made up.
Please return to r/schizophrenia to have a laugh with your lies.

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The worst moments of my life are all atrributed to the period where my mother got diagnosed with cancer, and eventually passed away from it.

Really, it's a tie between the day she got a stroke from the cancer and we rushed her to the hospital in an ambulance. She survived that but it had temporary effect on her memory and it took days before she was even able to speak. The worst part is that she didn't even recognize me untill a few days passed.

The second was the final moments of her life, which I happened to witness. Movies have you believe a person goes away quietly, like he goes to sleep and just never wake up. The truth is often harsher but at this point my mind was already clouded so I can't recall all that much. Foam forming up at the mouth, spazmes and all kind of hard to see shit, untill eventually it all stopped.

It's been three years since that. You have to go on with your life, even after the death of a loved one but what's scares me the most now is that the good memories might just vanish the further away I go from the time she was alive.

Sorry for not green-texting. Also, I kind of missed greentext story threads, remind me of the old /r9k/.

>had to sleep in a bus station for a month
>pretending I was waiting for my ride
>used my only backpack as pillow
>in reality, I had been kicked out of my house for being unable to pay the rent
>didn't have a penny under my name
>my back was hurting like a bitch at the time, got even worse for sleeping in a bench for a month
>couldn't hear very well in my right ear
>got rejected countless times for even the most menial jobs
>my """"friends"""" wouldn't let me sleep a night at their couches or even giving me a glass of water, making up bullshit excuses
>had to escape from a taxi driver once after a job interview because I couldn't afford the ride
>broke down once in a telephone booth after it was so cold and all my clothes were dirty so I had to seek shelter there, with the pouring rain outside. I spent the last of my money calling people I thought as friends telling me to fuck off, even the only gf I've ever had telling me to stop bothering her. I sit down and looked back and wondered where had it gone so wrong. That was the lowest point in my life.

I eventually got a job in a library, and things have gotten better for me. I am even studying literature now, and even tho I have no gf, I like to think nothing can break my spirit.

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>>34185006
>Ever letting a woman convince you of anything.

That was your first mistake, anon.

>>34183953
>worst moment of your life (so far)
Now, and the next one is going to be worse.

>>34192908
Sounds shitty but even kinda comfy.

>>34192491
you sound like a good dad anon

>>34192674
>Also, I kind of missed greentext story threads, remind me of the old /r9k/.
same
we need to make an effort to bump threads like these

>>34193394
Thanks anon, she makes it easy

the time when I attempted suicide but only ended up breaking every bone in my legs and couldn't walk for two years