What is keeping you from committing suicide?

Well, my family would be pretty down, along with my teachers and people i go to school with. But once all thats gone - nothing.

>>34149205
>What is keeping you from committing suicide?
Hope.

>>34149205
Things might still get better, r-right?

I want to find out if there's a way to attach your mind to an omnipotent AI and get rid of the identity and physical body and if there's any expectations to do it before I die

>>34149481
If that is feasible in our lifetime I'm confident it will only be available for the very wealthy.

>>34149205
inertia. laziness. killing yourself is a lot of work. I'd have to be forced into it with a whip at my back, like I have to be forced to do everything else I've ever done.

>>34149205
I don't have an easy/quick/painless method figured out yet.

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Nothing really. It's all so ridiculous. We do things we don't like. It's suffering.

the only way i know is knife , but i have a feeling that a knife won't do the job. i was thinking about whenever i am able to buy a car and get drivers license drive really fast into something.

i almost died from a car accident three years ago.i went to my friends house gave my friend's mother a gift for mothers day. she was pissed off for some reason. i tried leaving but she didn't let me. i had a seizure while driving home. i went to a hospital then a rehab place. i was able to finally go home.

The hope that in sixteen years time, things might take a turn for the better. My family is made up of strict Mormons and stupid hippies obsessed with metaphysics and "energy work". My boss is the only one I believe really loves me. She's told me I'm like the son that she never had. She's also planning on retiring in a couple of years with her husband, so when that happens I really will have nothing.

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>tfw I was visiting my cousin who lives in San Francisco
>feeling suicidal
>drove to Golden Gate Bridge around 11:30PM
>look down
>get huge panic attack because afraid of deep waters
>look videos about people jumping from the bridge to kill themselves
>put my phone down and keep walking straight enjoying the nice breeze and the beautiful fool moon

I will never commit suicide by jumping from a bridge, that's a no no no no no no no from me

>>34149561
She was pissed off that you gifted her something? I fucking hate people. Stupid ungrateful bitch.

>>34149606
You could blindfold yourself and fall off a tall building? I don't know. I have firearms, but I've seen too many disturbing cases of botched gun suicides.

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I want to see if sexbots become a thing.

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>>34149205
The fact I want a dominate woman to take my life for her sexual pleasure

>>34149572
After all that's gone, I'll officially have nothing left worth living for. She's already in her mid sixties, so who knows how much longer she'll live. Could last ten, could last thirty more. If I do end up committing suicide, who knows if I'll chimp out as well.

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because its impossible , we ate all gods, we are all eternal.

>>34149610
i bought her a alex and ony bracelet she bitched about that, i gave her $60. i played some god of war. when i beat the game, i tried leaving but friend's brother tried grabbing my ps3.

i pretty much spent every weekend playing video games with my friend and eating taco bell or burger king. she is a single mother, two boys different father.

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>>34149205
It has to get better. It just has to get better eventually.

>>34149205
>hoping that I stop feeling like shit at some point
>don't want to make my friends feel bad
>mfw my parents just keep giving me shit for feeling like shit and it makes it hard

>>34149770
I keep telling myself that, but everything only gets worse. My self hatred grows more intense for a multitude of reasons, and every good aspect of myife I've built for myself over the past few years disappears one by one.

I'm too much of a pussy, and I'm scared of the pain.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WbaaGXqxu1Q

Is our unpleasant situation a result of the lack of nationalism?

>>34149770
If you've ever been in a worse situation in your life, I find it helps to keep a reminder of that in your wallet or somwhere you'll always have access to it.

When you begin to feel that sinking despair again you can always look at it to remind you of how it does always get better.

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Teeto

Currently: One semester from finished with college, parents' favorite kid, have qt grill who likes me, pretty happy, have future plans.
Freshman year of HS: Dad's shotgun had a lock, considered that I was only 15.

nothing really, honestly im only living for my family.

Some cool games coming out in the future, and I'm still hoping WWIII breaks out in my lifetime. So why not keep on living?

I don't know. I honestly have no idea. I think I'm just existing for no reason.

>>34150114
Well, don't kill yourself, because I love you anon.

>>34149205
The idea that I may somehow redeem myself someday and finally be able to feel good about myself.

Also I don't want to hurt my family. That nice, high up bridge is calling out to me though.

I wouldn't want to kill myself without making a mark on society.

Who here /rampage/?

>>34150231
Did I just kill the thread.

Always.

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why do it now when i can do it tomorrow

the belt isnt going anywhere

>>34149205
Idk anon

orifice

I dunno. I'm 99% sure that my future is hopeless. I don't care enough about myself or my life to try to find the will to live. I guess I can still enjoy distracting myself from reality, like I'm living to escape at this point.

>>34149395
>Hope.
This.

>>34149395
>>34150978
What gives you hope?
original

I'm waiting for the right opportunity, which would be a lull where the few people I have any contact with are at their most ignorant of what I'm doing. I've been scouting a bridge I don't live far from at around 2 in the morning for about a week now to find the ideal time where no one will be there.

At the end of it all, this is a personal choice, and I don't want to involve a single other person.

>>34151033
Well, for one I study success through skilled practitioners (is that how you write it?) of music, great thinkers and athletes and quickly excell myself by following simple steps.
I brainwash myself with motivation to keep my self from hitting lows.

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>>34151066
>>34151033
>>34149533
>>34149522
czeching dem dubbels

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>>34151500
also czeching my own dubbel

>>34151033
I'm hoping my career actually goes somewhere. I'm hoping one day I will have children. I'm hoping that I'll be happier than i am now.

Gotta take care of my family. In a moment of desperation years ago I also took a lover I feel responsible for.

Now 2010- when I was trying- would have been the best year to do it. Everybody hated my guts, I didn't do shit for dick.

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Love, oh and the willingness to take someone with me before I go.

>>34149205
I don't want to give the opportunity for people to say "oh, i knew anon was going to kill himself one day"

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>>34151500
Shit bro I guess I can't kill myself now.

>>34149205
I have a few things to do before I die, they're not even great, but maybe I'd he at peace if I did em

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>>34151631
Damn squiggly! Better smile, mutherfackur :)

>>34149205
I'm too much of a bitch and I don't know who will take care of my cat.

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My family. They love me with such intensity and would be heartbroken if I killed myself. I don't feel anything anymore other than guilt, which is convenient because it makes me put the gun away.

I don't know what to do anymore. I don't really exist. There's nothing for me and there is no way to fix myself.

>>34149395
"Rebellions are built on hope"
>Start militia
>Kill blacks
>Die a hero.

I fear the nothingness that awaits me.

My meditation program. Works well and is fun once you get started:
http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Aware.html

weed and vidya

>>34149205
The hope to one day seize the means of production

H O P E and D R E A M

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>>34149643

Why not combine the two? Shoot yourself in the head while standing on the edge of a cliff. If the gun shot doesn't kill you, the fall definitely will.

Also, saves you the terror of experiencing the free fall conscious.

>>34151535
>>34149522
>>34149533
>>34151033
>>34151066
>>34151500
CHECKED! Those are some nice digits

>>34149205
Fear mainly

>>34149205
My grandfather just died, I don't think my mom could handle her son dying too. I don't want her to suffer like me. She doesn't deserve that

>>34149205

im a original normie

I haven't figured out a way that, though redundantly, meets my needs of having it be painless and in a place I will not be found.

I tried to forgo the latter.
It backfired.

Showing me both are crucial, because i'm not willing to risk fucking my shit up if it isn't gonna work.

My parents don't deserve it, my failure is all my fault. When they pass though I'm sure I'll do it, probably even before their funeral. I feel bad for my brother having to put up with that but I'm getting impatient and he's a norm so he will get over it.

Someone dear to me said things get better. She was right.

>>34149395
elliot said the same..

>>34149205
I want to create a beautiful family with a beautiful woman and be a great father.

Family, especially my mom. I think she'd kill herself if I died.

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Whats the point? The way you are now is how you will be in the afterlife. Forever eternally. You live here as you live in the after life. Be glad you can sleep.

Hope. Hope that things will change. Hope that things will get better. Hope that I will have more time to enjoy myself and less time to worry.

I'm giving it a lot of time. I'm 22 right now, might give it a run until 35.

If I hit that magic age and don't feel that my situation has improved, I'm going to take out multiple credit cards, create a shell corporation in a tax haven, and just keep sending my shell corporation money from my cards. I'll keep doing this over and over and over paying the minimum monthly payment as long as possible until I've accumulated something like 300k - 400k USD, which is where I will declare bankruptcy. Once I do that, I'm going to travel around and check out living in South East Asia, probably Vietnam.

>>34152068
>has a family that loves him
why did I push mine away? Because I'm autistic and just don't feel like trying anymore in life. Always the arguing and screaming. I want to earn some money. Buy a one way ticket to the jungle or a ticket to some cold place and work the rest of my life on a fishing boat.

>>34149205
Besides obvious family reasons, the bond I share with like the 3 friends that I have is all that keeps me going. That and love for some girl whose now an Ex but she always worries me.

Don't get me wrong, I've since then expanded out but she's always on my mind. She still is.

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>>34149205
VR Waifus

My granny is 93 and crippled I know me killing myself would devistate her.

Plus shit will be better once i get that fat inheritance

I have no idea. I'm sure it's something because I Haven't done it yet but nothing comes to mind.

Yakuza 6 coming out in 2018.

>>34155922

My family is unique in the sense they don't seem to reject me for all my robot qualities. I'm a dropout NEET who's been living with them for 6 years and they still love me for some reason.

Honestly, I wish they hated me so I could finally muster the courage to off myself.

>>34149205
My love for anime, tech, and video games. My life would be shit if not for those.

>>34149205
I want to see humans land on Mars. I want to play new vidya and hang out with my friends. I want to support my family.

That said, suicide often comes to mind.

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I havent really hit rock bottom yet. The small amount of attention from girls/coworkers at work works for me, I have a comfy living situatiation, and I still enjoy my escapist hobbies. miuna

Spite. So much spite.

There are many people I despise enough to live so that I can make their lives just a little more miserable.

And maybe someday, I'll be able take them down with me.

>>34156219
But anime and video games are 99% shit

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Kingdom Hearts 3
When you walk away

>>34157368
pretty much this desu
origianl kurwa

Don't want my mom or my one friend to be sad.
That's about it.

>>34149205
I'd rather be alone than nothing.

>>34158156
I think I've watched 100 anime that are not shit. That's less than 1% of all anime but im sure at least 2% of all anime is not shit.

>>34149205
Survival instincts.

>>34151033
As cheesy as it sounds, the fact that tomorrow is another day where anything can happen. There's a good chance it'll be just like every other day - mundane, boring and depressive. But I'm not a psychic, so who knows?

i'm scared so much that i talk into myself that the onyl way is a gun, which are hard to get here.

>>34149739
Can someone explain to me why there was a buffalo holocaust, was it to trigger the Indians or something?

>>34158156
Story doesn't matter to me so much as I get my daily dose of mo-eh.

>>34149205

Nothing really, just waiting to cross that despair event horizon at which point my misery will be too unbearable to ignore or put off.

I procrastinate with everything, even my own death.

Self-preservation

Origami

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im not sure if i really want to. It could be the fact that im a pussy about and am afraid to die. Or maybe im just to fucking lazy to be even bothered to do anything about it. I dont even know if i want to die truthfully, im just so lazy, impossibly lethargic and sad all the time. fun repressing it though

>>34151033
knowing that i move in to my own apartment in July, but have to study to pass exams to get into second year when sharing with 3 girls

if i don't get my own apartment i'll kill myself

Having an interesting, enjoyable & fulfilling life.

>>34160217
>knowing that i move in to my own apartment in July,
Could you explain to me how that will help?

>>34149205
I don't want my parents to be sad. Once they die I can check out.

>>34160257
But what about your imouto!

cause I still have to change my guitar strings m8, can't kill myself when I have a rusty guitar

>>34154841
Same here, when my parents are gone I'll be completely alone in this world, that alone strikes me with enough fear and sadness to just end it all.

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>>34160246
i get an error when replying so read the attachment

My friend. And the thought of not dying in a place I consider home.

My family, especially my mother and sister, but i honestly dont see a future for me so ill have to dissapoint them. Every day i can feel it getting closer and i really wish i could get angry at myself, its like an unstoppable force aproaching you at a distance.
Forever out of place, no enjoyment, noone to talk to. You get to a point where you think it wont get worse but it does and the alchol dont help anymore. Only had one chance and ive missed out on life rotting away emotionless

>>34160274
That would be more reason for me I hate re stringing

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>>34149857
Stormie pls go

>>34150005
Why are you still here? How can anyone living a happy normie life enjoy browsing /R9K/ ?

>>34149205
Luck, love for alcohol, and a need for increasingly risky behavior and degeneracy. I don't care for my life and plan on dying by 35. Not even depression it's just pure apathy.

>>34152070
If you want to make a real difference go kill government officials or high profile bankers, nobody really cares about irrelevant kaffers who have zero influence.

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>>34149205
isn't it obvious
deenze

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>>34160824
This post was made in Oregon

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>>34149376
>my teachers and people i go to school with

Unironically believe I will live forever in vr paradise

http://www.futuretimeline.net/index.htm

Half Life 3.
Gabe pls.

>>34149205
the fact that my parents are still alive

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i want to have sex at least once before I die. after that idk.

>>34160868
>assuming humanity won't be extinct in a few hundred of years

>>34160968
I'm bankig that my brain will be kept alive in a jar/ jar hooked up to vr/ robot slaves work in real life to find sufficient energy for us

>>34149205


So, anons

What do you think about orphan robots?


Imagine being an orphan with no parents or relatives, and with depression.

>>34161093
>I'm bankig that my brain will be kept alive in a jar
If you save up millions of dollars and/or are Einstein 2.0, then sure, it might.

>>34160903
> this is also my primary reason for not doing it.

We are probably why Gabe hasn't released it, he doesn't want mass suicides to occur

These original digits

>>34158411
To sell the pelts maybe?

>>34162627
Easy food and hides.

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>>34149205
Somewhere in the world, she exists

My new gf, who shares the same interests, careers, libido and fetishes as me. My school. My family and big variety of friends. Curiosity to life and world. My job. Travelling. Drugs. Art and literature. One Piece still not finished.

Hell, I love my life.

Realm of the mad god

>>34149205
the fact that my parents would use it as an excuse to play up the whole martyr angle with everyone they know and would get attention from people. for now i'm keeping on keeping on as an inconvenience to them.

>>34149205
Death is inevitable so I figure I might as well live out this life and truly if it proves to be as terrible as I thought, that sweet release would be the greatest happiness.

>>34151551
Glad you have these thoughts anon, never lose them, keep fighting the good fight, sometime you will have a good life.

>>34158311
Keep going on anon you know what they say, after the hurricane comes a rainbow.

>>34154841
Exactly like me, including the norm brother part.

>>34149205
I don't want to make my mom suffer more than she actually does and honestly I'm afraid of what Would happen next. Like, what if my consciousness would be condemned to live in a costant state of despair, because I didnt have the guts to keep on suffering on this life instead? I hate this life though, I know that if I keep on living it'll be just a meaningless and sterile life filled with self hated, resentment and shame

>>34161151
meh, if ai gets good (iit made reasonmable progress in 2016, so did quantum computing) then computers could invent technology beyond our wildest imagination

Honestly all that I'm worried about is global warming

>>34149395
Hope in reality, is the worst of all evils for it prolongs the torment of man.

>>34164076
>meh, if ai gets good
It probably won't get that good during your lifetime though, sadly. I think only the next generation or generation after that one might experience this kind of stuff.

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Procrastination

Kill me Pete

>>34149205
The hope that one day my ex will actually come back and I can be happy again.

And I want to visit Asia before I die.

I can hardly decide what I want for dinner. How am I supposed to decide to kill myself?

>>34158156
99% of EVERYTHING is shit, anon

>>34155797
your kids will most likely go through the same shit you been through so that's kind of selfish don't you think?

eggmans streamus

>>34149205
>What is keeping you from committing suicide?
good question OP. I don't know

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Well, I made a big promise to meet a certain someone once again, they probably hate me and dont want to see me but I'm going to somehow make my way to work for it.

Dumb I know.

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I personally ask myself this everyday without getting any closer to an answer.

I even asked my mom this the other day and she couldn't even think of anything that wasn't some emotional nonsense.