Dead friends

2 friends of mine died in 2015 I kinda just shut down and dropped out of hs now i'm a neet that still has depression.

>>34144619
>I have no clues how to green text

Was it by accident or suicide?

>>34144619
My best friend died when I was 17 and still in high school it crippled me and is the reason I am a robot. Another one of my old friends died last year but we haven't talked in years its still sad though. You will feel like shit for a long time and get sad over stupid shit for awhile but eventually it will stop bothering you as much and you'll think about it less.

Lost my childhood friend like 10 years ago. He took lots of pills and died with fluid in his lungs, basically he drowned in his sleep. I really don't know how I coped with it, I just continued to live until it didn't hurt as much. I still miss him every single day and that wont ever stop but I guess it's easier now. I'm 28 now and I have one friend that doesn't even stay near me. Life is hell and I'm a neet forever. I can't blame it on losing my friend but, that's when I realised that life has no meaning and we all just exist

>>34144619
I got drunk, cried a bit when I think of them and...well smile thinking some cool ghost/energy could be resting or lurking at my life. I kinda accepted. My friend had a fucked up cancer and we saw him all along the proccess. He was one of the most sensible persons I have ever met, when he was taking morfine for the pain we talked about chess,i am really good at it, and he just kinda sighed and said....aahhh I always wanted to learn how to play....It seemed so interesting...but I never had the time....never had the time...and now...well...he picked up his doggo and said me goodbye. He was 50/60 but was a drinking buddy at the beggining and along years we became friends . We were always in a club I really used to go a lot.
The other one is my Grand dad. He was the man I have met have suffered the most in the war, in life and the one who has never complaint, always has given and smiled but when he got mad what was sweet....
He lost sight and kept smiling, after that the hearing and after that the health. After that the vocal chords. And he kept smiling and giving. He taught me to play chess. He was a truly friend as he lived a lot of time with my family in my house. He died a few months ago at the agr of 90.
People pass away but we shall live for them,as they are in our hearts now.
It is hard famalam,but life is hard. Only the strongs will survive