Anyone else here way too sensitive for their own good? I can

>>34133716
You have probably been too pampered during your formative years.

Not really sensetive, but I can get very emotional sometimes because I never really learnt to deal with them as a kid.

>>34133742
I was beaten and yelled at a lot actually, and constantly blamed for things that weren't my doing.

>>34133716
I've been watching too much pokemon beast porn lately, I can't help but think of lewd thoughts whenever I see something pokemon related.

>>34133716
The internet is a mean place but I figure as long as I'm nice maybe other people will start being nice.

>>34133833
I've been trying that for so long. People only ever see kindness as weakness meant to be exploited.

>>34133774
Alright. You were abused during your formative years then. This somehow resulted in you becoming oversensitive and self-pitying.

Maybe to cope?

>>34133860
I loathe the idea of 'self-pity' being a defining factor of my personality. It kinda fits in this moment, though I would profuse that that's rarely the case.

But yeah, to cope is probably spot on. If everything upsets you, then you have a pretty good reason to avoid everyone so they can't do the stuff that's really bad. It seems like a pretty awful coping mechanism though. Why couldn't I just become stoic and unfeeling like my dad instead?

>>34133896
>Why couldn't I just become stoic and unfeeling like my dad instead?

It's a long process.

>>34133927
and let me guess, it largely involves enduring the same amount of pointless emotional suffering, but just not having the energy to emote any further, due to years of being worn down by life?

Is there a high likelihood that there's a screaming bitch-baby like me, trapped inside my silent father? Because if that's the case, I'm surprised he hasn't killed himself by now.

>>34133854
Unfortunately a lot of people are like this especially on this site but not everyone. I hope you continue being nice and friendly to people though not a lot of people like that around anymore but when I do run into them they make my day a lot better.

>>34133976
the key thing is the realization that other people aren't in control of themselves. this way someone being mean to you is like is you stubbing your toe on something, and even easier not to pay any attention to.

>>34133716
I'm with you anon, I hate people who are dick heads/mean to people. I just wish everyone could be nice.

>>34133998
I'll do my best to spread kindness and good will. It's kind of hard when the smallest thing topples me though. I've been trying to find a way to reach the most people and spread the most kindness, but I know that anything that would result in me becoming 'popular' in any sense of the word would likely lend itself to doxxing and further abuse.

>>34134037
if people can't be held accountable for their actions then how can we ever hope to stifle an environment of fairness toward the meek? Actually, I'm afraid that's a stupid question, isn't it?

>>34134063
Only you can take responsibility for your actions. It isn't something you can force someone to do.

and honestly, thin-skinned people are often some of the most malicious.

>>34133716
Rejection sensitivity is a feature of avoidant personality disorder, so you might have that. Either way cognitive behavioral therapy might benefit you.

>>34133716
Maybe kinda.
I don't know what to call it.
Playing overwatch and you get flame from your shitty team looking for someone to blame for why they're so shitty.
No rational part of me cares what the faggots who take that game seriously think. But I still get pissed off.
And it pisses me off that it pisses me off. There's nothing I can do to control it, I'm just irritated thanks to some little faggot on a fucking video game.
It's to the point the my adrenaline gets going. And I don't want it to. So I just sit there glaring at the screen, imagining a response but never sending one because I know better by now, not enjoying my time. Is that being sensitive?

I'm always too kind and generous for my own good. Nobody gives a fuck though. Its never reciprocated much if any and people just take advantage.

>>34134076
You're right on both accounts, actually. Though I will say that my maliciousness is entirely self-contained. I don't lash out at others the way other thin-skinned people I've known do. A large problem is that overly-sensitive people tend to be too self-centered, insomuch that they fail to be empathetic of others. I can honestly say I don't have this problem, and in fact tend to be overly-empathetic, which is what has landed me in multiple abusive situations. Because I'm an idiot that cares too much and winds up getting hurt. ...Because people that have been abused tend to land in abusive situations again. I'm working on that.

>>34134095
Aw shit. ahahaha fuck. No, no that's uh, that's right. I hate self-diagnosis but I'm actually seeing a therapist and that's

fuck man. How come they didn't see that?

>>34134133
OP here, that's exactly what I experience a lot too. And according to everyone that it doesn't bother, yes, that is being over sensitive.

>>34134139
>How come they didn't see that?
You would not believe how many therapists I saw before I finally figured that out for myself. Then I started asking them about it and they knew nothing of personality disorders. They're like doctors who only know about the cold and the flu and you're coming to them with some rare condition. Psychologists and psychiatrists are the ones who will actually be able to diagnose you, though it may still be worth trying CBT with the therapist since that's something they'll know how to do and they're probably cheaper than a psych.

>>34134133
I avoided any kind of competitive game like it was the plague for a long time because of this, and I still generally don't care for them. It's just not worth it when it does that to you. Wish I could tell you why it's gotten better but it's just been a long process of living and reflecting and trying to make sense of myself.

>>34134253
Thank you for your wisdom on the matter. A problem I foresee however, is that I have no desire to become able to overcome avoidance. The physiological effect of being put into a confrontational situation is rather profound on me, and if learning to cope with and treat the likely avoidant personality disorder that I have means throwing myself into confrontational situations, I don't believe I have what it takes to endure that.

>>34134345
One doesn't "overcome" a personality disorder, which is a fact that is lost on people used to treating anxiety disorders. I can throw myself in situations like that and it does me no good because I simply dissociate and withdraw into myself and no force of will is sufficient to make me engage. Still, if you can approach those situations gradually enough and with a limited enough exposure, you may still gain a degree of tolerance and functionality in them. In my experience, however, it comes at the cost of a kind of internal disconnect, a detachment from the vulnerable part of oneself, so this isn't a trade-off I'd recommend unless it was essential to your survival in life.

>>34134421
So basically, I'm stuck like this, unless I sacrifice my sense of self and disassociate to some degree whenever I'm in that kind of situation?

Geez, kinda wish I wasn't abused so much; this is kind of a raw deal.

>>34134344
Overwatch is just so fucking autistic I can't handle it. I've never played anything like it. Halo or CoD at it's absolute worst never came close to the rage I see on this game.
I'm guessing this is the kind of shit that dunky talks about when he says League isn't even a fun game.

>>34134450
That's been my experience, but your mileage may vary. Maybe mine is a more extreme case.

You and me both. It would be no exaggeration to say it's ruined my life.

>>34134345
I also have a avoidant personality disorder but I'm not the same type as you. You seem to be the type that gets stepped on by people constantly because they always put the needs of others ahead of their own and are friendly with everyone. I'm the type who forgot to express emotions of any kind because I'm so scared of the reaction they provoke so people think I'm an emotionless sociopath even though I'm quite the opposite inside. I can tell you, trying to endure confrontational situations doesn't help much, you may manage it but in the end you'll still feel like shit and nothing has changed

>>34134486
I've never gotten the appeal of MOBAs. Clearly there's something there cause a lot of people play them and a lot of game developers seem to be jumping on the bandwagon, but I really hope it's a trend that dies off.

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>>34133716
>everyone is so mean to one another in online games
are you retarded? like nigga close your eyes

>>34134486
I've heard that league is in a world of its own compared to overwatch. How any community can get worse than that is beyond me. And that's largely why I only play with friends now, despite how much time I logged in it in the past.

>>34134512
Shit man. Shit. I wish I could say something to help. You seem to be ahead of me on figuring this mess out though, so all I can really say is good luck to you...

>>34134526
when I feel low I stop emoting, so I halfway get you. Confrontation has never led to anything good with me either.

Self-pity is a process that perpetuates itself. You need something to shake you out of the loop so to speak.

>>34133716
stop being a boring shitter anon and embrace the toxic meme t b h or kys

I absolutely fucking abhor competetive and most of the people who play it regardless of the game. I have no problem if they want to stick to their own playlists but problems arise when they or the competetive mindset show up in cashul.

There are so many examples of arguments I can list off the top of my head too but a bad one happened just last night
>playing insane horde on gears, wave 44 everything going great
>one guy dies
>starts yelling at everyone to grab his tags even though they were across the map
>someone else tells him to stfu, calls him a retard etc
>keeps going back and forth
>type "guiiise stop fightiiing ;w;" in the chat
>they team up on me calling me a sissy, faggot things like that
>immediately go back to shit talking each other again
>actually screaming at each other at this point
>one leaves
>other guy leaves
>third guy leaves
>last guy apologizes to me and leaves too
>left by myself, decide to just go to bed

>>34134590
I'm gonna take a wild guess and say you play as Kait.

>>34134647
Sleeveless gear or Gary when someone else has him.

>>34134590
Something about Gears mp has always filled people with impotent murderous rage. Maybe it's the other way around, I can't tell too bee honest.

>>34134573
I understand that. Right now my best option is sleep, since that usually resets my emotional state.

>>34134587
Man I've been called a lot of things from people on the internet. But nobody has ever called me boring.

It's odd, that's probably the most upsetting thing that someone could actually say to me, considering I've done more than most people will ever try, and it doesn't hurt at all, because I know you're wrong.

It makes me wonder why everything else hurts

>>34134711
the shotguns did it to me. They never made any fucking sense, I'd shoot a guy in the face and he'd be fine, he'd shoot me in the leg and I'd explode into chunks of meat.
There was no regularity to it. Like halo you know how close you have to be to one shot someone with the shot gun. Or how close to get to make the sword lunge. It's predictable and reliable. Gears never felt like it had any of that. That's what drove me nuts and why I stopped playing it after 2.

>>34134837
Sounds like shit net code is to blame.

>>34133716
I would never even consider playing online just because I'm afraid I'm not good enough and people would laugh or say mean things. At least I save money on PS+ this way

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>mfw I been online for 11ish years and spent most of that time on 4chan and don't really get upset by anything now

>>34134837
You do get a feel for it after dicking around long enough. But as a holder of Seriously 2/3.0 I can tell you with absolute certainty that a lot of the times it's just fucking magic and you learn not to question it.

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>>34133808
>tfw an artist you don't mind does a lot of gay porn with the qt male pokemon trainers

>>34134911
that's the weird thing about it.
I can come on here get called every name under the sun and not bat an eye.
But for some reason when it happens while gaming it bothers me. It's like I'm getting attacked in my own dojo

>>34134945
Can't ya just mute people?

>>34134966
I don't use a mic anymore. And I do mute people.
But by that point in time it's already been said. But more often than not it's a sent message that sets it off. A stupid text message, not even voice. No different than here. Idk what the deal is.

>>34134711
My friend threw his entire Xbox across the room when he kept getting spawn trapped by some spic kid on 2. What really made him do it was the message he got after, a simple
>dieeee putaaaa jajaja >:}

>>34134587
kek how many people do you think have REALLY commit suicide just because you told them too?

yea yea and yer gonna post to me kys

nope buddy boi i aint gonna.